Tomoro is the day, and I am here bloggin. Whee? Haha!! Anyway, things are slowly going natural i guess. During the time of studies, everyone feeling pressured, even myself blowing up. Whew~ Glad thts half over. But it was when asking God for peace ever struck me tht i SLOWLY try to enjoy studyin n doing as best as i could.
As we climb to the top, or to the next top hill, we are bound to be stretched and challenged. Are u willing to trade ur worries and risky situations in the hands of someone u cant see but yet wants the best for u??
Hard isn't it? But i'll try. Coz the Lord would not want any of His children to suffer. But to grow strong and Christ-like =).
Nitez ppl~
Loves <3
Monday, November 22, 2010
Friday, November 19, 2010
Ever Thought
Sometimes don't you wish you have this place where u can shout everything or type everything there and no one you know will ever find out about it?
But somehow its not exactly like tht is it?? There will always be someone tht finds out about it XD. Its just when...
I dunno what I feeling now lar actually. I just feel like typing something out. I also feel like I wanna strangle or punch someone. Ugh... Not sure why all these problems coming NOW. Of all timing.. it had to be now.. True, some ppl have told me not to care but seriously???? I dunno how to not care lar!!! 88 or wateva.. aiyoooh!! Someone either strangle me or let me shake their minds out~
Sry if I sound so un-feminish. But garh!! I think i going crazy jor.. To drive me more crazy, this fella just answered my worst thought. I had been thinking of going back, seriously. But you just seemed so.. So firmed tht u dun wan the mending, u don't believ in the mending, so what am i to do but try to let go??!!!! Omgoodness wei!!!
I wanna throw something now. Haha!! I dunno what I'm thinking~ Jeng jeng kor kor ar!! I think ur right, I should not be too nice to people XD. Got a feeling i gonna get some comments on this by him later but.. I think what you said could be applied now.
Andrew is like being my daddy / older brother, keep checking up on me if i ok even during his birthday >
Uwa~!!! Exam few days from now. Lord, I really dunno how it is gonna be like. What to do what to do?? Obviously study lar!! Lord Lord, give me the words to explain in simple english and not rachel english please XD
Loves~
But somehow its not exactly like tht is it?? There will always be someone tht finds out about it XD. Its just when...
I dunno what I feeling now lar actually. I just feel like typing something out. I also feel like I wanna strangle or punch someone. Ugh... Not sure why all these problems coming NOW. Of all timing.. it had to be now.. True, some ppl have told me not to care but seriously???? I dunno how to not care lar!!! 88 or wateva.. aiyoooh!! Someone either strangle me or let me shake their minds out~
Sry if I sound so un-feminish. But garh!! I think i going crazy jor.. To drive me more crazy, this fella just answered my worst thought. I had been thinking of going back, seriously. But you just seemed so.. So firmed tht u dun wan the mending, u don't believ in the mending, so what am i to do but try to let go??!!!! Omgoodness wei!!!
I wanna throw something now. Haha!! I dunno what I'm thinking~ Jeng jeng kor kor ar!! I think ur right, I should not be too nice to people XD. Got a feeling i gonna get some comments on this by him later but.. I think what you said could be applied now.
Andrew is like being my daddy / older brother, keep checking up on me if i ok even during his birthday >
Uwa~!!! Exam few days from now. Lord, I really dunno how it is gonna be like. What to do what to do?? Obviously study lar!! Lord Lord, give me the words to explain in simple english and not rachel english please XD
Loves~
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Wishes
Oh my oh my, just checked my inbox and I have deleted 255 emails from facebook. Well, to some of you its probably little but to me.. Thats A LOT!!
Funny hw I asked God what this yr's birthday gonna be like. And asked God to have a handful of ppl outside my family to wish me. And God gave me more than a handful, actually.. Seeing the notification on fb, the last time i saw, it was "65++ ppl have written on your wall". So yea, not to mention the surprise calls and sms. I'd say it almost reach 80 or more?
Thanks so much to all my friends ^^. Really appreciate the thought. I didnt wanna post on fb coz some prob nid to study for finals and I didnt really nid ppl wishing me for the sake of wishing me. But still, if you wanna wish, I'd still appreciate ^^. Didnt expect so many to wish, and so many replies to make XD.
Haha~ After that, I oso can see actually I quite pampered XD. Lol!! K lar, actually half half. I am still quite independent.
