Friday, June 26, 2009

Let God's Will be done 1

Its amazing just how God moves things around us. A lil' background before I start what I am gonna post.

How me and my friends got inspired was truly from a faith of a girl from Acts Church. Only 15yrs old and with a bunch of friends, they call themselves the recessrevo (it simply means recess revolution). They gather to pray each week once during their recess hr just asking God what does He want them to do. One of the testimony would be paying for 1000++ students' lunch. Wow.. I wouldn't talk so much about it because if you want to know about it, you can always ask me or the Acts church ppl personally =D.

From that me and my friends formed a group which we call campusrevo. For the first time, we tried meeting together every week. Trust me, it was hard and annoying because all our break time were diff. We met from Mon - Thurs, praying in threes or more everyday. On Mon, Ann Ee had a word from God telling to bless the guards. She was not with us then, bt she text May Zhen about it. However, as much as we wanted to do it..We somehow felt tht the timing was not right. We were really unsure how to start or where to start. Weird thing was, while we were talking bout it, I just saw in my head (I have no idea how to describe k..) my campus and the number 8 came to me. I was like.. could it be of my own thoughts??

I told May Zhen about it only. She told me to continue praying about it. So we didnt say it out. We decided to not do it tht day. On thurs, many of us had the urge to do it. So ok! Thurs it is!! Me, Sam n Joshua head out to buy the kuih and Iced Teh. While Daniel, May Zhen and Ann Ee stayed back. While we were "shopping", those three wrote encouragement words from Mr Ronson

"If you ever felt that you are unloved and lonely.
God says, "I will always love you"
John 3:16


When we got back, we packed the stuff and stick the note cards on them. By then, May Zhen and Sam had to go for classes but Shaun came after XD. Before we left to bless the guards, we prayed and yea!! With May Zhen and Sam's faith with us too, we separated into 2 groups. We presume that thr were 6 guards at main campus so we only had 6 packets with us and the rest with Joshua and Daniel. We were really nervous to be honest. But with some courage, we manage to give to the guards each and telling them how much we appreciate them and talked bout God here and there.

One of the guards, Mr Daniel, was touched and said he dun really think God loves him because he seems to be the black sheep of the family. His brothers being pastors but he only a guard. Ann Ee and I somehow felt led by the Spirit and we told him how he is not and so on. We encouraged him and told him not to give up on God.

After we handed out all 6 packets, Mr Daniel came up to us and said, "I think ur missing out 2". Ann Ee was like stunned, Shaun and I were speechless. Ann Ee quickly called Joshua, by the grace of God, there were 2 extras!! So we told them to rush back and give it to the guards at our campus. And just then it hit me.. The number 8 was probably God telling me after all. Ann Ee was like so hyped up out of nervous and excitement tht she look like she wanted to strangle me when I told her @.@ .. Haha!!

Some of our classmates were questioning us when we got back to class like what were we doing and so on. I partly felt happy bcoz, this shows, when ppl are curious, its an opportunity to tel them bout what Christ did through us. Well, just to add. We gave these out at 12pm - 1pm. Normally, only 2-3 guards would be thr. Somehow, all were thr. Really, its nthg other than God's timing.

John 3:16 - For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life


**The reason I put "1" as part of my title was because I believe with the others that this wont be the only time God's Will will be done, but thr will be more. <3

Friday, June 19, 2009

Happy Father's Day



This is for all the fathers I know,
ESPECIALLY FOR ME OWN DADDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!









Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Another entry

I realize its no point staying angry. Though I get agitated easily.. But yea.. Someone told me its not worth gettin revenge or angry over them. If they wont listen, ur plainly wasting ur saliva XD. So yea.. I guess I must learn to view both positive side n negative side. I've seen too much of the negative side i suppose XD. I guess its time to look wider. Shouldnt b stereotype just coz of FEW bad experience. OK!!! So yea!! What have been going through my life..

Me under training in the media control room
(bossing ppl around XD!! Jkjk!!)

Got back my results.. Failed all except English, Math and Psy XD. Almost pass Acc T_T . Oh well, but even if i pass, it wasnt tht gud.. Failed legals misreably XD. Ok.. It shouldnt b a happy thing but yea XD. LOL! Nvm..

Family and friends are ok i guess.. Both sides oso got ppl sick.. AIHZZZZZ!!!!! Making me wry like crazy!!! As if the lack of slp was nt enough.. Oh well.. Just have to continue to believe in God. Pray they get well soon. Especially mom. WE R PRAYING FOR U!!!! GET WELL QUICKLY!!! Also to my friends, get well soon!!!

