Whee Whee~~ Me home from outing with Mae Houng!! Suppose to go out with another 2 but they unfortunately cannot make it. Nvm~ All the more girl time for me and Mae Houng ^^.
Went with sis, both of us plan for our own groups to watch movie de... Sadly queue is veli veli the LONGGG!!! So instead we sat, chat, ate, window shop, and many others XD. Fun fun~
We had lunch at Paddington House of Pancake (hehe~ coz I really like pancakes), had this chocolate fondue with ice cream, strawberries, pancakes, bananas and marshmallow!! Yummy~ Forgive me for no pictures!! We not exactly the photo takin kind. Hehe~!! More like the makan and relax type ^^.
After tht we adventure off to buy certain things while at the same time going thru lingerie and clothes shop. Why lingerie?? It just happen to be in Jusco XD!!
Next next we went walking and talking~ Oh and guess the number of ppl I met. Forgive me for some secondary ppl coz I couldnt remember their names thrfore didnt dare call out. Still, i was right beside n u cannot recognize me. LOL!!! Oh oh~ I saw Ps Dan too!!! Then then I saw Kawsi!!! Then then I saw George Cheah!! Erm.. Didnt say hi to george coz I think he was with his brothers and were few metres ahead of us XD. Oh well~
Hm.. Lemme think who else I saw... Saw quite a lot of MGS girls still.. Hm... Anyways, me and Mae Houng went doll hugging around the doll shops too XD. We seemed a bit like psycho ppl but many dolls we agreed were cut were the big BIG eyes dolls and nice to cuddle ^^.
Looking forward to meeting up again if possible =). Thts all for today ^^!!
Loves
Rei Rei
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Haraheta
I AM SOOOOOOOO HUNGRY!!!! Ugh.... Slept then woke up byk kali till 2am then finally cannot slp. Aiyooooo~ Ppl learn from this, if ur hungry JUST GO EAT!! Dun b like me stay in bed n wait till breakfast comes. Ish...
Couldnt slp, cari kawan teman till 5am... Lol... I really am gonna be zombified whole day today. Greattt~ Just now I felt so weak that step out of bed oni dizzy. No I am not on a diet.. I was just VRY VRY hungry. Anyway... Lesson learnt. Time to get ready~
Oh and another thing I learned... Cannot chat with me past 4am... I talk nonsense de @@..
Cya tonite if i gonna blog tonite. Off to c Mae Houng and Daniel (if he is coming)..
Cheerio~
Love
Rei
Couldnt slp, cari kawan teman till 5am... Lol... I really am gonna be zombified whole day today. Greattt~ Just now I felt so weak that step out of bed oni dizzy. No I am not on a diet.. I was just VRY VRY hungry. Anyway... Lesson learnt. Time to get ready~
Oh and another thing I learned... Cannot chat with me past 4am... I talk nonsense de @@..
Cya tonite if i gonna blog tonite. Off to c Mae Houng and Daniel (if he is coming)..
Cheerio~
Love
Rei
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Tattles
I realized I forgotten one more "page" of my dream yesterday. Realized it only as I was feeding my Snowball in the evening. It was like this..
My Snowball's favourite tug-of-war game is her lil' puppy doll. Length is about from ur wrist to your elbow (try using a girl's hand to measure if urs too long XD). Well, her favourite spot to bite is the neck or throat. Deadly i noe XD~ So so in the dream i dreamt that I was coming to feed her, started to grab tht doll to play with her and realized that the throat was completely ripped off XD. There was like this "gap" at the throat.. Horrifying? Maybe not so much since its just a doll =P. But in my dream my doggie was so happily eating off her dinner XD.
Yep yep~ I think that was the last of the dream =P. Oh oh~ Guess what my new hobby is instead of starin 24/7 at a computer or watching movies one by one on the computer?? Readin~!!! Yesh yesh~ I am getting my "old" habit back but control k...? I read off... 5 story books thanks to my cousin's boxes of story books. Hohoho~!! I realized how efficient reading a book can be when u wish to pass time =D.
Well well, thats all for now. Sis is behind me watching some anime... Keep hearing "AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!" or "IYAAAAAAA!!!!!" or "Daijoubu" or this scared lil' girl sounds.. Hm.. Haha!! Okie~ Tata for now~
Cheerio~
Luv
Rei
My Snowball's favourite tug-of-war game is her lil' puppy doll. Length is about from ur wrist to your elbow (try using a girl's hand to measure if urs too long XD). Well, her favourite spot to bite is the neck or throat. Deadly i noe XD~ So so in the dream i dreamt that I was coming to feed her, started to grab tht doll to play with her and realized that the throat was completely ripped off XD. There was like this "gap" at the throat.. Horrifying? Maybe not so much since its just a doll =P. But in my dream my doggie was so happily eating off her dinner XD.
Yep yep~ I think that was the last of the dream =P. Oh oh~ Guess what my new hobby is instead of starin 24/7 at a computer or watching movies one by one on the computer?? Readin~!!! Yesh yesh~ I am getting my "old" habit back but control k...? I read off... 5 story books thanks to my cousin's boxes of story books. Hohoho~!! I realized how efficient reading a book can be when u wish to pass time =D.
Well well, thats all for now. Sis is behind me watching some anime... Keep hearing "AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!" or "IYAAAAAAA!!!!!" or "Daijoubu" or this scared lil' girl sounds.. Hm.. Haha!! Okie~ Tata for now~
Cheerio~
Luv
Rei
Monday, December 27, 2010
Strange Tiring Dream
Goodness... Ever felt more tired instead of being refreshed after a good nite slp? Seriously weird.. Last night I kept dreaming of things that could happen in this week or today... Like one, not sure why I dreamt of just that, he changed his fb name worried that my parents will stalk him XD. Even though we agreed he is innocent and nid not worry for anything. My parents just like to c who I hang out with.
Another dream was tht I was working for dad, and he made me send urgent documents around but he took my car. And the all were due tht day. Oh my oh my... Then in another dream not sure what I was doing lar...I think someone rob my car. Haha!! N i just went chasing after it @@. Funny how long I can run coz the distance between me n the car was the same. Haha!!
Oh then I was suddenly back in the office typing typing typing... N i woke up. Guess wat?? Sister was playin maple -.-"...In other words.. typing came from her.. Boy oh boy~
Wanted to get up but too tired and exhausted... Felt like i just ran a miles. XD
Well, will continue more blogging later. Cya~!!
Love
Rei
Another dream was tht I was working for dad, and he made me send urgent documents around but he took my car. And the all were due tht day. Oh my oh my... Then in another dream not sure what I was doing lar...I think someone rob my car. Haha!! N i just went chasing after it @@. Funny how long I can run coz the distance between me n the car was the same. Haha!!
Oh then I was suddenly back in the office typing typing typing... N i woke up. Guess wat?? Sister was playin maple -.-"...In other words.. typing came from her.. Boy oh boy~
Wanted to get up but too tired and exhausted... Felt like i just ran a miles. XD
Well, will continue more blogging later. Cya~!!
Love
Rei
Sunday, December 26, 2010
One Of The Many Small Blessings
This will be just a short small post. This blog isn't just for ppl to read but its also for myself to reflect back at how much things have past and a lovely journey to remind how much God has actually done in my life.
I know how sometimes..or tht is an understatement...how MANY times, I have actually taken ppl for granted. Like few of my close friends, Kawsalya, Elisha, Andrew, Alex, Jun Jin and so on actually do take time to talk to me. But I RARELY start conversation with them unless I got some confusion. Its sorta my bad habit i guess, haha!! okok.. Not gud thing. I'm just not as used to findin ppl for conversation like tht *snaps*!! I come online, I see more than 50 contacts (some of u i noe have more), n u expect me to just choose like tht... Haha!! I really no idea how ler. I cant talk to 50++ ppl at one go? But but but... Really honestly, deep down my heart, I do do DOOOOO appreciate the small talks sometimes we have. Exchange of a few sentence delights me enough to know tht we still talk.
Another small blessing which i realize i am starting to look forward to.. Even though it comes every 3 months plus OR MORE!! Is Denise Cheong's email. The lil' email where we talk to each other telling of our present happenings but only replying or receiving a reply 3+++ months later XD, when its all over. Haha!! But its amazing seeing or reading back u noe. Really!! Try keeping a friendship only through mail n no face to face contact. Its really tough. But still, i have to say its one of the small things like this we oversee at times which i really do appreciate =).
Thats all~
Luvs <3
I know how sometimes..or tht is an understatement...how MANY times, I have actually taken ppl for granted. Like few of my close friends, Kawsalya, Elisha, Andrew, Alex, Jun Jin and so on actually do take time to talk to me. But I RARELY start conversation with them unless I got some confusion. Its sorta my bad habit i guess, haha!! okok.. Not gud thing. I'm just not as used to findin ppl for conversation like tht *snaps*!! I come online, I see more than 50 contacts (some of u i noe have more), n u expect me to just choose like tht... Haha!! I really no idea how ler. I cant talk to 50++ ppl at one go? But but but... Really honestly, deep down my heart, I do do DOOOOO appreciate the small talks sometimes we have. Exchange of a few sentence delights me enough to know tht we still talk.
Another small blessing which i realize i am starting to look forward to.. Even though it comes every 3 months plus OR MORE!! Is Denise Cheong's email. The lil' email where we talk to each other telling of our present happenings but only replying or receiving a reply 3+++ months later XD, when its all over. Haha!! But its amazing seeing or reading back u noe. Really!! Try keeping a friendship only through mail n no face to face contact. Its really tough. But still, i have to say its one of the small things like this we oversee at times which i really do appreciate =).
Thats all~
Luvs <3
Thursday, December 23, 2010
If I Had One Chance
I know I've been posting this almost everywhere but really~ Its one of those times where I get so riled up in God's point of view (I think) that I start thinking and praying till I can't sleep!! @@
After watching MadWorld in SIBKL yesterday, I was wondering more towards what is Christmas about. The busy and well-off ppl bustling about, while the poor and desperate do what they can to continue surviving... And me, along with other teens that do not need to suffer are quite enjoying life or taking it for granted.
Christmas.. What is Christmas really about? If u want me to go answer from the Bible, its definitely the birth of Jesus, that is why we celebrate. Maybe to the younger ones, its about presents and laughter.
What else is Christmas about? Giving? Me giving presents to my siblings always seemed enough, but this year.. Not sure why lar.. I felt it actually isnt enough? I feel like I really wanna give the needy and poor too. I wanna bless them and let them feel the comfort that the Lord has bless me with. Its a crazy idea I suppose.. But still, I somehow feel that to most poor and desperate ppl, feeling a brief moment of comfort is like leisure and infinite joy to them. Its like Hope..
Maybe its what God put upon my heart, or maybe its cause i always see Ps Daniel (aka my Spiritual Papa XD) and his wife so passionate for the teens and young ppl, that I wanna do something for them. I feel almost as much pain as I wanna do something for them, yet no idea how to do it or where to start!! A huge crazy plan but unable to execute, sometimes it feels like a huge successful plan but due to no action is just a air, nthg~ Okayy maybe tht was a bit too negative.
Ish ish~ Haha!! I'm frustrating and confusing my own self. But all in all, from deep within my heart. For love, peace and joy for EVERYONE that is breathing, if I could have a wish or a law that is able to come to pass, it would be to at least have no violence, no suffering and no status on the day of Christmas =).
Because being God's children, which Father would not want to see His children happy and smiley? Not to mention on the day of His Son's birthday. The One and only Son that He sent down to Earth to die for you and me, that we may come back to Him and call Him, Father in Heaven.
So far I've typed enough. Type too much will be a bore to read =P. So I leave you with 2 verses, quite well known and used often but still has lots of love and meaning behind for each of us. Have a blessed day and a blessed Merry Christmas =).
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" - John 3:16
"We love because he first loved us." - 1John4:19
Love
Rei
Extra meaningful verses:
"..God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1John4:16-18
After watching MadWorld in SIBKL yesterday, I was wondering more towards what is Christmas about. The busy and well-off ppl bustling about, while the poor and desperate do what they can to continue surviving... And me, along with other teens that do not need to suffer are quite enjoying life or taking it for granted.
Christmas.. What is Christmas really about? If u want me to go answer from the Bible, its definitely the birth of Jesus, that is why we celebrate. Maybe to the younger ones, its about presents and laughter.
What else is Christmas about? Giving? Me giving presents to my siblings always seemed enough, but this year.. Not sure why lar.. I felt it actually isnt enough? I feel like I really wanna give the needy and poor too. I wanna bless them and let them feel the comfort that the Lord has bless me with. Its a crazy idea I suppose.. But still, I somehow feel that to most poor and desperate ppl, feeling a brief moment of comfort is like leisure and infinite joy to them. Its like Hope..
Maybe its what God put upon my heart, or maybe its cause i always see Ps Daniel (aka my Spiritual Papa XD) and his wife so passionate for the teens and young ppl, that I wanna do something for them. I feel almost as much pain as I wanna do something for them, yet no idea how to do it or where to start!! A huge crazy plan but unable to execute, sometimes it feels like a huge successful plan but due to no action is just a air, nthg~ Okayy maybe tht was a bit too negative.
Ish ish~ Haha!! I'm frustrating and confusing my own self. But all in all, from deep within my heart. For love, peace and joy for EVERYONE that is breathing, if I could have a wish or a law that is able to come to pass, it would be to at least have no violence, no suffering and no status on the day of Christmas =).