Anyhow, my birthday was fun for me XD. Grandma bought me ice cream cake. Sisters bought a cheese cake, as much as one of them dislike cheese XD. A group of friends oso surprised me with a cake and card. Got gifts from family, relatives, vince, jason and kawsi. Hm.. What else...
Oh!! And something I DOUBT i forget. I was helping Charlotte with explaining the logic of web programming. Then it hit 12am and I was SOO frust trying to make our frequency same. Explain same thing dunno how many times, she think a n i say b. Haha!! Then tiba tiba, vince called to wish me. I was like.. Its my birthday?? Haha!! Then a min or 2 later, kawsi call oso!! Lol!! Then when I turn back to chat with charlotte, the fella say "oh it 12! happy birthday rachel". Lool... Charlotte made me forget its my bday. Then kena shock by sisters.
Then one of my sis so smart put a present under my pillow while I was aslp. Then when woke up, I ter-felt it. And thought "what my sis thinking of putting newspaper under my pillow".. Haha!! It really felt like a couple of newspaper. Then took it out, of coz wasnt newspaper lar. Just some wrapping tht FELT like newspaper. HAha!!
This bday was really a sweet one =). Thnx everyone who participated ^^. Really appreciate it. All the best in studies and exams yea XD.
Loves~
Funny hw I asked God what this yr's birthday gonna be like. And asked God to have a handful of ppl outside my family to wish me. And God gave me more than a handful, actually.. Seeing the notification on fb, the last time i saw, it was "65++ ppl have written on your wall". So yea, not to mention the surprise calls and sms. I'd say it almost reach 80 or more?
Thanks so much to all my friends ^^. Really appreciate the thought. I didnt wanna post on fb coz some prob nid to study for finals and I didnt really nid ppl wishing me for the sake of wishing me. But still, if you wanna wish, I'd still appreciate ^^. Didnt expect so many to wish, and so many replies to make XD.
Haha~ After that, I oso can see actually I quite pampered XD. Lol!! K lar, actually half half. I am still quite independent.
Anyhow, my birthday was fun for me XD. Grandma bought me ice cream cake. Sisters bought a cheese cake, as much as one of them dislike cheese XD. A group of friends oso surprised me with a cake and card. Got gifts from family, relatives, vince, jason and kawsi. Hm.. What else...
Oh!! And something I DOUBT i forget. I was helping Charlotte with explaining the logic of web programming. Then it hit 12am and I was SOO frust trying to make our frequency same. Explain same thing dunno how many times, she think a n i say b. Haha!! Then tiba tiba, vince called to wish me. I was like.. Its my birthday?? Haha!! Then a min or 2 later, kawsi call oso!! Lol!! Then when I turn back to chat with charlotte, the fella say "oh it 12! happy birthday rachel". Lool... Charlotte made me forget its my bday. Then kena shock by sisters.
Then one of my sis so smart put a present under my pillow while I was aslp. Then when woke up, I ter-felt it. And thought "what my sis thinking of putting newspaper under my pillow".. Haha!! It really felt like a couple of newspaper. Then took it out, of coz wasnt newspaper lar. Just some wrapping tht FELT like newspaper. HAha!!
This bday was really a sweet one =). Thnx everyone who participated ^^. Really appreciate it. All the best in studies and exams yea XD.
Loves~
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Something Different
Another semester about to end. A new beginning will soon open its doors to us again. However this time it seems like the ending and beginning would be different from last semester.
This semester I could say just rushed by. Many lectures were just "like-that", compared to last semester. I wonder whether it had got to do with the time, we ended at 6pm this semester while last semester ends at 4pm. Or could it be due to all the group assignments?
This semester I can say experienced quite a lot of different things. Wont go in depth bout it much. I guess there were many complications and sad things which happened to. Sometimes when these things happen, you just don't know how to think, or what to think.
But hey, its not the end. Well, currently I am really grateful to my friends + lecturers teachings and guidance that I can finish my assignments XD. Hopefully I do well in my finals too =P.
This week is ALL about presentation, so please go easy on me XD. Following week is our finals. Time ot get our nose in our laptops and books. I cant predict what the results are like, unlike last semester where you can have goals.
Also I guess I should still thank someone for showing me whats relationship all about. Its nice and warm knowing there is someone to care and love you. But unfortunately I am not ready for that kind of commitment yet. I'm sorry =).
I sorta promised myself I wont go into anymore BG relationship till i turn 21 ^^. Call me old fashion or whatever but thts a promise I wanna try to keep =). I dun wanna simply give my heart to someone whom i am not sure will be my future husband. Or when I am not ready. I wanna give my future husband the best =P.