Me, Tiffany

As for relationship.. Lol. Can say I was kinda surprise. Many guys normally when u deny their confession, they will b all "why", "can work out wan", "i really care for u", etc.. especially when u explain things to them then they go "I will wait for u!!" and such.. Hm.. However, this is strange.. one guy actually understood. He was like "yea.. makes sense", n he seems to be taking it as friendship nw. I understand the feeling will be thr. But yea.. able to control it n hold it down..its not easy.. Well, I guess c how things goes.. I really suddenly feel confuse. Before i get together with the person.. Somehow I alwyz ask these q to myself.. "How long will this last??", "am i ready to be with him?", "Would i feel embarrass being with him around my friends?", "when or wat or how must I be when in relationship?", "am i suppose to treat him diff than others or something??", "Am I counting on him more or God?", "will he really make me happy for long?", "is he the one God let me be with?", "how long?? how can i tel if i truly love him n not just like him..?", etc.. True, i noe its through prayer.. But when ur own desires come into the pic.. Its hard sometimes to tell.. Instincts, Holy Spirit, guts n being sensitive toward God.. All this.. Its really vry hard to tell.. It sorta makes me confuse.. Haha!! How many times has it been like this.. 3? 4? 5? But in the end after few yrs.. They drift away.. How can I be sure this one doesnt? Say oni "sure wont..I am diff", but.. how can u really tel?? Lol.. I suddenly remember a friend of mine tellin me "Yoh!! Why so fussy!! Like this u 70++ oso wont marry" XD. When i read this oso I kinda think tht oso XD. Lol. Wonder what will really happen ler? Wht does God hav in store O.O .. Jeng jeng jeng~~!!!! Lol!! Till next time!!

George, Joel, me (from left)
Dom (bottom)

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Gosh!!! Never knew it took one simple person to tel u to stop sharing God with everyone pull you down a lot. It felt a bit like a slap across the face. It so frustrating!! Whats more annoying is that..gosh!!! The idiot use to be ur gud friend. Wonderful!!! I dunno whats his prob anymore. Is it bcoz he change or i change? Or was it bcoz of our past. WATEVER!!!!! Its freaking irritating!! He talks as if i pissed him off. But who is he to educate others when he himself cant even solve his own freaking problem. ISH!!!!!!!!!! Feel like kicking or breaking something!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!

To top tht off, i feel like i am being stupid. Crush is a crush. Its great to know someone cares for u and all. But what is wrong with me!!! Its like i wan to be dependable upon someone. I constantly wonder wat the he is doing. Then when i catch myself doing tht i will be like.. What the hell is wrong with me!!! I am in no relationship. I dun wan to get in one till I noe it can last. How we alwyz wish the relationship would last. But at this age.. I rarely see one surviving. Its alwyz break, make up, break, make up... What the hell!!!! Mayb I am being irrational and stupid, I am not criticizing, dun get me wrong. Its great havin a relationship. But i dun wan a test drive only. I dun wan it to be dependin on one person. Neither do i wan a relationship whr its just i assume the person is like tht thts y i am attracted to tht person.

I know i have change. Change into gud and bad. Whatever.. Sigh.. But seriously.. Is all this making me go crazy..? Is it too much studies? Lol, i think i might hav to doubt. Is it due to constant control? I dunno..Mayb? Is it due to pressure frm the surroundings? Could be.. Or is it..I dunno whats happening outside anymore.. I dun feel connected to anyone outside. Lol. I admit.. I do have ppl tht cares bout me. But feeling helpless.. Unable to b help them while they help u. Feel kinda useless dun u think.. Sigh.. I noe i noe.. The time will come. Sometimes i feel like i am just wasting my time. I love holidays.. I admit. Its like time away frm all the tension in sch. However, its starting to make no diff.. I'm wasting my time away. I'm not even catchin up on things. Ever feel like a hypocrite? I feel like one nw.. Hmm... I wonder.. Why do i keep drowning myself in negativeness.. Zzz...

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

In Him Alone

"It's impossible"
All things are possible (Luke 18:27)

"I'm too tired"
I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)

"Nobody really loves me"
I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)

"I can't go on"
My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)

"I can't figure things out"
I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)

"I can't do it"
You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)

"I'm not able"
I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)

"It's not worth it"
It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)

"I can't forgive myself"
I forgive you (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)

"I can't manage"
I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)

"I'm afraid"
I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)

"I'm always worried and frustrated"
Cast all your cares on Me (I Peter 5:7)

"I don't have enough faith"
I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)

"I'm not smart enough"
I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)

"I feel all alone"
I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)