Because being God's children, which Father would not want to see His children happy and smiley? Not to mention on the day of His Son's birthday. The One and only Son that He sent down to Earth to die for you and me, that we may come back to Him and call Him, Father in Heaven.
So far I've typed enough. Type too much will be a bore to read =P. So I leave you with 2 verses, quite well known and used often but still has lots of love and meaning behind for each of us. Have a blessed day and a blessed Merry Christmas =).
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life" - John 3:16
"We love because he first loved us." - 1John4:19
Love
Rei
Extra meaningful verses:
"..God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them. This is how love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment: In this world we are like Jesus. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1John4:16-18
Makan-ing Out with Primary School Friends
How often do we get a chance to meet up with our primary school friends? Or how often to u bother meeting up with them? =P According to my parents, our generation is blessed to have facebook to keep in contact XD. Which i do not disagree, i wouldve lost contact with MANY of my primary friends except Amanda (i still remember her hse number after.. 8 yrs? Also i manage to keep in contact with those tht i see in church. And also Oscar whom without fail, always sms me to keep in touch once in awhile. Appreciate it Oscar ^^.
Well, on tuesday... Yea tuesday night. After susah-payah tryin to confirm a date and eatin out with few of them, it kinda failed. Haha!! Leaving me and Amanda to hav our own chit chatty~ We talked a lot, shared a lot, and i cant believ she didnt know i wore specs -.-"... We also rethought back to the time where we first met and she keep reminding me how passive and quiet i was with a book.. Hm.. Surprised that after primary sch i became more... Sociable? Haha!! Instead of waiting for ppl to say hi, i actually said hi first.
Was funny bout what we talked about also, relationships, friends, teachers, schs.. some were the same. haha!! We both surprisingly became involve in few naughty stuff =P. We were vry gud k in primary =P. Haha!! Then shared bout uni life now.. Wow~
Then after seeing my primary friends photos.. U start to think.. Hey, we are no longer kids anymore. The playful boys i noe now r GUYS XD. I still find it a bit weird but yea XD. Some tht me n Amanda thought when we were young were quite normal looking, now grow to be quite.. eh hem.. handsome =P. Haha!! Girls have also grown differently. Not sure why.. But we all keep commenting each other's look. Haha!!
Well, tomoro will be another day i hope~ This time hopefully with more ppl ^^. Will tell u all next time ^^. Nite!!
Love~
Well, on tuesday... Yea tuesday night. After susah-payah tryin to confirm a date and eatin out with few of them, it kinda failed. Haha!! Leaving me and Amanda to hav our own chit chatty~ We talked a lot, shared a lot, and i cant believ she didnt know i wore specs -.-"... We also rethought back to the time where we first met and she keep reminding me how passive and quiet i was with a book.. Hm.. Surprised that after primary sch i became more... Sociable? Haha!! Instead of waiting for ppl to say hi, i actually said hi first.
Was funny bout what we talked about also, relationships, friends, teachers, schs.. some were the same. haha!! We both surprisingly became involve in few naughty stuff =P. We were vry gud k in primary =P. Haha!! Then shared bout uni life now.. Wow~
Then after seeing my primary friends photos.. U start to think.. Hey, we are no longer kids anymore. The playful boys i noe now r GUYS XD. I still find it a bit weird but yea XD. Some tht me n Amanda thought when we were young were quite normal looking, now grow to be quite.. eh hem.. handsome =P. Haha!! Girls have also grown differently. Not sure why.. But we all keep commenting each other's look. Haha!!
Well, tomoro will be another day i hope~ This time hopefully with more ppl ^^. Will tell u all next time ^^. Nite!!
Love~
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Cannot Sleep
Its been 5 days since I had proper sleep. By proper I mean not tossing and turning till 3am or 5am in the morning and then only falling asleep. But then only to wake between 10am to 12pm. Ish.. I feel tired yet unable to sleep. Why I wonder..
I also recently started retraining my doggie. After not being able to attend to her much this whole year, I've started making time to do what I should do. What sorta push me to this was I realize my poor baby doggie was being underfed and treated unkindly. Ish ish!! I am so gonna turn that around before I leave without it. Aihz... So gonna miss it. But good news~ After one week of nursing and playing, its back to its jolly plump old self ^^!! *yippeee*
Sad news from that is.. I got my terrible allergies (for fur) back T.T... Been sneezing quite a lot, this is so not fun T.T!! But watching my doggie grow back to its plump hyper self makes me feel soo happy.
I'm kinda tired now... But all I seem to be doing is yawning while my mind is still quite active. Ish ish~ 1/8 of the clothes left to arrange.
I used to say that if you can't fall asleep means God wanna talk to you and spend time with you. I wonder could this apply... Hm...
Loves~
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I Have A Dream by Abba
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I'll cross the stream - I have a dream
I Have A Dream by WestLife (original is Abba)
Hm.. Having this lyrics go through my head make me feel at peace even though I woke up due to unable to slp. Try googling or youtubing it up. Promise you its really a nice song, even though its one of the oldies. No matter =), it did become famous in Ma Ma Mia if you've watched the show.
Luv
Rei
Repairs Made For Now
Hey hey~ Its very very late. Well, this is my new layout for my blog. Feeling different eh? =P
For future reference, I will post up this new layout "preview". So yea.. Why it took me awhile? Cause I was too blur to notice some buttons which was just under my nose.
Oh well, legs pain and eyes tired. Symptoms showing... Time for bed =P.
Nite pplz~
Oh~ Feedjit will be facing a few problems. Should b fine soon ;).
Loves
Rei <3
P.s
I just realize how Christmassy this layout looks with all the red, white and pink. Oh well~ =P
For future reference, I will post up this new layout "preview". So yea.. Why it took me awhile? Cause I was too blur to notice some buttons which was just under my nose.
Oh well, legs pain and eyes tired. Symptoms showing... Time for bed =P.
Nite pplz~
Oh~ Feedjit will be facing a few problems. Should b fine soon ;).
Loves
Rei <3
P.s
I just realize how Christmassy this layout looks with all the red, white and pink. Oh well~ =P
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Coming back
Hello hello dear blog~ I know I very on off de. But but.. Will redesign u once again =P. As a new start coz after CNY, its gonna be different yea? Was thinking of doing a post based on Jordin Spark - One Step At A Time, would be good yea? I feel it speaks not just bout love but also our life.
Well, things seems different during this uni hols (no more sch hols). Very very soon lor~
Oh oh!! I've cut my hair too!! So will probably do a post on the stages of hair style i tried this year XD. Well well~ Till then =P
Loves
Rei =P
Well, things seems different during this uni hols (no more sch hols). Very very soon lor~
Oh oh!! I've cut my hair too!! So will probably do a post on the stages of hair style i tried this year XD. Well well~ Till then =P
Loves
Rei =P
Monday, November 22, 2010
Getting Better
Tomoro is the day, and I am here bloggin. Whee? Haha!! Anyway, things are slowly going natural i guess. During the time of studies, everyone feeling pressured, even myself blowing up. Whew~ Glad thts half over. But it was when asking God for peace ever struck me tht i SLOWLY try to enjoy studyin n doing as best as i could.
As we climb to the top, or to the next top hill, we are bound to be stretched and challenged. Are u willing to trade ur worries and risky situations in the hands of someone u cant see but yet wants the best for u??
Hard isn't it? But i'll try. Coz the Lord would not want any of His children to suffer. But to grow strong and Christ-like =).
Nitez ppl~
Loves <3
As we climb to the top, or to the next top hill, we are bound to be stretched and challenged. Are u willing to trade ur worries and risky situations in the hands of someone u cant see but yet wants the best for u??
Hard isn't it? But i'll try. Coz the Lord would not want any of His children to suffer. But to grow strong and Christ-like =).
Nitez ppl~
Loves <3
Friday, November 19, 2010
Ever Thought
Sometimes don't you wish you have this place where u can shout everything or type everything there and no one you know will ever find out about it?
But somehow its not exactly like tht is it?? There will always be someone tht finds out about it XD. Its just when...
I dunno what I feeling now lar actually. I just feel like typing something out. I also feel like I wanna strangle or punch someone. Ugh... Not sure why all these problems coming NOW. Of all timing.. it had to be now.. True, some ppl have told me not to care but seriously???? I dunno how to not care lar!!! 88 or wateva.. aiyoooh!! Someone either strangle me or let me shake their minds out~
Sry if I sound so un-feminish. But garh!! I think i going crazy jor.. To drive me more crazy, this fella just answered my worst thought. I had been thinking of going back, seriously. But you just seemed so.. So firmed tht u dun wan the mending, u don't believ in the mending, so what am i to do but try to let go??!!!! Omgoodness wei!!!
I wanna throw something now. Haha!! I dunno what I'm thinking~ Jeng jeng kor kor ar!! I think ur right, I should not be too nice to people XD. Got a feeling i gonna get some comments on this by him later but.. I think what you said could be applied now.
Andrew is like being my daddy / older brother, keep checking up on me if i ok even during his birthday >
Uwa~!!! Exam few days from now. Lord, I really dunno how it is gonna be like. What to do what to do?? Obviously study lar!! Lord Lord, give me the words to explain in simple english and not rachel english please XD
Loves~
But somehow its not exactly like tht is it?? There will always be someone tht finds out about it XD. Its just when...
I dunno what I feeling now lar actually. I just feel like typing something out. I also feel like I wanna strangle or punch someone. Ugh... Not sure why all these problems coming NOW. Of all timing.. it had to be now.. True, some ppl have told me not to care but seriously???? I dunno how to not care lar!!! 88 or wateva.. aiyoooh!! Someone either strangle me or let me shake their minds out~
Sry if I sound so un-feminish. But garh!! I think i going crazy jor.. To drive me more crazy, this fella just answered my worst thought. I had been thinking of going back, seriously. But you just seemed so.. So firmed tht u dun wan the mending, u don't believ in the mending, so what am i to do but try to let go??!!!! Omgoodness wei!!!
I wanna throw something now. Haha!! I dunno what I'm thinking~ Jeng jeng kor kor ar!! I think ur right, I should not be too nice to people XD. Got a feeling i gonna get some comments on this by him later but.. I think what you said could be applied now.
Andrew is like being my daddy / older brother, keep checking up on me if i ok even during his birthday >
Uwa~!!! Exam few days from now. Lord, I really dunno how it is gonna be like. What to do what to do?? Obviously study lar!! Lord Lord, give me the words to explain in simple english and not rachel english please XD
Loves~
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wishes
Oh my oh my, just checked my inbox and I have deleted 255 emails from facebook. Well, to some of you its probably little but to me.. Thats A LOT!!
Funny hw I asked God what this yr's birthday gonna be like. And asked God to have a handful of ppl outside my family to wish me. And God gave me more than a handful, actually.. Seeing the notification on fb, the last time i saw, it was "65++ ppl have written on your wall". So yea, not to mention the surprise calls and sms. I'd say it almost reach 80 or more?
Thanks so much to all my friends ^^. Really appreciate the thought. I didnt wanna post on fb coz some prob nid to study for finals and I didnt really nid ppl wishing me for the sake of wishing me. But still, if you wanna wish, I'd still appreciate ^^. Didnt expect so many to wish, and so many replies to make XD.
Haha~ After that, I oso can see actually I quite pampered XD. Lol!! K lar, actually half half. I am still quite independent.
Anyhow, my birthday was fun for me XD. Grandma bought me ice cream cake. Sisters bought a cheese cake, as much as one of them dislike cheese XD. A group of friends oso surprised me with a cake and card. Got gifts from family, relatives, vince, jason and kawsi. Hm.. What else...
Oh!! And something I DOUBT i forget. I was helping Charlotte with explaining the logic of web programming. Then it hit 12am and I was SOO frust trying to make our frequency same. Explain same thing dunno how many times, she think a n i say b. Haha!! Then tiba tiba, vince called to wish me. I was like.. Its my birthday?? Haha!! Then a min or 2 later, kawsi call oso!! Lol!! Then when I turn back to chat with charlotte, the fella say "oh it 12! happy birthday rachel". Lool... Charlotte made me forget its my bday. Then kena shock by sisters.
Then one of my sis so smart put a present under my pillow while I was aslp. Then when woke up, I ter-felt it. And thought "what my sis thinking of putting newspaper under my pillow".. Haha!! It really felt like a couple of newspaper. Then took it out, of coz wasnt newspaper lar. Just some wrapping tht FELT like newspaper. HAha!!
This bday was really a sweet one =). Thnx everyone who participated ^^. Really appreciate it. All the best in studies and exams yea XD.
Loves~
Funny hw I asked God what this yr's birthday gonna be like. And asked God to have a handful of ppl outside my family to wish me. And God gave me more than a handful, actually.. Seeing the notification on fb, the last time i saw, it was "65++ ppl have written on your wall". So yea, not to mention the surprise calls and sms. I'd say it almost reach 80 or more?
Thanks so much to all my friends ^^. Really appreciate the thought. I didnt wanna post on fb coz some prob nid to study for finals and I didnt really nid ppl wishing me for the sake of wishing me. But still, if you wanna wish, I'd still appreciate ^^. Didnt expect so many to wish, and so many replies to make XD.
Haha~ After that, I oso can see actually I quite pampered XD. Lol!! K lar, actually half half. I am still quite independent.
