Been just going through some things. Sometimes I don't know if its just my mind playing with me or I'm just too oblivious. I can confirm that right now, I feel I'm supporting many. How the Lord do it I don't know. I'm glad some ppl call me older sister even though they are older. Sometimes I also wonder where I can find my own older sibling. I guess I have but they are over the seas XD.
As for my partner, I guess I still have not realize or seen him yet. So far most of the guys as I past one by one, each has a weight they carry and hoping someone they can lean on. I too wanna chuck my weight somewhr =P!! But I'm glad/honoured the Lord uses me to remind them to lean upon Him and that its oni His approval we need to strive for.
"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. - Galatians 1:10"
Still oh still, there are so many times now where I just feel like dropping everything and go with the wind. Like just doing what I want.
Time is actually a lot. And I realize if I did not serve, I could have been doing a lot more other things. Good and bad I guess XD. But no how, like the above. Like the verse said, I only need to please God. Not myself or anyone else.
Sigh.. Thnx to winter I got super flabby arms now. ISH!! Really gotta figure a way to slim them down -.-". So disproportional to my other body parts ><. Must figure a way or cannot wear spaghetti straps in summer!! Faint in heat!!!
Rach
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Time Management
Serving the Lord is awesome. Yet sometimes I tend to forget that I am still a student. Sigh, part of me wanna quickly graduate and go missionary or something. However I also wanna enjoy being a student n doing wat I can do now as a student or even as a UNI student. I mean, its fun~! U get to travel n etc. I slowly starting to realize the freedom and things I could do without my parents here. The choices I have been given while I am alone.
Can I really do what I enjoy yet keep my grades up?
ReiRei
Can I really do what I enjoy yet keep my grades up?
ReiRei
Being Picky / Somehow Knowing
Is it normal to find someone only after you graduate? Or to start having a serious relationship only when you graduate? Hm.. I'm really content and happy being single. It allows me to roam free, to be and talk with anyone I like. To do anything according to my time. However, laughable as it may be, I dun wanna marry late ><.
What am I thinking.. I'm still young but just thinking bout mom getting married at 24.. I dun wanna to be married after 27 ler ><. I wonder if thts the plan God has for me >
Some ppl are asking me to just go with whoever ask me now just to get experience of what being in a relationship but i really wonder..I wan a relationship i do, but i dun wan a one nite stand or one month or one year stand. Will this really be possible?
Is thr someone out there which doesnt expect me to be the dependable one? But actually willing and wanting to share the weight together? So tired of guys that just look at me as if I can carry my own and their weight.
Rach
What am I thinking.. I'm still young but just thinking bout mom getting married at 24.. I dun wanna to be married after 27 ler ><. I wonder if thts the plan God has for me >
Some ppl are asking me to just go with whoever ask me now just to get experience of what being in a relationship but i really wonder..I wan a relationship i do, but i dun wan a one nite stand or one month or one year stand. Will this really be possible?
Is thr someone out there which doesnt expect me to be the dependable one? But actually willing and wanting to share the weight together? So tired of guys that just look at me as if I can carry my own and their weight.
Rach
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Friend but not a friend
I'm not sure why I bother feeling hurt everytime she does this seriously. Its not just once but dunno how many times d. Partly I joined societies and clubs, ESPECIALLY sports. Being in a place where I'm not around her sometimes makes me feel free to be who I am without feeling confined. Not that I am being controlled by her but just sometimes I felt like she wanted us to be close frens yet I dunno... It seems more like effort to keep it together is me?
I mean, introducing her to new things and encouraging her to try out for experience. Or just calling her to join coz I know it would be gud for future.. Like.. Sometimes I feel like slapping myself. Why Am I Being So Nice To Her For??? Recalling every situation, sometimes she cares if she realize that I am prep for it. Or if she really feel like she need it thn ask me to accompany her. Like..
Whats partly infuriating probably to me is that, I am probably too naive to think that some people would think that friends means ensuring each others benefits/life is stable. But she.. Seriously? I have no words for her. Its like she is in her freaking own world. I dunno if this a test from God or wat but.. my goodness... I just feel like dumping her alone. I feel like i am used and some companion/informatic for her only when she needs it.
