A Proper Kitchen

Somehow I really really miss my kitchen at home. REAL Home! EACH and Everytime I feel like I wanna experiment or do something special or don't just do a simple dish, I look around and see that there will be one or 2 equipment I don't have. And mostly? Its an oven. Aih..

How I miss making my cupcakes. I don't have the muffin tray here, n oven made it look like cakes.

How I miss baking and making desserts. I don't have pots and pans of different sizes. I don't have a rolling pin or food weigher.

How I miss making juices/smoothies/shakes. I don't have a blender.

How I miss making roasted food. I don't have a proper oven.

I would go on but its time to sleep. Oh how I miss these things. And looking through recipes make me feel all the more.. limited. Aih... Wat to do wat to do?

ReiRei

I Want An Oven!!!

Blah blah blah~ So things recently has been going quite upsie downsie. Then again, should have expected things to be like that especially with our different views and so on. But overcoming it makes it seem/feel like we've grown closer, or theres more problems ahead. But enough of that for now..

I WANT AN OVEN!!! How long does it take to roast 4 simple small potatoes??? 30min max?? Right? Right? Ugh!! And just when I thought this microwave oven is doing ok as a temporary/fan-forced oven... It totally ruined my brunch!! A meal which should take less than an hour to prepare, by right 30mins. Guess how long it took me just to get the potatoes ready? Just the potatoes..

Almost 2 HOURS!!! Then had to wait for chicken (2 and a half chicken breast) for another 45min. How ridiculous can that be????!!!! And you know how putting honey to get a golden crisp at the top of the chicken? Well this turned out slight yellow and that was it!! *hands showing "unbelievable"*

Ugh... No mood to roast anything in there anymore. I mean its great and faster that mom got me a pressure cooker. But I realized.. Its a lot more to wash and harder too! Considering that Aussie's basins are terribly/sadly SMALL. Normally you could wash  a pot without having to bump into the tap, but here is like u must carefully turn the pot to wash as to not bump into the tap. Aih...

ReiRei

Can I still hold my subtitle high? Even with the way I am?

Emotional, I am.

Through hurts I gave in.

I let myself get stepped on.

"Its not worth it" I told myself.

I drank myself drunk in tears.

Lord I know I gone far.

Lord I know I led myself astray.

To the curiosity I fell into.

To the words of man, I wanted to trust.

And though I told myself,

never again will I only look to You when I'm down.

But still right now,

After all these years,

I still cause you pain.

I still let you down.

Can I still say I'm sorry?

ReiRei

The Truth

Not knowing the truth, how wonderful life could be. Only to find that it was all but a dream.
I believe in your words, trust that you are not like them.
But looks like by accident I stumbled onto something I wished I never read.

Its always like this but this time through arguments. My heart cries out not wanting to believe in them.
I really don't wanna regret this. I really don't want it any lower than this..

Its not me.. Your heart breaks for her, your heart remembers her.. Its not me..
You been searching for her, through girls that are like her.. But they aren't her, are they..
I'm not her, am i.. Ask Suki? Ask your friends? How many more of your stories can I believe?

You were hurt when you saw? You were down in the pits when she broke your heart.
You tore everything in your path to show of your anger and frustration. And me?
I was just a small tiny part during that life, which boiled you but not enough..

Hah... Googie googie? What sweet love you still give, the attention you still pass...
Even when theres a "I miss you"...

Relationship what not.. To try here and there, why not?
As long as at the end of the day you get what you want, is that not?.......

Rach...

P.s
I should stop listening to the Phantom of the Opera =/

I'm Going Home

Yes I am going home but not permanently. Soon I can c everyone again! Somehow miss them more than I ever did. Will things be different? Will things work out? I have no idea. But what I wanna c is my sis getting back to her old self again. Its not right having a downcast sis. Sadly.. Yes sadly I miss her sudden anger, her "I can do it but u cant", her attitude and spunky-ness. Am learning some new dishes and treats. When I get back will make it for you guys!! C u c u c u soooon!! <3 Rei

Regrets? I hope not...

Shud have expect that the longer you are in a relationship, the tougher it gets of having someone else in your life. And somehw, blogging still makes me feel less tense of typing everything here. Arguments over small and big things also got. More frustrating is when each argument you have, one side feels this way is normal but to the other side it doesn't make sense. And no I am not talking about religion and morality. Although that prob could be applied but sometimes its frustrating when the simple reason he gives is "Thats the way I was brought up". Okay.. But I don't think that shud be the reason I have to accommodate to your needs is it? And you don't hear me say "Thats the way I was brought up". I mean come on, not everything should be done your way correct or not? Ugh.. N I KNEW that just coz I decided not to hang out with you while waiting for 2 hours just doing my work. U go get moody. Seriously?? Beginning it felt like if we do our own stuff it will b no problem. Recently its like if can do together, try to do everything together. And no I don't complain that we spend time together. But I complain that if either of us can't make it, DON'T SULK OR BE MOODY!! Goodness!! Its times like that or some random "don't-wanna-talk-anymore" mood that make me feel you would have prefer C. And when I think of that... UGH! The regrets which I don't wanna feel comes crawling in. And its those times I feel like screaming or shouting, what kind of promise are you keeping?? If you can think that thr is a problem with our relationship, if you think that sometimes you are the cause. Then for goodness try and change those parts which make me upset! Stop repeating them. Or at least do it in a way where both of us can accept. Don't use "Thats the way I been brought up" as an excuse coz the relationship will nid 2 ppl to mold and not one. If God wanna intervene then so be it. I guess sometimes there are things where we need someone who knows us more than we know each other to work things out. Rei