Anyhow, my birthday was fun for me XD. Grandma bought me ice cream cake. Sisters bought a cheese cake, as much as one of them dislike cheese XD. A group of friends oso surprised me with a cake and card. Got gifts from family, relatives, vince, jason and kawsi. Hm.. What else...
Oh!! And something I DOUBT i forget. I was helping Charlotte with explaining the logic of web programming. Then it hit 12am and I was SOO frust trying to make our frequency same. Explain same thing dunno how many times, she think a n i say b. Haha!! Then tiba tiba, vince called to wish me. I was like.. Its my birthday?? Haha!! Then a min or 2 later, kawsi call oso!! Lol!! Then when I turn back to chat with charlotte, the fella say "oh it 12! happy birthday rachel". Lool... Charlotte made me forget its my bday. Then kena shock by sisters.
Then one of my sis so smart put a present under my pillow while I was aslp. Then when woke up, I ter-felt it. And thought "what my sis thinking of putting newspaper under my pillow".. Haha!! It really felt like a couple of newspaper. Then took it out, of coz wasnt newspaper lar. Just some wrapping tht FELT like newspaper. HAha!!
This bday was really a sweet one =). Thnx everyone who participated ^^. Really appreciate it. All the best in studies and exams yea XD.
Loves~
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Something Different
Another semester about to end. A new beginning will soon open its doors to us again. However this time it seems like the ending and beginning would be different from last semester.
This semester I could say just rushed by. Many lectures were just "like-that", compared to last semester. I wonder whether it had got to do with the time, we ended at 6pm this semester while last semester ends at 4pm. Or could it be due to all the group assignments?
This semester I can say experienced quite a lot of different things. Wont go in depth bout it much. I guess there were many complications and sad things which happened to. Sometimes when these things happen, you just don't know how to think, or what to think.
But hey, its not the end. Well, currently I am really grateful to my friends + lecturers teachings and guidance that I can finish my assignments XD. Hopefully I do well in my finals too =P.
This week is ALL about presentation, so please go easy on me XD. Following week is our finals. Time ot get our nose in our laptops and books. I cant predict what the results are like, unlike last semester where you can have goals.
Also I guess I should still thank someone for showing me whats relationship all about. Its nice and warm knowing there is someone to care and love you. But unfortunately I am not ready for that kind of commitment yet. I'm sorry =).
I sorta promised myself I wont go into anymore BG relationship till i turn 21 ^^. Call me old fashion or whatever but thts a promise I wanna try to keep =). I dun wanna simply give my heart to someone whom i am not sure will be my future husband. Or when I am not ready. I wanna give my future husband the best =P.
Still, thanks for understanding, the fella is still my friend =P. There is nthg wrong with him. He is a really nice guy. But yea, I am just not ready. I dunno how to express "not ready" XD. I just know it.
So yea.. Not getting into a relationship b4 i hit 21.. Hope i can keep tht XD. As for finals, well, I can oni pray for the best. And hopefully my crazily-fun friends wont drag me away from concentration XD. Love u guys still!!! All the best for your finals too!!
Cheers out~
Loves =)
P.s
Thanks oso to my mentors (you know who you are =P), for always walking with me and watching over me XD. Few yrs older, still not too old yet =P. I know how tiresome I can be. Appreciate you guys!! ^^
This semester I could say just rushed by. Many lectures were just "like-that", compared to last semester. I wonder whether it had got to do with the time, we ended at 6pm this semester while last semester ends at 4pm. Or could it be due to all the group assignments?
This semester I can say experienced quite a lot of different things. Wont go in depth bout it much. I guess there were many complications and sad things which happened to. Sometimes when these things happen, you just don't know how to think, or what to think.
But hey, its not the end. Well, currently I am really grateful to my friends + lecturers teachings and guidance that I can finish my assignments XD. Hopefully I do well in my finals too =P.
This week is ALL about presentation, so please go easy on me XD. Following week is our finals. Time ot get our nose in our laptops and books. I cant predict what the results are like, unlike last semester where you can have goals.
Also I guess I should still thank someone for showing me whats relationship all about. Its nice and warm knowing there is someone to care and love you. But unfortunately I am not ready for that kind of commitment yet. I'm sorry =).
I sorta promised myself I wont go into anymore BG relationship till i turn 21 ^^. Call me old fashion or whatever but thts a promise I wanna try to keep =). I dun wanna simply give my heart to someone whom i am not sure will be my future husband. Or when I am not ready. I wanna give my future husband the best =P.
Still, thanks for understanding, the fella is still my friend =P. There is nthg wrong with him. He is a really nice guy. But yea, I am just not ready. I dunno how to express "not ready" XD. I just know it.
So yea.. Not getting into a relationship b4 i hit 21.. Hope i can keep tht XD. As for finals, well, I can oni pray for the best. And hopefully my crazily-fun friends wont drag me away from concentration XD. Love u guys still!!! All the best for your finals too!!
Cheers out~
Loves =)
P.s
Thanks oso to my mentors (you know who you are =P), for always walking with me and watching over me XD. Few yrs older, still not too old yet =P. I know how tiresome I can be. Appreciate you guys!! ^^
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Hiddens Lyrics
Ever thought that some lyrics just goes with how you feel? Lol~ I decided to post few parts of it. Of course in FB n msn we would prob post a line of it =P.
Here it goes~
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Do you understand how I feel?
Do you get what I think?
I know I am selfish with just my own desires.
Can you tell me what should I do with myself?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
But my feelings are wanting to crash and drop.
With every tear that threatens to fall,
I hold them back with a smile and laugh them off with a cry.
I no longer feel like I am free and flying,
a tied down girl, with invisible strings pulling me down.
Why did it turn out like this?
I don’t feel things are the same,
don’t tell me that everything is still the same.
Don’t treat me like I am some stranger,
I can feel it can you see?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
With my feelings bout to crash and fall.
The tears I stopped are gonna fall,
I lock myself away to hide my pain and sorrow.
With confusion I wonder what had happened.
My feelings turned confused
but I guess I’ll hold on.
Walking with a shell to block anymore pain.
Let this be the last, no more shall I open till that very day.
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Loves~
Here it goes~
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Do you understand how I feel?
Do you get what I think?
I know I am selfish with just my own desires.
Can you tell me what should I do with myself?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
But my feelings are wanting to crash and drop.
With every tear that threatens to fall,
I hold them back with a smile and laugh them off with a cry.
I no longer feel like I am free and flying,
a tied down girl, with invisible strings pulling me down.
Why did it turn out like this?
I don’t feel things are the same,
don’t tell me that everything is still the same.
Don’t treat me like I am some stranger,
I can feel it can you see?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
With my feelings bout to crash and fall.
The tears I stopped are gonna fall,
I lock myself away to hide my pain and sorrow.
With confusion I wonder what had happened.
My feelings turned confused
but I guess I’ll hold on.
Walking with a shell to block anymore pain.
Let this be the last, no more shall I open till that very day.
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Loves~
Monday, October 18, 2010
Rants: On and on and on..
You know I really don't get it? I really don't get why ppl always seek and assumed the worst of the other? We most of the time say "Hey who are we to judge?" but then again, is assuming a person would be like tht, not only the action of judging, but also the action of bearing false accusations?? Ok fine, maybe that is a too strong word. But hey! Seriously?? You don't even know the person fully, you just assume, whether the person hav or have not cause ONE wrong thing towards you, you go acting like the person is some evil person that is not in ur category.
My goodness!! PEOPLE!!! Have a little TRUST! Have a lil FAITH!!! Goodness.. What is friendship, relationship and etc if YOU DON'T TRUST?????
I know it hurts. I get it that you CANT believe the person could treat u like that. You who are adored, loved and so innocent... My goodness... If u were really that good, at least you could do is forgive the person!!
I really really really don't get it. Whoever is reading this and saying I have never been thru this "betrayal", "traitoring" and etc business.. Well, sorry to burst ur bubble! I have! And many times. And yes!! It bloody hurts! But sorry lar har, ppl whom would CHERISH the relationship are true friends / lovers / close ppl.
I know of a person whom betrayed me thrice, I know of a person who practically hurt me till it soiled my own reputation in a certain place. But guess what??!! Ever thought whether the person did or didn't have true friends? Someone that you could be??
Please... Come on... Hav a lil' trust! Have a lil' FAITH!
If you dun really know them, please please please... Don't talk bout them as if they are so bad. Don't assume the worst till its been really done. Ever thought of how it might soil the relationship?
I have had MANY arguments with friends. And yes many times it healed and broke again. If life was all about daisies and butterflies and sunshine.. Then yes, maybe I WOULD believe the relationships SHOULD not have betrayal. And YES I WOULD BELIEVE THAT DIVORCE SHOULD HAPPEN.
SOME ppl just dun think bout their kids but themselves. Tsk!! Whatever lar, thats a whole different story. Buts yea.. Thats my anger steamed for today.
Ciaoz!
Loves <3 <3
My goodness!! PEOPLE!!! Have a little TRUST! Have a lil FAITH!!! Goodness.. What is friendship, relationship and etc if YOU DON'T TRUST?????
I know it hurts. I get it that you CANT believe the person could treat u like that. You who are adored, loved and so innocent... My goodness... If u were really that good, at least you could do is forgive the person!!
I really really really don't get it. Whoever is reading this and saying I have never been thru this "betrayal", "traitoring" and etc business.. Well, sorry to burst ur bubble! I have! And many times. And yes!! It bloody hurts! But sorry lar har, ppl whom would CHERISH the relationship are true friends / lovers / close ppl.
I know of a person whom betrayed me thrice, I know of a person who practically hurt me till it soiled my own reputation in a certain place. But guess what??!! Ever thought whether the person did or didn't have true friends? Someone that you could be??
Please... Come on... Hav a lil' trust! Have a lil' FAITH!
If you dun really know them, please please please... Don't talk bout them as if they are so bad. Don't assume the worst till its been really done. Ever thought of how it might soil the relationship?
I have had MANY arguments with friends. And yes many times it healed and broke again. If life was all about daisies and butterflies and sunshine.. Then yes, maybe I WOULD believe the relationships SHOULD not have betrayal. And YES I WOULD BELIEVE THAT DIVORCE SHOULD HAPPEN.
SOME ppl just dun think bout their kids but themselves. Tsk!! Whatever lar, thats a whole different story. Buts yea.. Thats my anger steamed for today.
Ciaoz!
Loves <3 <3
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Congrats to SOCIT Table Tennis Team
oh oh~ Me forgotten to mention!!
CONGRATS TO SOCIT-MASS COMMUNICATION TEAM FOR WINNING IN TAYLORS INTER-COMPETITION FOR TABLE TENNIS!!!!
Hope to hear more winning news for basketball, futsal, volleyball and tennis ^^!!! JIA YOU!!!
Cheers ^^~
CONGRATS TO SOCIT-MASS COMMUNICATION TEAM FOR WINNING IN TAYLORS INTER-COMPETITION FOR TABLE TENNIS!!!!
Hope to hear more winning news for basketball, futsal, volleyball and tennis ^^!!! JIA YOU!!!
Cheers ^^~
Admiration to Inspiration to ..?
A lil' continuation from the previous post. Like I said before, I think its really great to have someone you admire, why? Coz it starts an interest in you. When you see someone doing amazing things, you tend to be wow. Or you start saying / thinking "I wanna be like that person".
Its really easy to say that. But just doing that, your fire for it can easily die. What should be done next?? In my opinion, go and find out the person's past. What made him or her to be so great as he or she is at present. When you hear their struggles and the efforts they used just to overcome it, I can quite guarantee that it will bless the person hearing. It makes them wanna try it all the more.
From my point of view. Here is the difference. Just reading from a newspaper or seeing the person do awesome things, you will think "I wanna do that too". But the next day u don't feel like it anymore. If you had listen to the person's story, I think that the you will actually do it for a few days, weeks or months. Depending.. But not many can actually do it fully. Not many can keep that fire burning. So what next??
We question ourselves why we give up so easily. It just came to mind but in my opinion. I think Encouragement plays a big part in burning the fire. The reason we need friends and family. Its similar to discouragement. Hearing it just makes u wanna quit it. It destroys your strength and destroys your interest. Encouragement makes you try harder, makes you wanna give your best. Even when failing, if you have the slightest encouragement, you just feel like you wanna push harder. Sometimes whether onot we understand the reason our friends like that certain thing, we should support I guess. It builds character and true friends would love to see their friends happy rite?
Being happy turns any gray day colourful =). Joking with your friends, hearing them shout they've got your back. Don't you have friends like these?
As for family, the people that you've grown since you was brought into this world. The people that are close to u by blood and relationship. Its nice to see them being happy for u when u do something great isn't it? All these pushes someone to be someone greater. To challenge themselves to be better for themselves and others.
Well, I could be wrong. But guess what, its my blog and read its title. Its plainly "Thoughts of the Heart". Hope you guys are encouraged ^^.
Loves~
Its really easy to say that. But just doing that, your fire for it can easily die. What should be done next?? In my opinion, go and find out the person's past. What made him or her to be so great as he or she is at present. When you hear their struggles and the efforts they used just to overcome it, I can quite guarantee that it will bless the person hearing. It makes them wanna try it all the more.