So far I cant really recall anything that she actually shared. Most of her friends its nt like she intro them to me until I met them after awhile and both of us bump into them and she realize i met them -.-. Like... SERIOUSLY?????????
Any word to describe the word I am placing on her now? Selfish. Sure I am sounding super harsh and maybe forgetting to even look at myself right now but.. Ish!! Last time I would be sadden n troubled knowing she felt hurt everytime I say like this/scold her or just argue with her. But now.. I am SOOO tempted to drop her like she keep expecting me to whn we argue.
Sigh.. Somehw someone just reminded me that God forgive us more than we hav forgiven others. So looks like I gotta just pray more..
ReiRei
I mean, introducing her to new things and encouraging her to try out for experience. Or just calling her to join coz I know it would be gud for future.. Like.. Sometimes I feel like slapping myself. Why Am I Being So Nice To Her For??? Recalling every situation, sometimes she cares if she realize that I am prep for it. Or if she really feel like she need it thn ask me to accompany her. Like..
Whats partly infuriating probably to me is that, I am probably too naive to think that some people would think that friends means ensuring each others benefits/life is stable. But she.. Seriously? I have no words for her. Its like she is in her freaking own world. I dunno if this a test from God or wat but.. my goodness... I just feel like dumping her alone. I feel like i am used and some companion/informatic for her only when she needs it.
So far I cant really recall anything that she actually shared. Most of her friends its nt like she intro them to me until I met them after awhile and both of us bump into them and she realize i met them -.-. Like... SERIOUSLY?????????
Any word to describe the word I am placing on her now? Selfish. Sure I am sounding super harsh and maybe forgetting to even look at myself right now but.. Ish!! Last time I would be sadden n troubled knowing she felt hurt everytime I say like this/scold her or just argue with her. But now.. I am SOOO tempted to drop her like she keep expecting me to whn we argue.
Sigh.. Somehw someone just reminded me that God forgive us more than we hav forgiven others. So looks like I gotta just pray more..
ReiRei
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Trusting by Faith
I remember I used to alwyz tell the Lord or my pastors that asking me to sacrifice myself or anything except family I can do. Where the hardest thing for me to do would without a doubt be sacrificing my own parents or siblings, Abraham and Isaac. Well, so far in my mind that was my thought. I also use to think that if someone was to put a gun at my head or similar situation, I would no doubt take the shot or sacrifice myself for my family instead of denying God or Christ.
This semester even as I begin my journey, I realized 2 things. I can say all I want but in reality, I myself am not sure how i'll take it if the situation arises. I know that I wont be able to deny God but.. am I really not scared to die? I really question myself.
I guess God has finally shown me that I really DO need to entrust EVERYTHING to Him. Now that I am away from my family, I'm not sure why I don't see it like most students do? For me, I tend to worry sometimes like what happens if something happened and my parents or siblings needed help? Or they were in danger and I am too far away? The feeling of helpless-ness.. I believe God is telling me, this is a period of Faith. To have Faith that God is control of every situation my parents and siblings are in. I remember at the beginning of last sem when my parents left for the second time, I couldnt bear thinking I would be so far away from them and suddenly thinking of situations of friend's elder sibling or friends' friends feeling as some of them lost their parents or whole family.. And how were they able to take it? I thought to myself, I probably go crazy and ballistic. Or depression beyond measures.
But then God showed me, many missionaries had to entrust to God their love relationships, family relationships and etc to God even as they go and do what could probably put them in danger. How are the parents or their love ones feeling? How were they able to be calm and patient although they were sad?
I believe its the FULL trust they had in God. Where God always has a reason for somethings to happen. And as long as we follow His commands, He will see us through till we finish our purpose given to us by our Creator.
Again and again I am feeling and thinking now like.. As amazing as it sounds to be part of God's movement, its sometimes unfair for those that lose their love ones. Its sad to see the righteous get shot down because ppl feel intimidated. Its confusing sometimes knowing actually you have a chance to live a life just caring bout urself and drowning in ur own pleasures instead of caring for others and laying ur life for ur brothers as Christ has lay His life for us.
Maybe I'm hallucinating or something but sometimes I feel like I'm in a strange dimension, that something supernatural is about to happen. That everything I see around me now is gonna disappear or vaporize into thin air any minute. But its still there, yet I feel there is something urgent I need to realize. What is it? I'm only a casual student studying and hoping to get a proper job with good pay in the future and have a loving family and maybe if possible create this huge mansion for my family, my parents, my siblings' family all to live in together. Hm.. Haha!!