Still, thanks for understanding, the fella is still my friend =P. There is nthg wrong with him. He is a really nice guy. But yea, I am just not ready. I dunno how to express "not ready" XD. I just know it.
So yea.. Not getting into a relationship b4 i hit 21.. Hope i can keep tht XD. As for finals, well, I can oni pray for the best. And hopefully my crazily-fun friends wont drag me away from concentration XD. Love u guys still!!! All the best for your finals too!!
Cheers out~
Loves =)
P.s
Thanks oso to my mentors (you know who you are =P), for always walking with me and watching over me XD. Few yrs older, still not too old yet =P. I know how tiresome I can be. Appreciate you guys!! ^^
This semester I could say just rushed by. Many lectures were just "like-that", compared to last semester. I wonder whether it had got to do with the time, we ended at 6pm this semester while last semester ends at 4pm. Or could it be due to all the group assignments?
This semester I can say experienced quite a lot of different things. Wont go in depth bout it much. I guess there were many complications and sad things which happened to. Sometimes when these things happen, you just don't know how to think, or what to think.
But hey, its not the end. Well, currently I am really grateful to my friends + lecturers teachings and guidance that I can finish my assignments XD. Hopefully I do well in my finals too =P.
This week is ALL about presentation, so please go easy on me XD. Following week is our finals. Time ot get our nose in our laptops and books. I cant predict what the results are like, unlike last semester where you can have goals.
Also I guess I should still thank someone for showing me whats relationship all about. Its nice and warm knowing there is someone to care and love you. But unfortunately I am not ready for that kind of commitment yet. I'm sorry =).
I sorta promised myself I wont go into anymore BG relationship till i turn 21 ^^. Call me old fashion or whatever but thts a promise I wanna try to keep =). I dun wanna simply give my heart to someone whom i am not sure will be my future husband. Or when I am not ready. I wanna give my future husband the best =P.
Still, thanks for understanding, the fella is still my friend =P. There is nthg wrong with him. He is a really nice guy. But yea, I am just not ready. I dunno how to express "not ready" XD. I just know it.
So yea.. Not getting into a relationship b4 i hit 21.. Hope i can keep tht XD. As for finals, well, I can oni pray for the best. And hopefully my crazily-fun friends wont drag me away from concentration XD. Love u guys still!!! All the best for your finals too!!
Cheers out~
Loves =)
P.s
Thanks oso to my mentors (you know who you are =P), for always walking with me and watching over me XD. Few yrs older, still not too old yet =P. I know how tiresome I can be. Appreciate you guys!! ^^
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Hiddens Lyrics
Ever thought that some lyrics just goes with how you feel? Lol~ I decided to post few parts of it. Of course in FB n msn we would prob post a line of it =P.
Here it goes~
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Do you understand how I feel?
Do you get what I think?
I know I am selfish with just my own desires.
Can you tell me what should I do with myself?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
But my feelings are wanting to crash and drop.
With every tear that threatens to fall,
I hold them back with a smile and laugh them off with a cry.
I no longer feel like I am free and flying,
a tied down girl, with invisible strings pulling me down.
Why did it turn out like this?
I don’t feel things are the same,
don’t tell me that everything is still the same.
Don’t treat me like I am some stranger,
I can feel it can you see?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
With my feelings bout to crash and fall.
The tears I stopped are gonna fall,
I lock myself away to hide my pain and sorrow.
With confusion I wonder what had happened.
My feelings turned confused
but I guess I’ll hold on.
Walking with a shell to block anymore pain.
Let this be the last, no more shall I open till that very day.
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Loves~
Here it goes~
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Do you understand how I feel?
Do you get what I think?
I know I am selfish with just my own desires.
Can you tell me what should I do with myself?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
But my feelings are wanting to crash and drop.
With every tear that threatens to fall,
I hold them back with a smile and laugh them off with a cry.
I no longer feel like I am free and flying,
a tied down girl, with invisible strings pulling me down.
Why did it turn out like this?
I don’t feel things are the same,
don’t tell me that everything is still the same.
Don’t treat me like I am some stranger,
I can feel it can you see?
With every face that pass, my mask just grows stronger.
With my feelings bout to crash and fall.
The tears I stopped are gonna fall,
I lock myself away to hide my pain and sorrow.
With confusion I wonder what had happened.
My feelings turned confused
but I guess I’ll hold on.
Walking with a shell to block anymore pain.
Let this be the last, no more shall I open till that very day.
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Loves~
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