From my point of view. Here is the difference. Just reading from a newspaper or seeing the person do awesome things, you will think "I wanna do that too". But the next day u don't feel like it anymore. If you had listen to the person's story, I think that the you will actually do it for a few days, weeks or months. Depending.. But not many can actually do it fully. Not many can keep that fire burning. So what next??
We question ourselves why we give up so easily. It just came to mind but in my opinion. I think Encouragement plays a big part in burning the fire. The reason we need friends and family. Its similar to discouragement. Hearing it just makes u wanna quit it. It destroys your strength and destroys your interest. Encouragement makes you try harder, makes you wanna give your best. Even when failing, if you have the slightest encouragement, you just feel like you wanna push harder. Sometimes whether onot we understand the reason our friends like that certain thing, we should support I guess. It builds character and true friends would love to see their friends happy rite?
Being happy turns any gray day colourful =). Joking with your friends, hearing them shout they've got your back. Don't you have friends like these?
As for family, the people that you've grown since you was brought into this world. The people that are close to u by blood and relationship. Its nice to see them being happy for u when u do something great isn't it? All these pushes someone to be someone greater. To challenge themselves to be better for themselves and others.
Well, I could be wrong. But guess what, its my blog and read its title. Its plainly "Thoughts of the Heart". Hope you guys are encouraged ^^.
Loves~
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Behind The Strong Mask
Hey ppl, I'm back!!! Yes its been very very long. Well, quite long, almost a month since I post?
Well, as I was driving back today and talking to a lil' non-blood related brother of mine. Lol~ I just couldn't help but think that many times we just look up / admire ppl who are strong willed. Strong hearted. Successful and so on. But we lack to see what they did in order to achieve them.
Its true when the ppl say no muscles can be built till you remove a boulder before you. In the same way, no strength can be built without any challenges and hardships that come at us.
Most of the time, it takes sweat, blood, scars, pain and wounds just to be strong. To be the pillar of salt that anyone can lean on. I sometimes wonder, do we rather enjoy having be the pillar, or do we enjoy leaning on them? Its a nice feeling knowing there is someone you can depend on, knowing someone will be there to save you or be with you no matter what. However, I believe that in every person that grows and overflows with charisma of being strong-heart / strong-willed, he or she had to go through tough times in order to be who he or she is today.
For people with talent and skills, I once used to be slightly jealous that they are able to do it so easily. But think again, they have that talent and skill cause they enjoy it. When they enjoy it, they work hard for it. They push themselves to improve behind ppl's back and display them as if its tht easy. I dunno, but sometimes it feels like it XD. Its just a theory =P.
Nothing comes easy int his world. And let me add, just because you believe God is real. Does not mean that your life will be perfect. Does not mean trouble will not come your way. If it comes, yes we are unfortunate. But that does not mean God is testing us or punishing us, maybe in certain situations if u had broken a promise with God. But!! It is your choice in the end whether to what you believe in. But I always believe that just trust God, He will help and bless those who continue to have faith in Him. He is faithful yesterday, today and forever more.
If you lose hope in Him, what more can He do? Its like, Jesus is knocking on your door asking to let Him help you but you refuse, yet you still go around saying God don't wanna help. Weird and funny isn't it?
Life is harsh, I'm trying to go thru it. Its not easy for me, though my mind says its so tough, let it be a reminder that I am still blessed and well off than those who does not have a shelter over their head or a warm blanket to protect them from the cold or a nice meal prepared at the table.
Sweet dreams world~
Love~ <3
Well, as I was driving back today and talking to a lil' non-blood related brother of mine. Lol~ I just couldn't help but think that many times we just look up / admire ppl who are strong willed. Strong hearted. Successful and so on. But we lack to see what they did in order to achieve them.
Its true when the ppl say no muscles can be built till you remove a boulder before you. In the same way, no strength can be built without any challenges and hardships that come at us.
Most of the time, it takes sweat, blood, scars, pain and wounds just to be strong. To be the pillar of salt that anyone can lean on. I sometimes wonder, do we rather enjoy having be the pillar, or do we enjoy leaning on them? Its a nice feeling knowing there is someone you can depend on, knowing someone will be there to save you or be with you no matter what. However, I believe that in every person that grows and overflows with charisma of being strong-heart / strong-willed, he or she had to go through tough times in order to be who he or she is today.
For people with talent and skills, I once used to be slightly jealous that they are able to do it so easily. But think again, they have that talent and skill cause they enjoy it. When they enjoy it, they work hard for it. They push themselves to improve behind ppl's back and display them as if its tht easy. I dunno, but sometimes it feels like it XD. Its just a theory =P.
Nothing comes easy int his world. And let me add, just because you believe God is real. Does not mean that your life will be perfect. Does not mean trouble will not come your way. If it comes, yes we are unfortunate. But that does not mean God is testing us or punishing us, maybe in certain situations if u had broken a promise with God. But!! It is your choice in the end whether to what you believe in. But I always believe that just trust God, He will help and bless those who continue to have faith in Him. He is faithful yesterday, today and forever more.
If you lose hope in Him, what more can He do? Its like, Jesus is knocking on your door asking to let Him help you but you refuse, yet you still go around saying God don't wanna help. Weird and funny isn't it?
Life is harsh, I'm trying to go thru it. Its not easy for me, though my mind says its so tough, let it be a reminder that I am still blessed and well off than those who does not have a shelter over their head or a warm blanket to protect them from the cold or a nice meal prepared at the table.
Sweet dreams world~
Love~ <3
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Appreciating
Petty things we argue and fight, while there are people out there who could be losing what is precious to them most. We who have fathers, mothers and siblings, who are still alive and beside us, tend to take them for granted. Is it necessary for everyone to go through what these people went through in order to know how much our family can mean to us?
Why do we have to have war? Everyone is bound to have someone they love and cherish. Sometimes because of our selfishness, there are people out there hurt and at loss because their love ones are no longer around them. Then there are also those that are praying that their love ones return safely. Take just 10 minutes to view this video. If you have a heart, you sure won't regret it.
Loves and Tears~
Why do we have to have war? Everyone is bound to have someone they love and cherish. Sometimes because of our selfishness, there are people out there hurt and at loss because their love ones are no longer around them. Then there are also those that are praying that their love ones return safely. Take just 10 minutes to view this video. If you have a heart, you sure won't regret it.
Loves and Tears~
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Teaching
Anyone who ever thought of becoming a teacher, please do check if you have anger management problem and if your patient enough to deal with not so very smart students. Whenever you propose to teach someone or even agree to teach someone, please be aware that its possible not EVERYONE thinks like you.
I realized one of the reason why students or younger children stop asking adults or teachers questions anymore. If they don't understand things, why do they not ask? True, sometimes it could be because the students or children don't wanna look stupid or less smarter than the rest of the kids. But wanna know another reason I found?
The ones that agrees to teach, or even the people that proposes to teach the student/kid, sometimes forgot to watch their anger and start sayin very discouraging things to the child. (E.g. Why you cannot understand such simple things? Whats so hard bout this?) To be honest, I realize that its becoming a trend. That friends are even speaking to their friends the same way when teaching. Or even older siblings to younger siblings.
And to think many adults wonder why students don't ask questions if they don't understand. You want the child to ask what he/she don't understand. You want them to be really clear they understand. But, if they r still confuse, you go discourage them. How does that help? By discouragin them you make them feel stupider, which was exactly what they wanted to avoid.
But to the youths, we can't always blame the adults. Even in work, a mistake was done in the office, some boss' do discourage their employees when not satisfied with the work. Doing so, the adults could release the anger out on the child.
But you know what, I believe why the adults are like tht in the first place, well, number one the scolding person wanna look smart, wanna feel good and well, show you that they are smarter and higher standard than you. Number two, they just got it while they were a kid themself. What environment you're in, what experience you had, all this shapes you to how you will respond, react and think.
So yea, if only we stop discouraging ppl that are slower to understand, we probably make a difference. I admit, sometimes I myself have discouraged my sister telling her like "How can you not get tht? Its tht easy..". Reason? It felt good. Also, I was running out of patience.
So ppl, if you ever wanna teach. Please don't discourage. Also, check your patience level. Avoid teaching if you can, unless you're really sure you won't destroy the person's confidence level.
Thats it.
Ciaoz~
Loves!!
I realized one of the reason why students or younger children stop asking adults or teachers questions anymore. If they don't understand things, why do they not ask? True, sometimes it could be because the students or children don't wanna look stupid or less smarter than the rest of the kids. But wanna know another reason I found?
The ones that agrees to teach, or even the people that proposes to teach the student/kid, sometimes forgot to watch their anger and start sayin very discouraging things to the child. (E.g. Why you cannot understand such simple things? Whats so hard bout this?) To be honest, I realize that its becoming a trend. That friends are even speaking to their friends the same way when teaching. Or even older siblings to younger siblings.
And to think many adults wonder why students don't ask questions if they don't understand. You want the child to ask what he/she don't understand. You want them to be really clear they understand. But, if they r still confuse, you go discourage them. How does that help? By discouragin them you make them feel stupider, which was exactly what they wanted to avoid.
But to the youths, we can't always blame the adults. Even in work, a mistake was done in the office, some boss' do discourage their employees when not satisfied with the work. Doing so, the adults could release the anger out on the child.
But you know what, I believe why the adults are like tht in the first place, well, number one the scolding person wanna look smart, wanna feel good and well, show you that they are smarter and higher standard than you. Number two, they just got it while they were a kid themself. What environment you're in, what experience you had, all this shapes you to how you will respond, react and think.
So yea, if only we stop discouraging ppl that are slower to understand, we probably make a difference. I admit, sometimes I myself have discouraged my sister telling her like "How can you not get tht? Its tht easy..". Reason? It felt good. Also, I was running out of patience.
So ppl, if you ever wanna teach. Please don't discourage. Also, check your patience level. Avoid teaching if you can, unless you're really sure you won't destroy the person's confidence level.
Thats it.
Ciaoz~
Loves!!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
A New Chapter
The book of Hebrews is what I have decided to read next. Not sure why but may God leads. As I have put out the verse, Hebrews 2: 14-15. It is somewhat similar to John 3:16. However it explains what He was doing on the cross. The very unconditional love that no one can ever fathom. He loves you, He loves me, and He loves everyone no matter who you are. No matter whether you accept Him or reject Him. He just loves you.
<3 ~
<3 ~
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Challenge?
40 Days Fast and Prayer has started!! Everyone is praying for all over the world to be in peace and harmony. Everyone is hoping to have a brighter future where there is no war. Every youth and child is wondering what their future will be like. So ppl, are you prepared to join us to pray for our nation? For your children's future?
Even as I pray and fast, I wondered what God will challenge me. I wondered if I should do something extra besides praying only. So far I've got 2. Which I hope is enough =P.
When God challenges, I know He doesn't expect me to fulfill it. God never forces, but He does provide you opportunity to experience His amazing-ness. A Spiritual encounter. A relationship deeper than anything in this world.
So yea, here are my 2 challenges, feel free to encourage me, cause no matter how easy it seems to some, its quite challenging for me =P.
1. To post up different verse(s) everyday as encouragement or meaning.
2. To bring this one friend I have in mind to Christ or remember Christ.
Lol!! Friends, dun be offended ^^. I only want you to experience the joy I feel when I experience Him. There is surely a reason why I would like u to join me =).
Thats all for now.
Loves~
Even as I pray and fast, I wondered what God will challenge me. I wondered if I should do something extra besides praying only. So far I've got 2. Which I hope is enough =P.
When God challenges, I know He doesn't expect me to fulfill it. God never forces, but He does provide you opportunity to experience His amazing-ness. A Spiritual encounter. A relationship deeper than anything in this world.
So yea, here are my 2 challenges, feel free to encourage me, cause no matter how easy it seems to some, its quite challenging for me =P.
1. To post up different verse(s) everyday as encouragement or meaning.
2. To bring this one friend I have in mind to Christ or remember Christ.
Lol!! Friends, dun be offended ^^. I only want you to experience the joy I feel when I experience Him. There is surely a reason why I would like u to join me =).
Thats all for now.
Loves~
Sunday, August 8, 2010
You Alone
Truly Lord You alone are my strength and reason I smile each and every day. Without You I probably would not find as much strength to stand against the new day that comes.
Lyrics:
Who, oh Lord, could save themselves,
Their own soul could heal?
Our shame was deeper than the sea
Your grace is deeper still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
You, oh Lord, have made a way
The great divide You heal
For when our hearts were far away
Your love went further still
Yes, your love goes further still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
<3 ~
Lyrics:
Who, oh Lord, could save themselves,
Their own soul could heal?
Our shame was deeper than the sea
Your grace is deeper still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
You, oh Lord, have made a way
The great divide You heal
For when our hearts were far away
Your love went further still
Yes, your love goes further still
You alone can rescue, You alone can save
You alone can lift us from the grave
You came down to find us, led us out of death
To You alone belongs the highest praise
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
We lift up our eyes, lift up our eyes
You’re the Giver of Life
<3 ~
Rants
Everyday I laugh and chat with you, it seems almost we're like so close. However each new day I see your face, I get the feeling of how far behind I am from you. We walk side by side but in my mind u walk ahead. I don't get your thoughts, I don't understand how you think. Sometimes I think your words holds an empty vacuum. Words without meaning. You may not seem competitive, but you yearn to be higher than all of us do you not? Sometimes thinking of a certain thing makes me think of you. Lesser than friends? Rivals? Words words words... Everything seems so complicated. Or maybe its just me =)..