But yea.. this Friday, I prob see things different from many ppl. Or prob doesnt know/understand as much as some ppl. I dunno how, I'm scared, I'm speechless, my mind is blank.. Yet Lord.. What do You want me to do?
ReiRei
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. - Hebrews 11:1
This semester even as I begin my journey, I realized 2 things. I can say all I want but in reality, I myself am not sure how i'll take it if the situation arises. I know that I wont be able to deny God but.. am I really not scared to die? I really question myself.
I guess God has finally shown me that I really DO need to entrust EVERYTHING to Him. Now that I am away from my family, I'm not sure why I don't see it like most students do? For me, I tend to worry sometimes like what happens if something happened and my parents or siblings needed help? Or they were in danger and I am too far away? The feeling of helpless-ness.. I believe God is telling me, this is a period of Faith. To have Faith that God is control of every situation my parents and siblings are in. I remember at the beginning of last sem when my parents left for the second time, I couldnt bear thinking I would be so far away from them and suddenly thinking of situations of friend's elder sibling or friends' friends feeling as some of them lost their parents or whole family.. And how were they able to take it? I thought to myself, I probably go crazy and ballistic. Or depression beyond measures.
But then God showed me, many missionaries had to entrust to God their love relationships, family relationships and etc to God even as they go and do what could probably put them in danger. How are the parents or their love ones feeling? How were they able to be calm and patient although they were sad?
I believe its the FULL trust they had in God. Where God always has a reason for somethings to happen. And as long as we follow His commands, He will see us through till we finish our purpose given to us by our Creator.
Again and again I am feeling and thinking now like.. As amazing as it sounds to be part of God's movement, its sometimes unfair for those that lose their love ones. Its sad to see the righteous get shot down because ppl feel intimidated. Its confusing sometimes knowing actually you have a chance to live a life just caring bout urself and drowning in ur own pleasures instead of caring for others and laying ur life for ur brothers as Christ has lay His life for us.
Maybe I'm hallucinating or something but sometimes I feel like I'm in a strange dimension, that something supernatural is about to happen. That everything I see around me now is gonna disappear or vaporize into thin air any minute. But its still there, yet I feel there is something urgent I need to realize. What is it? I'm only a casual student studying and hoping to get a proper job with good pay in the future and have a loving family and maybe if possible create this huge mansion for my family, my parents, my siblings' family all to live in together. Hm.. Haha!!
But yea.. this Friday, I prob see things different from many ppl. Or prob doesnt know/understand as much as some ppl. I dunno how, I'm scared, I'm speechless, my mind is blank.. Yet Lord.. What do You want me to do?
ReiRei
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. - Hebrews 11:1
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Discovering Myself
Who am I? A girl that just studies and go back and forth between her home and uni is so not the Rachel I know lor. Now that I think about it.. That girl who is just so studios, non-socialable and work focus only.. Thats not me, is it?
I guess its a good thing that Rachel wanna grow independent, try to minimize as much spending as she can. Try to achieve the best of the best in her results. This may probably not be the best time to test this out but.. Some part of me just feel like letting go. Just do everything I can now, knowing that after I start working, I probably wont have a better chance to do it anymore.
I guess here is where I learn "how much is too much"? Knowing to spend but not over spending, socializing n having fun yet coping with exams, assignment and classes. Can I do it? Can I do all I wanna do yet maintain or pass my subjects XD?
However, even as I wanna enjoy life to the fullest and not just study and not experience what students life is all about, I know God warns me bout enjoying too much =). I heed the warning my parents use to tell me that I may/am not smart like some genius whr they play all day yet score HD/full marks at the end of the sem, therefore should cut down on activities. And I agree cause according to God's Word, fun is needed and given, but we should not over do it.
"To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. - Ecclesiastes 2:26"
How more evident do I need to show how much the Lord is willing to provide you everything you need? Blessed is he who pleases the Lord.
What is about to be shown next, although is long, I think its very applicable to my current situation. I was surprise and felt a great relief when I saw the title somehow XD.
Remember Your Creator While Young - Ecclesiastes 11:7-10
So conclusion? Rachel is not a couch potato neither can she be a plain studious person. That is just a dead corpse Rachel if she does that. Seeing my past life, I just have too much drama and excitement and heart breaks (lol?) to be dead ;)
ReiRei
I guess its a good thing that Rachel wanna grow independent, try to minimize as much spending as she can. Try to achieve the best of the best in her results. This may probably not be the best time to test this out but.. Some part of me just feel like letting go. Just do everything I can now, knowing that after I start working, I probably wont have a better chance to do it anymore.
I guess here is where I learn "how much is too much"? Knowing to spend but not over spending, socializing n having fun yet coping with exams, assignment and classes. Can I do it? Can I do all I wanna do yet maintain or pass my subjects XD?
However, even as I wanna enjoy life to the fullest and not just study and not experience what students life is all about, I know God warns me bout enjoying too much =). I heed the warning my parents use to tell me that I may/am not smart like some genius whr they play all day yet score HD/full marks at the end of the sem, therefore should cut down on activities. And I agree cause according to God's Word, fun is needed and given, but we should not over do it.
"To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind. - Ecclesiastes 2:26"
"The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. - John 10:10"
How more evident do I need to show how much the Lord is willing to provide you everything you need? Blessed is he who pleases the Lord.
What is about to be shown next, although is long, I think its very applicable to my current situation. I was surprise and felt a great relief when I saw the title somehow XD.
Remember Your Creator While Young - Ecclesiastes 11:7-10
7 Light is sweet,
and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.
8 However many years a man may live,
let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the days of darkness,
for they will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.
and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.
8 However many years a man may live,
let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the days of darkness,
for they will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.
9 Be happy, young man, while you are young,
and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart
and whatever your eyes see,
but know that for all these things
God will bring you to judgment.
10 So then, banish anxiety from your heart
and cast off the troubles of your body,
for youth and vigor are meaningless.
Nothing more I can say with this =). Harsh as it probably sound, but I know God just wants to make sure we are safe rather than drunk and blur and being an easy prey for the devil.
ReiRei
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Servants Retreat
Hey bloggie~
I'm back from Servants Retreat~!!!! Was really refreshing even though it was just a day and a half or less probably. But it was still really good =). Felt like I was there for few days. We had Aunty Marilyn to come and speak to us. And seriously.. I really CANNOT shake this nagging feeling that I am hearing preaching after preaching which I have already heard from Ps Chew or Ps Daniel back in church. SERIOUSLY~!! Well, maybe they were in different sentences but the verses were thr. The points were can say exact.. Its just so reminding..
Part of me feel like saying "yes yes I know this, I've heard this before", but not sure why today I just felt like questioning myself "Rach, are you sure you really know this..?" . Do I?
Its also kinda freaky and touching at how God sometimes show how real He can really be in our lives. I am not gonna mention the past ones in Melbourne but just in this retreat.
On Friday, the day before leaving for Servant Retreat, we were told what we hope to gain/achieve/do this sem in OCF or just in our own walk with God. I listed 3 things:
1. To be Faith challenged;
2. To memorize memory verses; and
3. To live a prayerful lifestyle.
It just came to mind and I was like ok. Didnt expect during Servants Retreat Saturday and Sunday Aunty Marilyn would emphasize so much on these 3. Well, looks like I'm on the right track?
What further surprise me was that, if looking back in my blog, I cannot deny the fact that when I first came to Melbourne I kept asking God to let me do something. And guide me to use my gifts. Guess what??
God has been giving me challenges~!! Challenges that challenge my faith and trust in Him!! I wont say wat they are yet, and u know wat?? When I was presented with it, I kept telling myself I'm not ready when in fact, I was praying for it!! BLUR MUCH RACH?? Another thing, God had answered my prayer regarding building my talent.. OCF vision since 30 or 32 years ago.. Basically waaaay back dino age ago (Hehe~ Learn from Aunty Marilyn), their vision were like to be apostles.
Here were the visions:
1. Reach Out - Evangelism
2. Build Up - Discipleship
3. Send Back/Home - Apostleship
Getting out of our comfort zone to reach out to the lost, building them in confidence and faith, sending them back to impact their own nations. From this retreat, I really cannot stop singing this song with few others. But this song was what hit me most.