Luvs~~
Luvs~~
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Over The Limit
Cant believe my instinct to get sick was actually correct. During the hols I've just been up and about, gettin sick, tanned, lazy and etc. Sick not once but twice. Even so, I've a tendency to always ignore my health, meaning I would still go out as if I'm fine when I'm not.
Uni just started and I got sick again. Unlike being at home in your comfy room, I was stuck in class, listening to not very interesting lectures and tryin to ignore my sickness.
To top it off, went lunch with friends after lectures and started to be drowsy. Its like you are going deaf, not everything ur friends say seems to be intercepting, ur head just aches and you just wanna go home n SLP.
By the time we got back to uni n I was driving home, my mind just seem to go blank. Dangerous to drive at a time like tht ppl!! Trust me. My mind was like just set on gettin home to bed, "almost" not caring who was on the road and how curv-y the road was.
But gettin better now. Thank God I have a day off frm uni today. No classes so far on thurs, I'm so happy!! Fever and sore throat, bad combo and not a nice feeling when ur tryin to slp. Ok, I'm off to bed soon. Still feeling slpy. Tomoro I'm off to uni again. Ta-ta~
Loves~
Uni just started and I got sick again. Unlike being at home in your comfy room, I was stuck in class, listening to not very interesting lectures and tryin to ignore my sickness.
To top it off, went lunch with friends after lectures and started to be drowsy. Its like you are going deaf, not everything ur friends say seems to be intercepting, ur head just aches and you just wanna go home n SLP.
By the time we got back to uni n I was driving home, my mind just seem to go blank. Dangerous to drive at a time like tht ppl!! Trust me. My mind was like just set on gettin home to bed, "almost" not caring who was on the road and how curv-y the road was.
But gettin better now. Thank God I have a day off frm uni today. No classes so far on thurs, I'm so happy!! Fever and sore throat, bad combo and not a nice feeling when ur tryin to slp. Ok, I'm off to bed soon. Still feeling slpy. Tomoro I'm off to uni again. Ta-ta~
Loves~
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Broga Hill
Woots~ The trip to Broga Hill was quite an experience for me XD. Well, last night I couldn't sleep much, I think I only slept for like an hr or so? Haha!! And I thought I was the only one. Body was just so restless!! Not to mention I FORGOT to check Jason's itinerary after he so susah payah go and make for the trip =D. But I just pack on instinct (forgot bring torch.. Hehe!!).
Woke up this morning at 4am, coz guys say they will pick me up frm my hse since they nid passby, hooray for me!! If not I prob dun nid slp d. Haha!! The others had to wake around 3am (PLUS!!) just to meet at Subang n drive up to my place to Semenyih. Awesome~ XD!! Went in 2 cars, the car I went in had Shawn (driver), Geoffrey, Maula n me. Next car had Jason (driver), Yong (his friend we met today) and Sam. Yea... Unfortunately only girl =(.
So yea, we reach destination, the foot of the hill, at 6am I think. Oh!! Here is the Jason's itinerary =D.
4.30am - Meeting point after picking people up. (This applies only for the 2 drivers)
4.40am - Depart to *** to pick Rachel up. It's on the way to Semenyih.
4.55am - Depart from *** to Semenyih.
6.10am - Reach Semenyih. I'm giving extra free time so that we can afford to get lost for awhile just in case. Start hiking.
7.15am - Reach the peak. It has 3 or 4 peaks so you guys can choose which to go.
The rest of the day is up to you guys to decide. We'll be having small breaks in between our hike.
Essential Items Needed:
1. Torchlight. Small/Big doesn't matter, as long as it can help you see the road.
2. 500ml bottle of water. You need water. If you can stand the weight, bring more.
3. Extra cloths. Bring an extra shirt and/or pants if you want. You'll start sweating definitely. Either that or things would get really dirty.
4. Please wear shoes. Something comfortable or sports shoes would be better. You'll need the grip and comfort.
5. Attire would be a comfortable t-shirt and shorts/track bottoms. You won't encounter too much of grass because there is a quite clear cut road to go up.
6. You might want to bring along biscuits or bread in case you need extra energy or if you're hungry.
Car Sitting:
Car 1 - Jason's Car - Sam, Jason, Jason's friend
Car 2 - Shawn's Car - Shawn, Maula, Rachel, Geoffrey
Yes yes, and there you have it. We were QUITE on time =D. We actually reached the peak around 645am. We estimated that it took us..45-50min to climb the first peak. Yes FIRST peak.. Haha!! The view was amazing.. It look almost like lookout point except.. more BIGGER/WIDER XD. The aircond (wind) was so nice~ Shawn nearly slept there, making me tempted to slp too.
It was still quite dark when we reached the peak. So we sat around waiting for the sun to rise. Sadly it got blocked by clouds =(. The sky was like gettin brighter by the sun was still block by clouds. Aihz aihz.. Nvm, since no sunrise, climb next peak lor. Haha!! Few of us were tempted to hike up when we reach the first peak coz the 2nd peak had lots of greenery, look nicer =P. Haha!! Surprisingly, it was MUCH easier to climb compared to the first one. Joke joke then took group photo..suddenly it started to drizzle. Down the hill we go. Seriously.. Its SOOO much easier climbing up than DOWN. When going up I didnt need much help, but when going down.. Haha!! I think I slowed Jason down. Sorry Jason!!
When we reached the foot of the hill again, the guys changed out of their sweaty T-shirts, I find this unfair that guys can change anywhere they want -.-". I had to like sit in the car enjoy aircond while waiting for them to change... Not to mention listening to them joke bout me being lock in the trunk to change or lock in the car with Geoffrey's "towel" to change. Bleh =P!!
Couldn't recognize myself here >.<
Well, when they were done we went makan brunch at McD =D!! Jason took us through a lot of roundings XD. Its like, u-turn here, then curve there, then curve here n u-turn there. Lol!! Poor Shawn XD. I get to change at McD!! Hooray for public toilets!! While eating Geoffrey suggested to go on with movie, Inception. Or his version, "Interception". Lol~ Jason, Sam n Yong sat out of it. Sad~ You guys missed out a lot of fun =P.
We watched at leisure mall, but we reached too EARLY. Earliest movie was 1hr away frm the time we reach thr. So... Yea, I took them on a tour in leisure mall XD. Its my FIRST time seeing guys sooo fascinated by toys. Haha!! We went to all the toys shop, the guys seem to have a phobia of pink shops, and they kept playing with the toys, testing them out, oh n the pillows n dolls... Lol~ (Hope there weren't suppose to be secrets here XD). Sad they didnt bring their camera. Lots of funny pics that could've been taken.
Well, time for Inception!! We were NEARLY late, but was not. Cause Maula thought only 15min passed, but when Geoffrey saw the time, it was actually 45min passed. Lots of difference.. Anyway, we reached the cinema in time. Seats were comfy, Maula said he would try to slp. Haha!! Throughout the show is like suspense n cannot even blink. My eyes hurt for awhile just frm watchin. I think i held my breath too. Haha!! At the end of it, Maula was like wide awake. So was Shawn n Geoffrey. Haha!!
Then yea.. Tht was it for today ^^. Came back. Slp slp~ Dream who-knows-wat. Haha!! But yea.. I rarely hangout with these guys, its been really fun ^^. Thanks guys!! A gud way to start the semester? I think so =)
Loves ^^
Woke up this morning at 4am, coz guys say they will pick me up frm my hse since they nid passby, hooray for me!! If not I prob dun nid slp d. Haha!! The others had to wake around 3am (PLUS!!) just to meet at Subang n drive up to my place to Semenyih. Awesome~ XD!! Went in 2 cars, the car I went in had Shawn (driver), Geoffrey, Maula n me. Next car had Jason (driver), Yong (his friend we met today) and Sam. Yea... Unfortunately only girl =(.
So yea, we reach destination, the foot of the hill, at 6am I think. Oh!! Here is the Jason's itinerary =D.
4.30am - Meeting point after picking people up. (This applies only for the 2 drivers)
4.40am - Depart to *** to pick Rachel up. It's on the way to Semenyih.
4.55am - Depart from *** to Semenyih.
6.10am - Reach Semenyih. I'm giving extra free time so that we can afford to get lost for awhile just in case. Start hiking.
7.15am - Reach the peak. It has 3 or 4 peaks so you guys can choose which to go.
The rest of the day is up to you guys to decide. We'll be having small breaks in between our hike.
Essential Items Needed:
1. Torchlight. Small/Big doesn't matter, as long as it can help you see the road.
2. 500ml bottle of water. You need water. If you can stand the weight, bring more.
3. Extra cloths. Bring an extra shirt and/or pants if you want. You'll start sweating definitely. Either that or things would get really dirty.
4. Please wear shoes. Something comfortable or sports shoes would be better. You'll need the grip and comfort.
5. Attire would be a comfortable t-shirt and shorts/track bottoms. You won't encounter too much of grass because there is a quite clear cut road to go up.
6. You might want to bring along biscuits or bread in case you need extra energy or if you're hungry.
Car Sitting:
Car 1 - Jason's Car - Sam, Jason, Jason's friend
Car 2 - Shawn's Car - Shawn, Maula, Rachel, Geoffrey
Yes yes, and there you have it. We were QUITE on time =D. We actually reached the peak around 645am. We estimated that it took us..45-50min to climb the first peak. Yes FIRST peak.. Haha!! The view was amazing.. It look almost like lookout point except.. more BIGGER/WIDER XD. The aircond (wind) was so nice~ Shawn nearly slept there, making me tempted to slp too.
It was still quite dark when we reached the peak. So we sat around waiting for the sun to rise. Sadly it got blocked by clouds =(. The sky was like gettin brighter by the sun was still block by clouds. Aihz aihz.. Nvm, since no sunrise, climb next peak lor. Haha!! Few of us were tempted to hike up when we reach the first peak coz the 2nd peak had lots of greenery, look nicer =P. Haha!! Surprisingly, it was MUCH easier to climb compared to the first one. Joke joke then took group photo..suddenly it started to drizzle. Down the hill we go. Seriously.. Its SOOO much easier climbing up than DOWN. When going up I didnt need much help, but when going down.. Haha!! I think I slowed Jason down. Sorry Jason!!
When we reached the foot of the hill again, the guys changed out of their sweaty T-shirts, I find this unfair that guys can change anywhere they want -.-". I had to like sit in the car enjoy aircond while waiting for them to change... Not to mention listening to them joke bout me being lock in the trunk to change or lock in the car with Geoffrey's "towel" to change. Bleh =P!!
Couldn't recognize myself here >.<
Well, when they were done we went makan brunch at McD =D!! Jason took us through a lot of roundings XD. Its like, u-turn here, then curve there, then curve here n u-turn there. Lol!! Poor Shawn XD. I get to change at McD!! Hooray for public toilets!! While eating Geoffrey suggested to go on with movie, Inception. Or his version, "Interception". Lol~ Jason, Sam n Yong sat out of it. Sad~ You guys missed out a lot of fun =P.
We watched at leisure mall, but we reached too EARLY. Earliest movie was 1hr away frm the time we reach thr. So... Yea, I took them on a tour in leisure mall XD. Its my FIRST time seeing guys sooo fascinated by toys. Haha!! We went to all the toys shop, the guys seem to have a phobia of pink shops, and they kept playing with the toys, testing them out, oh n the pillows n dolls... Lol~ (Hope there weren't suppose to be secrets here XD). Sad they didnt bring their camera. Lots of funny pics that could've been taken.
Well, time for Inception!! We were NEARLY late, but was not. Cause Maula thought only 15min passed, but when Geoffrey saw the time, it was actually 45min passed. Lots of difference.. Anyway, we reached the cinema in time. Seats were comfy, Maula said he would try to slp. Haha!! Throughout the show is like suspense n cannot even blink. My eyes hurt for awhile just frm watchin. I think i held my breath too. Haha!! At the end of it, Maula was like wide awake. So was Shawn n Geoffrey. Haha!!
Then yea.. Tht was it for today ^^. Came back. Slp slp~ Dream who-knows-wat. Haha!! But yea.. I rarely hangout with these guys, its been really fun ^^. Thanks guys!! A gud way to start the semester? I think so =)
Loves ^^
Monday, July 26, 2010
Its Foolishness I Know
Always felt like learning to dance properly you know =P. Its like, theres this urge in me since young to learn hiphop or popping. Just never really made time for it. But whenever I hear songs like these, they just wanna make you get up and dance.
Dancing, I know how some ppl find dance movies crappy or sucky. Sorry lar, but I just really like watching them =P. It makes me smile, its another one of those adrenaline pumps XD.
Even during worship, I just cant help sometimes to wanna dance. Dunno dance, so what do you do? Jump lor XD. Jump jump!! It brings laughter.
Its foolish, but it makes you smile doesn't it? =P
Lord May Your Name Be Praise Each and Every Day with Joy in our Hearts.
Loves~
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Running Through My Head
No matter how many times I felt it, no matter how long I'll feel this way, it somehow till now still yet seems like its not the right time. I know I talk bout this often but really... Aihz.. Unfortunately, it really is one of my often problems. I always thought the reason I always think like this was because I hadn't tried or refrain myself from being in a relationship. But then.. Why can others feel ok? Yet I sometimes yearn to be in one?