I hope it gives you hope and renewed strength each and every day. For each and every Word you mean this to God, I hope it strengthens your faith in Him.
Agape
Rei ♥♥
Friday, July 29, 2011
The 2nd Club~!!
I have finally join a new club!! The table tennis club!!! Or well sport club.. Whatever @@.. Society.. club.. starting to brain down. Yea.. Was really really excited bout going. I mean.. After class I just couldnt wait to go and change attire (coz winter wear 3 layers exclude jacket. Then if wear that while playing indoors.. Crazy ler @@).
Realize was an hr early so went and doughnut coffee bliss with Ke Ying ;p. I never knew that the 2 Original Glaze could be replace with any of the doughnuts and still be charged same price. Or even change the coffee to hot chocolate and STILL have it the same price. OR Both~!! AND STILL HAVE IT FOR $6.50~!! How awesome is that~ I so recommend the doughnut coffee bliss for tea~
Oh after that, I still had like half an hour to kill. So I went to the venue and decided to slowly take my time and change. Didnt expect 2 ppl thr setting up already.. So yea, sport started at 230pm. We all took turns playing. I think everyone minimum had 3-4 games throughout the time period. It felt really long since I been watching ppl play or even have a game with them.
It seems also that my smashing will never not be notice @@. I think after few rounds with the state or national players (I was really sucky.. I mean.. 2/11 is so not cool. Haha!! But to be even able to get points frm them was cool XD) they starting bullying by giving me high balls to smash. Which also remind me of my height!!! ARRH!!! And after not playing for almost a year, I felt SOOO TIRED after awhile. Where did all my stammina run to?
The last half an hr (or maybe 45 min) they started having this crazy endurance game i think.. 4 tables would have an individual competition of 11 points. Which table finish first ends that whole round for every table. If you have lower points, you move down. If you have higher points, you move up. At the lowest table if u have lower points, you get out of the game and the person waiting in turn goes in.
First 3 games I kept going between table 1 and 2. The vry low ones. Haha!! But as time passes.. MAN~!! My legs were half jello that I not oni needed to bend to maintain balance but oso bend so that I wont feel too tired!! And this Cambodian player can still order me to smash harder when I am barely standing up. He said so I can improve. @@ Every round I start to see everyone losing stamina. Haha!! Some ppl just stop playing strokes and went for spins and down-under balls and close nets so dun nid to move and exert as much strength. Except for one guy who really like playing speed ball. Man..
But yea.. Haha!! At the end I was completely thirsty and out of water. Went slurpie with them (C lucky I change so I dun have to be in sweat and walk out in cold!! I did change after the game finally ended though). Then head for OCF. Was an hr early so chatted with Joon and Sahitya who were already thr. I felt like such a blur person as I was trying so hard to maintain alertness and not fall aslp. Haha!! The couch really felt so nice~ (Which later Sahitya agreed full hearted when he sat~)
Anyway yea.. I should be slping. Tomoro got a long day of Servants Retreat. Hopefully I can wake up and HOPEFULLY NOT BE SORE!! Hope also that at the camp my legs wont just give out if we are sitting too long. Okok~ Eyes shutting d. Nite!!
Raaaae-i?
Realize was an hr early so went and doughnut coffee bliss with Ke Ying ;p. I never knew that the 2 Original Glaze could be replace with any of the doughnuts and still be charged same price. Or even change the coffee to hot chocolate and STILL have it the same price. OR Both~!! AND STILL HAVE IT FOR $6.50~!! How awesome is that~ I so recommend the doughnut coffee bliss for tea~
Oh after that, I still had like half an hour to kill. So I went to the venue and decided to slowly take my time and change. Didnt expect 2 ppl thr setting up already.. So yea, sport started at 230pm. We all took turns playing. I think everyone minimum had 3-4 games throughout the time period. It felt really long since I been watching ppl play or even have a game with them.
It seems also that my smashing will never not be notice @@. I think after few rounds with the state or national players (I was really sucky.. I mean.. 2/11 is so not cool. Haha!! But to be even able to get points frm them was cool XD) they starting bullying by giving me high balls to smash. Which also remind me of my height!!! ARRH!!! And after not playing for almost a year, I felt SOOO TIRED after awhile. Where did all my stammina run to?
The last half an hr (or maybe 45 min) they started having this crazy endurance game i think.. 4 tables would have an individual competition of 11 points. Which table finish first ends that whole round for every table. If you have lower points, you move down. If you have higher points, you move up. At the lowest table if u have lower points, you get out of the game and the person waiting in turn goes in.
First 3 games I kept going between table 1 and 2. The vry low ones. Haha!! But as time passes.. MAN~!! My legs were half jello that I not oni needed to bend to maintain balance but oso bend so that I wont feel too tired!! And this Cambodian player can still order me to smash harder when I am barely standing up. He said so I can improve. @@ Every round I start to see everyone losing stamina. Haha!! Some ppl just stop playing strokes and went for spins and down-under balls and close nets so dun nid to move and exert as much strength. Except for one guy who really like playing speed ball. Man..
But yea.. Haha!! At the end I was completely thirsty and out of water. Went slurpie with them (C lucky I change so I dun have to be in sweat and walk out in cold!! I did change after the game finally ended though). Then head for OCF. Was an hr early so chatted with Joon and Sahitya who were already thr. I felt like such a blur person as I was trying so hard to maintain alertness and not fall aslp. Haha!! The couch really felt so nice~ (Which later Sahitya agreed full hearted when he sat~)
Anyway yea.. I should be slping. Tomoro got a long day of Servants Retreat. Hopefully I can wake up and HOPEFULLY NOT BE SORE!! Hope also that at the camp my legs wont just give out if we are sitting too long. Okok~ Eyes shutting d. Nite!!
Raaaae-i?
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Holy Discontented
Just one last thing I thought I remind myself even as I read back in future ;). As a Christian, have you ever felt the fire of being Holy Discontent??
Where you just wanna go out there and do something but not sure what. Touch others lives but not sure how. Do something bid but dunno whr to start. Seeing lives impacted and changed for the greater good.
Knowing that Christianity is never just about preaching and talking but a lifestyle and passion. Something you WANT to do and not need to do.
Hm.. Half way reading the book~ N it really is exciting ^^.
ReiRei
Where you just wanna go out there and do something but not sure what. Touch others lives but not sure how. Do something bid but dunno whr to start. Seeing lives impacted and changed for the greater good.
Knowing that Christianity is never just about preaching and talking but a lifestyle and passion. Something you WANT to do and not need to do.
Hm.. Half way reading the book~ N it really is exciting ^^.
ReiRei
An Idea
Random simple ideas keep coming into my head when I shower. I really gotta ask God to change that. Hm.. It makes it harder to remember sometimes when I wanna jot it down for future reference.
But yea.. Recently I guess I have just got ideas such as charity, blessing ppl, paying for ppl's laundry money, cooking ppl dinner, randomly dropping friendly notes into ppl's mail boxes, and etc. But nvr really getting them done cause either I feel stupid, weird, awkward, wondering wat other ppl might be thinking.. You know~ Those stuff~!! I AM VERY SURE EVERYONE HAS AT LEAST A MOMENT OF THAT!!! (or more)
So yea, lets just say the new idea which popped into my head was creating a website. More exactly, a chatting forum. Or a forum of thoughts/opinions. I really have no idea how to put it. But basically its a form of discussion, ppl's view of lifestyle and socials. I know I know, we have lots of those.
Just thought of having or making a team. The forum where it talks about styles, clothes, movies, studies, relationships, games, life experience, hobbies, interest, technology, internet, career and so on. Then having a few sort of known counselors which could give on advice, etc etc. I mean.. A place where it is not allowed to post politics or whatever govermental issues.
But more like a place if you have seriously NOTHING to do and just wanna spam. Why not put ur opinion in a place where you never know if it will help? A place that could shows views of different cultures or maybe views of different genders and age groups. A place where you can shout out what you think and be acknowledge yet no one knowing who you really are (as long as you dun post everything bout ur real self).
Something similar to facebook whereby is global I guess, except.. A place where everyone with similar interest but different views can share their points. Who knows, sometimes we can learn something out of it. Who knows, we might even be encouraged bout it. Either that, who knows if your idea is actually an awesome one and one day you see it happening before your very eyes~!! (ok tht is seriously far fetched) but... Who knows rite? The person who started Mc Donalds sure didnt know Mc D was gonna b famous. Neither did facebook or genting. Haha!! Neither did Microsoft and some others that actually pulled through.