Sometimes I wonder whether I am scared of heart break. Another time I would wonder was it because I haven't been in a relationship that's why I always feel this way.... Or is it really.. that my time hasn't come yet. Or that I am not yet ready for such a commitment. Am I scared I can't commit? Ok, that just made me sound like a player. Ugh..
Recently yes, I had nearly taken another step towards "trying" to be in one. Somehow I dunno is it God's timing or what. It didn't happen. And after awhile of solitude, a thought came to me "am I rushing?". Not just that, feelings of thinking to be "single-is-better" comes back again. Lord, Lord, what am I to do.
It is said,
In other words, no longer should we live as one living to please oneself, but to seek the needs of others first. Thus fulfilling the 2nd greatest commandment I guess, "love your neighbours as yourself".
Later on another verse came to me,
Love in knowledge and depth of insight? Hm.. Don't get it there. To have the knowledge and depth of insight on the understanding of love so that I may be able to discern on how to remain pure and blameless before God on judgement day. Hm.. Possible? I quite get that.. To always remain pure and blameless. Not just pure physically, but pure Spiritually.
A lot of people, well, quite a few always say that when they do not think about their relationship and who they are going to be with, that is mostly the time that they are ready to be in a relationship. All because they are contented with God. They are so.. trusting with everything God does. They just know somehow that God will do something, but they dunno what.
Hm.. Probably sound very immature now. But.. Yea.. Even myself just posting this, I guess that kinda means that I kinda worry? That I haven't fully allowed God to take control? Hm.. All the more, would it mean that its still not time? That I'm not ready? I kinda wonder..
Being blank/"innocent" bout relationship stuff. I wonder is it really that good. I can see it in some ways but some ways sometimes don't look too good either. Wonders~
Anyway, time for bed. Nite~
Loves ♥
*Should I private my blog??*
Sometimes I wonder whether I am scared of heart break. Another time I would wonder was it because I haven't been in a relationship that's why I always feel this way.... Or is it really.. that my time hasn't come yet. Or that I am not yet ready for such a commitment. Am I scared I can't commit? Ok, that just made me sound like a player. Ugh..
Recently yes, I had nearly taken another step towards "trying" to be in one. Somehow I dunno is it God's timing or what. It didn't happen. And after awhile of solitude, a thought came to me "am I rushing?". Not just that, feelings of thinking to be "single-is-better" comes back again. Lord, Lord, what am I to do.
It is said,
14For Christ's love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died. 15And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again. - 2Corinthians5:14-15
In other words, no longer should we live as one living to please oneself, but to seek the needs of others first. Thus fulfilling the 2nd greatest commandment I guess, "love your neighbours as yourself".
Later on another verse came to me,
9And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, 10so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ - Philippians1:9-10
Love in knowledge and depth of insight? Hm.. Don't get it there. To have the knowledge and depth of insight on the understanding of love so that I may be able to discern on how to remain pure and blameless before God on judgement day. Hm.. Possible? I quite get that.. To always remain pure and blameless. Not just pure physically, but pure Spiritually.
A lot of people, well, quite a few always say that when they do not think about their relationship and who they are going to be with, that is mostly the time that they are ready to be in a relationship. All because they are contented with God. They are so.. trusting with everything God does. They just know somehow that God will do something, but they dunno what.
Hm.. Probably sound very immature now. But.. Yea.. Even myself just posting this, I guess that kinda means that I kinda worry? That I haven't fully allowed God to take control? Hm.. All the more, would it mean that its still not time? That I'm not ready? I kinda wonder..
Being blank/"innocent" bout relationship stuff. I wonder is it really that good. I can see it in some ways but some ways sometimes don't look too good either. Wonders~
Anyway, time for bed. Nite~
Loves ♥
*Should I private my blog??*
Friday, July 23, 2010
Difference
Now why did I change the blog layout to snow.. Actually.. I myself didnt realize that I was putting snow as my background. At first felt like it was a bit cold and (bland?) when I was halfway through. Then I remembered why I put it.. Different.
I always desire to try things differently. No matter how bad I know it will turn out XD. Don't ask me why but I just have that desire to try things sometimes some ppl don't dare trying. Oh, the reason I change was coz I was starting to feel used and normal to this blog. No longer felt like I was owning it. So yea, change.
Anyhow, here is the first idea (felt it was a bit off):
Here is the second (also the current):
Any comments?? Or suggestions?
Loves~
I always desire to try things differently. No matter how bad I know it will turn out XD. Don't ask me why but I just have that desire to try things sometimes some ppl don't dare trying. Oh, the reason I change was coz I was starting to feel used and normal to this blog. No longer felt like I was owning it. So yea, change.
Anyhow, here is the first idea (felt it was a bit off):
Here is the second (also the current):
Any comments?? Or suggestions?
Loves~
Friday, July 16, 2010
Holidays
Holiday holiday.. Hm.. Wat have I done.. First 2 weeks were packed with outings. Then followed by few out of the house nights. Oh!! Got a haircut with large perms at the ends. Feels funny without my straight hair >.<.... I miss my straight hair sometimes!! Hm.. Then then, laze at home sick. Felt so... lazy and... lifeless.. Sit in room, on the comp, stare at comp then lie on the bed, read books, walk around the house.. Suddenly found sister's korean drama show. Then watched it non-stop for 2 days, "He's Beautiful". Unsatisfied ending... The lovers couldn't get together cause found out they were step-sister and step-brother. Siblings of the same father but different mother. After the show, was getting better. Decided to COOK. Yes yes... Have been cooking few days now. Cleaning the chicken is quite a nasty job at first. Now getting the hang of it. Other than that... Hm.. Tried my first baked chicken. Came out nicely ^^. Suprisingly, but it was really great. Haha!! Tomoro gonna learn to make that pork fried rice. Yummm~
A bit lazy to upload photos these few blogs nowadays. Hehe~ Bear with me =P
Loves~
A bit lazy to upload photos these few blogs nowadays. Hehe~ Bear with me =P
Loves~
Friday, July 9, 2010
What Am I Doing???
Holidays started, I have been going out. Meeting up with old friends, making new friends, bonding closer with recent friends... Seems like my life quite bz. Busy with what? Busy with ppl in my life.
Part of me wonders.. Like even now? What am I doing with my life? Just coz I decided to focus and give my best in studies to God, does that mean service to Him now comes after studies? Reading the book Nehemiah.. I even just begin to ask myself, "Where had that fire gone to?", "What is my passion now?", even better!! A question just pop into my head.
WHERE IS MY FOCUS??
Well?? Am I ready to stand on my own 2 feet without my parents or those who support me? I sometimes question myself. Another weird thing which recently happened. Dare I test the water that lead me to the path of relationship? How does things now make it different? How do I tell if God is giving green light?
Today went and watch eclipse with Tif and Vince. One part the movie I would like to quote, where Bella's friend was giving a speech. She was saying that in life, we should take risk and chances of going into wrong paths, cause thats how we'll learn. Me thinking, if thats the way life works, there sure is gonna be a lot more of pregnancy cases coming up. Loving and breaking is gonna be a trend that divorce probably won't mean a thing soon.
Hm.. I dunno.. Its like, hearing the BIG 2(!!) coming.. It just feels like thrs is a lot more we nid to consider. Or even just knowing that I might not be living under the same house as my parents for few yrs/months... What would happen?
So many new things I am experiencing each day. What should I expect next?
Loves...++
Part of me wonders.. Like even now? What am I doing with my life? Just coz I decided to focus and give my best in studies to God, does that mean service to Him now comes after studies? Reading the book Nehemiah.. I even just begin to ask myself, "Where had that fire gone to?", "What is my passion now?", even better!! A question just pop into my head.
WHERE IS MY FOCUS??
Well?? Am I ready to stand on my own 2 feet without my parents or those who support me? I sometimes question myself. Another weird thing which recently happened. Dare I test the water that lead me to the path of relationship? How does things now make it different? How do I tell if God is giving green light?
Today went and watch eclipse with Tif and Vince. One part the movie I would like to quote, where Bella's friend was giving a speech. She was saying that in life, we should take risk and chances of going into wrong paths, cause thats how we'll learn. Me thinking, if thats the way life works, there sure is gonna be a lot more of pregnancy cases coming up. Loving and breaking is gonna be a trend that divorce probably won't mean a thing soon.
Hm.. I dunno.. Its like, hearing the BIG 2(!!) coming.. It just feels like thrs is a lot more we nid to consider. Or even just knowing that I might not be living under the same house as my parents for few yrs/months... What would happen?
So many new things I am experiencing each day. What should I expect next?
Loves...++
Friday, July 2, 2010
Considering....
Wondering if I should blog bout my Penang trip ler? And the BBQ trip ler?? I think if I type.. The post would be veeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy looooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg. Lol~ So how ler?
But anyhow, summary of what I did at Penang =P.
27th June
8am - left to Penang
12pm - reached Queensbay mall
3pm - settled in our lil' "home"
8pm - dinner at hawker stall
930pm - watched Toys Story 3
28th June
9am - took a bus to the starting point of pantai kerachut
930am - the hiking begins!!!
11am - me, Geoffrey, Shawn and Ah Siang has reached the beach. Tanning under the sun while waiting for the res.
12pm - HeeSien, Charlotte, Sally and Kawsi reached the beach. Everyone tan under the sun.
+ (Besides tanning) catched crab
+ climbed rocks
+ bury HeeSien
+ draw in the sand
+ create funny walls to block the waves (failed)
3pm - took a speedboat back to starting point (lazy to hike)
4pm - everyone lazing in the rooms
7pm - dinner!! (+ after went to a dunno-wat-place, everyone drank funny alcohol [shared] excluding me and Charlotte)
+ funny thing was, at the room, Charlotte and me were more like the ones drunk. But NO ONE was drunk.
10pm - Pillow Fight / Football
+ Charlotte me and Hee Sien were playin tug-a-war with blankets (oh and we doink Geoffrey with pillow b4 slpin XD)
+ The rest watched football ^^
29th June
9am - slping (supposedly everyone is to wake and eat DIM SUM)
11am - left to eat breakfast (Korean buffet)
2pm - bye bye Penang T.T (and HeeSien.. Lol!!)
8pm - waited for Richard to eat dinner (+ got Haagen Dazs ice cream =P)
10pm - at my hse, Richard, Charlotte, Ah Siang and Geoffrey got "bullied" by sis =P)
1030pm - nite nite all ^^
So yea!! Thats all for the trip. That I so far could remember. Lots of funny things that happened in between. But.. Wait till feel like it ba =P. Pics waiting for Kawsi, Shawn and.. Shawn.. Haha!!
Oh~
Its her bday today XD!!
Loves!!
But anyhow, summary of what I did at Penang =P.
27th June
8am - left to Penang
12pm - reached Queensbay mall
3pm - settled in our lil' "home"
8pm - dinner at hawker stall
930pm - watched Toys Story 3
28th June
9am - took a bus to the starting point of pantai kerachut
930am - the hiking begins!!!
11am - me, Geoffrey, Shawn and Ah Siang has reached the beach. Tanning under the sun while waiting for the res.
12pm - HeeSien, Charlotte, Sally and Kawsi reached the beach. Everyone tan under the sun.
+ (Besides tanning) catched crab
+ climbed rocks
+ bury HeeSien
+ draw in the sand
+ create funny walls to block the waves (failed)
3pm - took a speedboat back to starting point (lazy to hike)
4pm - everyone lazing in the rooms
7pm - dinner!! (+ after went to a dunno-wat-place, everyone drank funny alcohol [shared] excluding me and Charlotte)
+ funny thing was, at the room, Charlotte and me were more like the ones drunk. But NO ONE was drunk.
10pm - Pillow Fight / Football
+ Charlotte me and Hee Sien were playin tug-a-war with blankets (oh and we doink Geoffrey with pillow b4 slpin XD)
+ The rest watched football ^^
29th June
9am - slping (supposedly everyone is to wake and eat DIM SUM)
11am - left to eat breakfast (Korean buffet)
2pm - bye bye Penang T.T (and HeeSien.. Lol!!)
8pm - waited for Richard to eat dinner (+ got Haagen Dazs ice cream =P)
10pm - at my hse, Richard, Charlotte, Ah Siang and Geoffrey got "bullied" by sis =P)
1030pm - nite nite all ^^
So yea!! Thats all for the trip. That I so far could remember. Lots of funny things that happened in between. But.. Wait till feel like it ba =P. Pics waiting for Kawsi, Shawn and.. Shawn.. Haha!!
Oh~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENNA LAI!!!!!
Its her bday today XD!!
Loves!!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Surprises
Yesterday was so full of surprises. Ok, besides the exam questions that were of (bad) surprises, I think there were few other things lar.
I really did wanna go for Lenna's Birthday party yesterday, (Lenna do forgive me!!!) but honestly.. I really did calculate the time and everything and I really dun c how I am going to get thr in time. I think I probably be later than Levina. So last few hrs b4 it I canceled out (Ok, you can start sayin how mean I am). Whats the surprise to that? Nt long after I decided that, which was like.. 2hrs b4 my FINAL LAST PAPER OF SEM1 CS, Richard, Geoffrey suddenly say want do bbq at Geoffrey's house which was like..just opposite campus? Lol!! Asked me and Pui Yee then thts when the last min invitations/callouts were done. Sorry to the rest that couldn't come, it WAS really last min.