Hm.. As much as I can this or post this out to tell others.. I wonder bout myself.. Why daren't I try it?
A question which sometimes I post to myself,
"Am I really unafraid of being who I am?"
I guess a gud title for that website if I ever do make it will go something like "Being Myself". Something like it~ I suck at creative names =P.
There we go~ Time for slp =).
Nite~
ReiRei (The Innocent Lamb - Its just my name in hebrew =)
But yea.. Recently I guess I have just got ideas such as charity, blessing ppl, paying for ppl's laundry money, cooking ppl dinner, randomly dropping friendly notes into ppl's mail boxes, and etc. But nvr really getting them done cause either I feel stupid, weird, awkward, wondering wat other ppl might be thinking.. You know~ Those stuff~!! I AM VERY SURE EVERYONE HAS AT LEAST A MOMENT OF THAT!!! (or more)
So yea, lets just say the new idea which popped into my head was creating a website. More exactly, a chatting forum. Or a forum of thoughts/opinions. I really have no idea how to put it. But basically its a form of discussion, ppl's view of lifestyle and socials. I know I know, we have lots of those.
Just thought of having or making a team. The forum where it talks about styles, clothes, movies, studies, relationships, games, life experience, hobbies, interest, technology, internet, career and so on. Then having a few sort of known counselors which could give on advice, etc etc. I mean.. A place where it is not allowed to post politics or whatever govermental issues.
But more like a place if you have seriously NOTHING to do and just wanna spam. Why not put ur opinion in a place where you never know if it will help? A place that could shows views of different cultures or maybe views of different genders and age groups. A place where you can shout out what you think and be acknowledge yet no one knowing who you really are (as long as you dun post everything bout ur real self).
Something similar to facebook whereby is global I guess, except.. A place where everyone with similar interest but different views can share their points. Who knows, sometimes we can learn something out of it. Who knows, we might even be encouraged bout it. Either that, who knows if your idea is actually an awesome one and one day you see it happening before your very eyes~!! (ok tht is seriously far fetched) but... Who knows rite? The person who started Mc Donalds sure didnt know Mc D was gonna b famous. Neither did facebook or genting. Haha!! Neither did Microsoft and some others that actually pulled through.
Hm.. As much as I can this or post this out to tell others.. I wonder bout myself.. Why daren't I try it?
A question which sometimes I post to myself,
"Am I really unafraid of being who I am?"
I guess a gud title for that website if I ever do make it will go something like "Being Myself". Something like it~ I suck at creative names =P.
There we go~ Time for slp =).
Nite~
ReiRei (The Innocent Lamb - Its just my name in hebrew =)
A Good Book
A book that never fails to interest me~ You not only can learn from it, you can experience real joy, sadness, satisfaction and sometimes humour from it. Seriously!! No joke!!
Its called.. "A Chapter of a Person's Life Experience"~ Serious~ I'm not kidding. Each and everytime you wanna read a new story book, there is always a possibility of let down, unsure if its boring or whether it really is what you think it is. But imagine, a chapter in that person's life. Not asking for a life of grandmothers story, but a certain chapter which impacted them. An experience which made them confused and will make u think "thats out of the world"~
Plus~ What could be better than hearing a person tell u the story instead of reading out of a book. I'm not saying "lets say good-bye to book" but more of "welcome in this new story book into your life". A story of a person's life where who knows? Might be something you need? OR might be something which you can learn from? Or just something which makes you respect and love/cherish yourself more. We never know.
Another thing which you gain just from hearing it, you get a closer friend ;). Communication is somehw always the key of starting or strengthening a bond.
I got a treat from Sue Lee today and was astounded to hear how a friend of hers got turned down by many girls and just when he was about to give up, his hairdresser ask him to meet this girl. And guess wat? After a couple of months, they started to become a couple. And I heard, at the end of THIS year they are getting married!! How awesome is that? There was more to the story but this is the SUPER summary ;). I learnt more bout Aussie culture too, and it really is different from wat i imagined @@. Oh well~ I still love times of sharings ^^.