The funny thing bout that was, it kept raining and stopping during our exams so we weren't sure if the bbq was gonna work out (HAH!!! TOLD YOU SALLY TO WAIT TILL AFTER EXAM TO SEE THE WEATHER!!! =P).
Nt long frm that, I got another surprise. Though I expected someone to be mad, she didn't get mad when she saw me. Maybe she was holding down her anger I dunno. But I guess after what happened the day before, I'm not sure what goes on in her mind, (I admit I am quite scared to find out) but she somehow gave me jelly then went off XD. Lol~ Surprised???
Well, thats all for today's post. BbQ post another day coz too long and too many things happened thr XD. Thanks guys (Sally, Kawsalya, Ke Ying, Charlotte, Geoffrey, Richard, Shawn, Maula and Geoffrey's mom and sis-in-law) for making it awesome!!!
Thank you Lord for letting me meet these wonderful people ^^!!!
Last but not least..
Special wishout for you =P.
Loves~
I really did wanna go for Lenna's Birthday party yesterday, (Lenna do forgive me!!!) but honestly.. I really did calculate the time and everything and I really dun c how I am going to get thr in time. I think I probably be later than Levina. So last few hrs b4 it I canceled out (Ok, you can start sayin how mean I am). Whats the surprise to that? Nt long after I decided that, which was like.. 2hrs b4 my FINAL LAST PAPER OF SEM1 CS, Richard, Geoffrey suddenly say want do bbq at Geoffrey's house which was like..just opposite campus? Lol!! Asked me and Pui Yee then thts when the last min invitations/callouts were done. Sorry to the rest that couldn't come, it WAS really last min.
The funny thing bout that was, it kept raining and stopping during our exams so we weren't sure if the bbq was gonna work out (HAH!!! TOLD YOU SALLY TO WAIT TILL AFTER EXAM TO SEE THE WEATHER!!! =P).
Nt long frm that, I got another surprise. Though I expected someone to be mad, she didn't get mad when she saw me. Maybe she was holding down her anger I dunno. But I guess after what happened the day before, I'm not sure what goes on in her mind, (I admit I am quite scared to find out) but she somehow gave me jelly then went off XD. Lol~ Surprised???
Well, thats all for today's post. BbQ post another day coz too long and too many things happened thr XD. Thanks guys (Sally, Kawsalya, Ke Ying, Charlotte, Geoffrey, Richard, Shawn, Maula and Geoffrey's mom and sis-in-law) for making it awesome!!!
Thank you Lord for letting me meet these wonderful people ^^!!!
Last but not least..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENNA!!!!! ^^
Special wishout for you =P.
Loves~
Friday, June 25, 2010
Cutting the Mood
Sometimes I just don't get some people?? Is it normal for us humans to assume a person to be horrible or something? Without even checking further or finding out the reason and situation behind things, you just assume the worst of the person.. Its just.. I dunno.. Not only does it show that you do not trust the person, it shows to OTHER people and the person him/herself that he/she is a "bad" person and cannot be trusted.
Its really sad.. Cause if me being the person him/herself, it feels like you yourself cannot trust them. I think worse off is when someone you really care and cherish thinks that way bout you. Sigh..
If you have watched "I'm not stupid too", dun ask me why I suddenly bring this up (lol), there was like a part where the son fixed the computer for his dad.
Summary of story:
The dad had a million dollar presentation he had to present to his client. The day before, his computer crashed. That important day, his son woke up early, fixed his computer and brought to him to his office. The conversation is something as below.
Father: Why are you still not at school?
Son: I have fixed your laptop. So I thought I brought it here.
Father: You fix my laptop? Really?
Son: Yea.
Father: You sure you fixed it? Or is it you spoilt my laptop by playing with it so you sent it to the store to be fixed. Next time don't touch my stuff, now go to school.
The father then rushes back to his client apologizing and saying that his laptop is now fixed and can present the presentation, leaving his son dejected, sad, speechless and hurt.
If you were to be doing something good, but only to be ASSUMED as a naughty, rebellious and who-knows-what kind of person. I think you would one day just quit being nice and goody goody and just feel like being what people describe/assume you to be.
It hurts, it sucks and it seriously kills a person confidence and cheerfulness.
I once heard a quote that was saying how killing a person's dream, only causes that person to kill other people's dream. Are we not aware of what words can do?
Seeing people like Joash IS truly amazing. No words of discouragement and hurtful words. Truly a guy that chase after God's own heart.
Well, today last day of exam. Need to push those stu*blip* negative emotions out. Get my head straight. I promise myself to give my best in studies to God this year. Can't go back on that ^^.
Loves~
Its really sad.. Cause if me being the person him/herself, it feels like you yourself cannot trust them. I think worse off is when someone you really care and cherish thinks that way bout you. Sigh..
If you have watched "I'm not stupid too", dun ask me why I suddenly bring this up (lol), there was like a part where the son fixed the computer for his dad.
Summary of story:
The dad had a million dollar presentation he had to present to his client. The day before, his computer crashed. That important day, his son woke up early, fixed his computer and brought to him to his office. The conversation is something as below.
Father: Why are you still not at school?
Son: I have fixed your laptop. So I thought I brought it here.
Father: You fix my laptop? Really?
Son: Yea.
Father: You sure you fixed it? Or is it you spoilt my laptop by playing with it so you sent it to the store to be fixed. Next time don't touch my stuff, now go to school.
The father then rushes back to his client apologizing and saying that his laptop is now fixed and can present the presentation, leaving his son dejected, sad, speechless and hurt.
If you were to be doing something good, but only to be ASSUMED as a naughty, rebellious and who-knows-what kind of person. I think you would one day just quit being nice and goody goody and just feel like being what people describe/assume you to be.
It hurts, it sucks and it seriously kills a person confidence and cheerfulness.
I once heard a quote that was saying how killing a person's dream, only causes that person to kill other people's dream. Are we not aware of what words can do?
Seeing people like Joash IS truly amazing. No words of discouragement and hurtful words. Truly a guy that chase after God's own heart.
Well, today last day of exam. Need to push those stu*blip* negative emotions out. Get my head straight. I promise myself to give my best in studies to God this year. Can't go back on that ^^.
Loves~
Monday, June 14, 2010
Running the Race
Ever thought that maybe running the race doesn't just apply to your walk with God? Somehow even during this hour where many students like myself are studying up for our big test, we grow tired and weary as if we have been running for miles. Stress starts building that weight on our shoulders making us feel heavy and frustrated. Sometimes when these things build up, we all start to feel like giving up or wonder why it doesnt make sense anymore. Few of us start doubting the path we are taking.
Well, for right now, all I know is that I can't do this alone on my own strength. Neither can I start having discouragements or negative thoughts bout what will happen in the future. What I can do is rely on God's strength, put my faith and trust in Him and myself. At the same time, give my utter best in completing this semester.
7I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. 8Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing. - 2Timothy4:7~8
Another thing I realize is that when we what to give or do excellence in our studies and yet serve God.. Lol~ There really seems much less time. So I guess I have to admit that last time.. I really didn't give my best in my studies but spent more time in serving God. For one of the first time.. I actually AIM to do my best in my studies. Aiming high... Lol~ This is so not easy.. But well, should start learning somewhr rite?
Gotta start studies d..
Loves~
P.s
I'd always like to remember that we never run alone. But God put people in our lives to run with us too. Someone in front, behind and above us all the time. The front to lead/pull us, someone behind to push/support us and God above to protect us if anyone stumbles. So dun think you're running alone. =)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Blip?
So far things been looking up but I dun wanna conclude it tht fast yet. Later go back to the way it was.. Then i seriously speechless. Anyway, what happened was decided to go out with some friends which I'm not sure if thr was misunderstanding between us. But anyhow, went out, the plan was bowling. Somehow... The outing was not bad. By the timie we went home.... We didnt bowl at all =P. The place was jam pack full.
So actually, Goeffrey, you didnt really miss anything XD. But if you count boredom as one.. Then possible lar. We did some minor shopping and "sight-seeing". Richard is staring to remind me of someone love sick. Aihzz.. Lol!!
Cyn and Pui Yee just CANNOT resist teasing each other with each other's pencil box. Cyn - cow, Pui Yee - dog. Me n Ke Ying oso chat chat lor. Lol~ Kawsi was with her childhood friend so didnt really get to hangout much with her.
Arrrr.... Anything else ler?? Hm.. What CAN you respond to a person that just want a relationship for fun ler?? Easy to suggest, not easy to do it out/execute ler.. Ah well.. Finals approaching.. Should not think bout all these too much.
Oh n I can't believe a friend of mine say i look like aunty sometimes -.-". Swtz~
Loves~~
So actually, Goeffrey, you didnt really miss anything XD. But if you count boredom as one.. Then possible lar. We did some minor shopping and "sight-seeing". Richard is staring to remind me of someone love sick. Aihzz.. Lol!!
Cyn and Pui Yee just CANNOT resist teasing each other with each other's pencil box. Cyn - cow, Pui Yee - dog. Me n Ke Ying oso chat chat lor. Lol~ Kawsi was with her childhood friend so didnt really get to hangout much with her.
Arrrr.... Anything else ler?? Hm.. What CAN you respond to a person that just want a relationship for fun ler?? Easy to suggest, not easy to do it out/execute ler.. Ah well.. Finals approaching.. Should not think bout all these too much.
Oh n I can't believe a friend of mine say i look like aunty sometimes -.-". Swtz~
Loves~~
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thankful
Ok, I know I am suppose to be sleeping but.. I just can't help blogging this post now. I know many times I take people or even God for granted. Knowing how much they have given yet sometimes I do not take the time to appreciate. But somehow just this moment or hr.. I just feel really really REALLY thankful for the friends I have / had.
Honestly speaking, no matter how harsh or heart-breaking things our friends may do sometimes, we are just not perfect. It really hurts and breaks but just thinking back bout all the silly, stupid, funny and awesome times we had together, you just can't help but smile. Come on, dun lie to me but honestly, you can't help smile or laugh at some.
Right now even I CANT figure out how I am gonna complete my assignment (Haha), but few people just did NOT fail to make me smile or laugh awhile before going back to studies. Lol!! Each and everyone of my friends I am thankful for. The ones I rarely chat with or used to chat with or chat lots with, each and everyone made me smile at a certain time. Made me feel that thr is someone out there, that I'm not lonely.
I thank God that I have crossed path with each and everyone of you. I thank God that each and everyone of you are nice people and not scary people XD. Friendly and funny and unique in your own special way.
Thats all =P. Nitez people ^^.
(Thankful) Loves~
Honestly speaking, no matter how harsh or heart-breaking things our friends may do sometimes, we are just not perfect. It really hurts and breaks but just thinking back bout all the silly, stupid, funny and awesome times we had together, you just can't help but smile. Come on, dun lie to me but honestly, you can't help smile or laugh at some.
Right now even I CANT figure out how I am gonna complete my assignment (Haha), but few people just did NOT fail to make me smile or laugh awhile before going back to studies. Lol!! Each and everyone of my friends I am thankful for. The ones I rarely chat with or used to chat with or chat lots with, each and everyone made me smile at a certain time. Made me feel that thr is someone out there, that I'm not lonely.
I thank God that I have crossed path with each and everyone of you. I thank God that each and everyone of you are nice people and not scary people XD. Friendly and funny and unique in your own special way.
Thats all =P. Nitez people ^^.
(Thankful) Loves~
Friday, June 4, 2010
Common
It really hurts when the people you trust hurts you, but you know.. The bible scripted that "no temptation has seized you except what is COMMON to man". Meaning to say, mostly to myself, why do we get so frustrated over things such as these? Why do we let ourselves be sad and distressed by this as if we are the only ones going through it.
As I read a passage from the bible, I didn't realize how the passage really meant to me. Scriptures wrote in 1 Corinthians 10:13,
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.".
Then again in my devotion, Psalms 73:1-20.
" 1Surely God is good to Israel,
to those who are pure in heart.
As I read a passage from the bible, I didn't realize how the passage really meant to me. Scriptures wrote in 1 Corinthians 10:13,
"No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.".
Then again in my devotion, Psalms 73:1-20.
" 1Surely God is good to Israel,
to those who are pure in heart.
2 But as for me, my feet had almost slipped;
I had nearly lost my foothold.
3 For I envied the arrogant
when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.
4 They have no struggles;
their bodies are healthy and strong. [a]
5 They are free from the burdens common to man;
they are not plagued by human ills.
6 Therefore pride is their necklace;
they clothe themselves with violence.
7 From their callous hearts comes iniquity [b] ;
the evil conceits of their minds know no limits.
8 They scoff, and speak with malice;
in their arrogance they threaten oppression.
9 Their mouths lay claim to heaven,
and their tongues take possession of the earth.
10 Therefore their people turn to them
and drink up waters in abundance. c]">[c]
11 They say, "How can God know?
Does the Most High have knowledge?"
12 This is what the wicked are like—
always carefree, they increase in wealth.
13 Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure;
in vain have I washed my hands in innocence.
14 All day long I have been plagued;
I have been punished every morning.
15 If I had said, "I will speak thus,"
I would have betrayed your children.
16 When I tried to understand all this,
it was oppressive to me
17 till I entered the sanctuary of God;
then I understood their final destiny.
18 Surely you place them on slippery ground;
you cast them down to ruin.
19 How suddenly are they destroyed,
completely swept away by terrors!
20 As a dream when one awakes,
so when you arise, O Lord,
you will despise them as fantasies."
I probably do get envious when my close friends suddenly grow close to another. Or even when I see people understanding things easier than I do.
Then again, continuing from the passage above, Psalms 73:21-28. This is what hits me most.
" 21 When my heart was grieved
and my spirit embittered,
22 I was senseless and ignorant;
I was a brute beast before you.
23 Yet I am always with you;
you hold me by my right hand.
24 You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.
25 Whom have I in heaven but you?
And earth has nothing I desire besides you.
26 My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.
27 Those who are far from you will perish;
you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.
28 But as for me, it is good to be near God.
I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge;
I will tell of all your deeds."
Knowing how bitter my heart can be at times. God still never forsake me. Yet He waits on the doorstep or at the edge of my bed waiting for me to spill or run to Him. He does not expect a lot out of me, He does not expect me to be strong and emotionless to things as these. But He promises to always wait by my side and guide me if I let, and strengthen me if I call.
Just reading this reminded me of where I stand and why did I took that step to accept Jesus as my Lord and Saviour. It sometimes can slip our mind especially at our weakest moment (when we are sad, distress and unhappy). Tht's cause the devil uses those moments to attack. Again I quote from the scriptures where God reminds us again and again that our suffering is not us alone, but is common to man.
" 8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings." ~ 1Peter 5:8-9
So there we go. Not sure what I will do now cause I really dunno what response I should give.. But I guess somehow God will show. Pray, trust and believe ^^.
Loves~
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Spam
Just so sick of it. Not knowing what you did wrong. And they go speaking bout you behind your back and ignoring you. Not enough, they say you have change and joke bout you and your personality or confusion. Still NO IDEA what they dislike about, then they just walk off on you. These are friends? These are what we suppose to consider friends till the end or who knows what?
I dunno is it me.. or is it just plain you can't trust friends for more than 2 months. Coz after that.. I just dunno what d. Dry of tears. Too full to hold anymore hurts. Enough headache that probably did too much thinking.
No one wanna clear it. I've tried startin a conversation to clear. But NOBODY wanna explain. Nobody cares bout the bond anyway. If people think that "aiya, dun say lar. Just ignore it" is gonna solve it or keep the person in well condition. Its not. They just DO NOT GET WHAT IS GOING ON!!!
Argh!! Seriously!! Right now I'm just so messed up that I'm typing whatever in here. So yea, to the PERSON. I've ALREADY ignored all your comments. I've DELETED every single thing I said to you so stop being perasan bout me replyin you when I'm not!! Though it can be a group chat. I'm IGNORING YOUR COMMENTS. I've lost the interest to REPLY you unless you call me first. IF you still DO continue reading my blog. STOP IT!! Especially if you're just gonna insult or make fun out of it. You think only you hate certain things? IT was only ONE thing while you say A LOT to me. I've settled saying everything.
Its either I will feel like this tomoro or I will just forget all this. So yea.. Today is spam the blog day. One strange way of lettin out.. Forgive me but...
...../......~
I dunno is it me.. or is it just plain you can't trust friends for more than 2 months. Coz after that.. I just dunno what d. Dry of tears. Too full to hold anymore hurts. Enough headache that probably did too much thinking.
No one wanna clear it. I've tried startin a conversation to clear. But NOBODY wanna explain. Nobody cares bout the bond anyway. If people think that "aiya, dun say lar. Just ignore it" is gonna solve it or keep the person in well condition. Its not. They just DO NOT GET WHAT IS GOING ON!!!
Argh!! Seriously!! Right now I'm just so messed up that I'm typing whatever in here. So yea, to the PERSON. I've ALREADY ignored all your comments. I've DELETED every single thing I said to you so stop being perasan bout me replyin you when I'm not!! Though it can be a group chat. I'm IGNORING YOUR COMMENTS. I've lost the interest to REPLY you unless you call me first. IF you still DO continue reading my blog. STOP IT!! Especially if you're just gonna insult or make fun out of it. You think only you hate certain things? IT was only ONE thing while you say A LOT to me. I've settled saying everything.
Its either I will feel like this tomoro or I will just forget all this. So yea.. Today is spam the blog day. One strange way of lettin out.. Forgive me but...
...../......~
Funny Thing
Strange how we humans are? We all dislike being discourage, insulted or criticized but yet we do it to others. Somehow we flare up, get into rage, get hurt, going emo and bitter when others oppose to everything we say or make negative comments at everything we do. Hm.. But yet we tend to do it to others.
Something we love or enjoy, just because people criticize, we either stop doing it or we distance ourselves from them. Then, they asks us why we so emo. Or why we so touchy. And the fussing starts.
I do admit that I'm the kind that treats people the same way they treat me. So if ur like all sarcasm, I sometimes do talk back sarcasm to you. If you are the serious type, then I'll just be serious with you. Some people I guess they will ask or say that I am people pleasing? But.. I guess.. in my point of view its just adapting to your environment so that YOU wont feel uncomfortable. Lol!! But it really doesnt last long.
When I think we are comfortable with each other, then I'll open up and be less "sarcastic" or hyper. But the more caring friend. However, I guess to some people it doesnt work out coz they think I'm the joke then. Lol!!
Are we willing to understand others when they don't bother listening to you??
Loves~
Something we love or enjoy, just because people criticize, we either stop doing it or we distance ourselves from them. Then, they asks us why we so emo. Or why we so touchy. And the fussing starts.
I do admit that I'm the kind that treats people the same way they treat me. So if ur like all sarcasm, I sometimes do talk back sarcasm to you. If you are the serious type, then I'll just be serious with you. Some people I guess they will ask or say that I am people pleasing? But.. I guess.. in my point of view its just adapting to your environment so that YOU wont feel uncomfortable. Lol!! But it really doesnt last long.
When I think we are comfortable with each other, then I'll open up and be less "sarcastic" or hyper. But the more caring friend. However, I guess to some people it doesnt work out coz they think I'm the joke then. Lol!!
Are we willing to understand others when they don't bother listening to you??
Loves~
What Do You Bring?
I know sometimes we don't think bout it. And yea.. It tends to just bury away in the back of our heads but.. Besides caring, what else do we bring to our friends, family and others?
Do we bring faith or faith-less?
Do we bring hope or make them hope-less?
Do we bring joy or sadness?
Do we bring light or pull them deeper in darkness?
Do we bring life? Or death?
Do we bring hope or make them hope-less?
Do we bring joy or sadness?
Do we bring light or pull them deeper in darkness?
Do we bring life? Or death?
Though we care and show concern.. Anything else? What else did we say that could've brought something?
Loves~
Loves~
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Fitting Moments
Lol!! I'm just bad at giving names for things. But anyhow, this is a post bout what happened on Friday at uni. Nothing much special. Went to uni, saw Sally n Charlotte, found out no more sockets (the uni seriously need to fix more as its a UNI!! Thousands of student study there!! With laptops!!) then we were thinking on what to do. Waited for the guys, our seniors (Vince n Wai Hong) came, thank God they had extensions. Then Ah Siang n Geoffrey, who knows how Sally came up with this weird idea of asking me instead of the guys to kindly ask a group of student to shift elsewhere since they not using the sockets. Lol?
Well, anyhow, dunno is it my charm or Geoffrey's stare tht cause them to agree =P. Haha!! So yea, Richard came after, forgetting to buy our lunch. Aihzz.. Then we all just do our work lar. Towards the end, my assignment just didn't make sense. Lol!! Didnt know I suppose to turn off the keyboard echo (ignore if you dun get it =P). Soo... I decided to restart. Oh, n Charlotte, Sally n Richard as well as Geoffrey so kindly went out to buy our lunch =D.
This is where i did things without thinking. Tsk tsk.. Knowing how COLD the room already is. And I was ALREADY wearing a jacket... I STILL went and so silly-ly drank a COLD coke. Silly right? When I went back into the room, a COLD chill hit me. I was like, "Hey, could be bcoz I just step in from the outside.", then realising that with every minute I stayed in the room, I started gettin shivers, which turned to chills, which I couldnt stop shivering. It got so bad, I couldnt talk right without repeating a syllable. And Richard didnt even realise it -.-". Aihzz.. Lol!! N he said I died even I put my head on the table. Swt!! Haha!! Anyhow, Vince kept giving me the stare and asking if I needed an extra jacket. Awkward-ness.. I was like awkward, wanting to get out, yet having those uncontrollable fits-like cases.
So yea, worried tht I wouldnt be able to drive home properly, so I prayed n prayed n prayed. I didnt turn on the air conditioner in the car. First time, welcoming the warmth frm the car for being under the hot sun. Lol!! N just drove home. Got home safe, it was time to go church =P.
So yea!! Been worrying uselessly of my assignment. And yea!! Had to chill the brain, so I type this and now tht I'm better, time to do my CO (Computer Organisation). Haha!!
Loves~
Well, anyhow, dunno is it my charm or Geoffrey's stare tht cause them to agree =P. Haha!! So yea, Richard came after, forgetting to buy our lunch. Aihzz.. Then we all just do our work lar. Towards the end, my assignment just didn't make sense. Lol!! Didnt know I suppose to turn off the keyboard echo (ignore if you dun get it =P). Soo... I decided to restart. Oh, n Charlotte, Sally n Richard as well as Geoffrey so kindly went out to buy our lunch =D.
This is where i did things without thinking. Tsk tsk.. Knowing how COLD the room already is. And I was ALREADY wearing a jacket... I STILL went and so silly-ly drank a COLD coke. Silly right? When I went back into the room, a COLD chill hit me. I was like, "Hey, could be bcoz I just step in from the outside.", then realising that with every minute I stayed in the room, I started gettin shivers, which turned to chills, which I couldnt stop shivering. It got so bad, I couldnt talk right without repeating a syllable. And Richard didnt even realise it -.-". Aihzz.. Lol!! N he said I died even I put my head on the table. Swt!! Haha!! Anyhow, Vince kept giving me the stare and asking if I needed an extra jacket. Awkward-ness.. I was like awkward, wanting to get out, yet having those uncontrollable fits-like cases.
So yea, worried tht I wouldnt be able to drive home properly, so I prayed n prayed n prayed. I didnt turn on the air conditioner in the car. First time, welcoming the warmth frm the car for being under the hot sun. Lol!! N just drove home. Got home safe, it was time to go church =P.
So yea!! Been worrying uselessly of my assignment. And yea!! Had to chill the brain, so I type this and now tht I'm better, time to do my CO (Computer Organisation). Haha!!
Loves~
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Assignments Assignments Assignments..
Goodness!! Believe it or not, I ACTUALLY stayed in uni till 8pm XD. Oh my!! LOL!! At first I didnt think tht I would but.. yea.. I guess when it comes down to finishin assignments and doing well, you're almost determined to just bout anythin XD. I said ALMOST XD.
Goodness!! You wont believe how amazing I felt to hear some ppl say tht hearing others say "LETS GROUP TOGETHER AND FINISH OUR ASSIGNMENT" could feel the same pressure I feel. Lol!! I dunno bout some of you. Its fun, seriously. But when too many ppl... I just dun feel the same. Its like, if there are those who understands and complete faster than u, u feel discouraged. However if you are understand faster than some ppl, its awkward when they say "Hey!! You finish so fast!! Smart ler..." then they give that sad face and say "Aihzz.. I still dunno how to do.". Lol!!
Then again, not doing in a group... You tend to wonder if the others have completed and you havent. Then you start wondering "Oh my goodness, am I really missing something? Why cant I do this? Didn't I study just as much as they did?". Well oh well..
Anyhow.. Looks like I'll be staying in uni till late again tomoro XD. Then going to uni again on Friday though its a holiday and though its SUPER far frm home. But yea!! Lets just finish these 2 MONSTROUS assignments XD.
After tht.... Lol!! After oni look at finals lar. Hehe~
Loves~ ^^
Goodness!! You wont believe how amazing I felt to hear some ppl say tht hearing others say "LETS GROUP TOGETHER AND FINISH OUR ASSIGNMENT" could feel the same pressure I feel. Lol!! I dunno bout some of you. Its fun, seriously. But when too many ppl... I just dun feel the same. Its like, if there are those who understands and complete faster than u, u feel discouraged. However if you are understand faster than some ppl, its awkward when they say "Hey!! You finish so fast!! Smart ler..." then they give that sad face and say "Aihzz.. I still dunno how to do.". Lol!!
Then again, not doing in a group... You tend to wonder if the others have completed and you havent. Then you start wondering "Oh my goodness, am I really missing something? Why cant I do this? Didn't I study just as much as they did?". Well oh well..
Anyhow.. Looks like I'll be staying in uni till late again tomoro XD. Then going to uni again on Friday though its a holiday and though its SUPER far frm home. But yea!! Lets just finish these 2 MONSTROUS assignments XD.
After tht.... Lol!! After oni look at finals lar. Hehe~
Loves~ ^^
Enough is Enough
Tired of emo-ing,Tired of being angry,
Tired of rejection,
Tired of dejection,
Tired of being depressed,
Tired of annoyance,
Tired of discouragements,
Tired of lies,
Tired of saying "4",
Tired of sarcasm,
Tired of hurts,
Tired of frustration,
Tired just means tired,
So enough is enough..
Loves~
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