Rei~
Its called.. "A Chapter of a Person's Life Experience"~ Serious~ I'm not kidding. Each and everytime you wanna read a new story book, there is always a possibility of let down, unsure if its boring or whether it really is what you think it is. But imagine, a chapter in that person's life. Not asking for a life of grandmothers story, but a certain chapter which impacted them. An experience which made them confused and will make u think "thats out of the world"~
Plus~ What could be better than hearing a person tell u the story instead of reading out of a book. I'm not saying "lets say good-bye to book" but more of "welcome in this new story book into your life". A story of a person's life where who knows? Might be something you need? OR might be something which you can learn from? Or just something which makes you respect and love/cherish yourself more. We never know.
Another thing which you gain just from hearing it, you get a closer friend ;). Communication is somehw always the key of starting or strengthening a bond.
I got a treat from Sue Lee today and was astounded to hear how a friend of hers got turned down by many girls and just when he was about to give up, his hairdresser ask him to meet this girl. And guess wat? After a couple of months, they started to become a couple. And I heard, at the end of THIS year they are getting married!! How awesome is that? There was more to the story but this is the SUPER summary ;). I learnt more bout Aussie culture too, and it really is different from wat i imagined @@. Oh well~ I still love times of sharings ^^.
Rei~
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
I NEED TO DO SOMETHING!!!
Cant believe I am actually missing the being too busy till I have no time for relax or till I must actually do my hobby reading while in the car or before I sleep. All this happening during my secondary times.
I mean, if I wasnt doing tuition then I would be joining 5 clubs and societies. I mean literally joining them in doing something n not just sitting there do nothing or plain name-sake. I remembered before I went to a sch which limited students to one society a week, MGS actually allowed us to join as many as we want with a minimum of 3 a week. As long as it doesnt clash with any core societies/sports then its fine. Goodness.. I still cant believe I joined the band, taekwondo (halfway oni for this), choir, Christian Fellowship, cheerleading (oso halfway except for hse colour), prefect, table tennis, chess.. cant remember wat else.. Not stopping there, I cant believe I still had time to read finish 3-5 story books a week! Seriously what was I thinking??? How did I even have time to go to the library?? Oh rite, skipping lunch a few times.. Seriously???
To top that up, I still cant bliev I had church and church activities which required me 2 and a half days. Sometimes even 3 days in a week. Then somemore tuition 4 days at least in a week @@. How did I finish all those homework ar.. Is it because it involves no research and it was already sorta spoonfed till the homework were actually just practices?
Even after leaving the sch and going to the sch which oni allowed like wat.. one society a week.. I still cant believe I went and skip class quite a few times just to do events! Didnt turn out spectacular but was still not in class. Ok maybe that wasnt a gud one. But classes ended mostly at.. 4pm i think. Except fridays. Then I had tuition 3 times a week!! Nearing exams it increases. And I would stay up late till 3am every nw n then just to finish my work. Huh.. What was I thinking?? Was it because I didnt nid to wry bout my transportation and food on my table? Not like now whr I have to prep everything myself? Is that it??
So what is my resolute? As much as I suck at dancing.. I kinda of reeeeeli.. so baaaaadly wanna join a dance class. Not sure why but yea.. And part of me was wondering is it because right now I am thinking I am too free? But I was also thinking of the times I come home in the evening and do home work till late nite.. If I divide my work probably can rite? Would be too busying myself be a bad thing??
Cause I dun just wanna dance, I oso wanna join the outdoor sports, table tennis friendly matches, maybe swimming, then just plain working out and sweating some. Voluntary work wat eva~ I just wanna sweat or do some work that would make me move my lazy ass. Lol!! Got a feeling I probably complain in the middle like i usually do but looking back how much I enjoyed.. I cant deny THAT~
I starting to feel silly cause its been dunno how many years a leaflet talks bout dancing and I will just stand thr and stare at the poster for quite awhile before moving. I mean, what is thr to c?? Time date venue.. Sigh.. Or is it just the thought that people say how if we dun train young, we be like a person dancing with 2 left feet or with a back made of plank? Embarrassment? Why wouldnt thr b? But I still wanna join.. Should I? Or should I just start of with table tennis?
Hm.. So many things I wanna do n try.. Yet oni 1 year and a half left till I graduate.. RACHEL WAT HAVE U BEEN DOING>>>?????????????
Rei
I mean, if I wasnt doing tuition then I would be joining 5 clubs and societies. I mean literally joining them in doing something n not just sitting there do nothing or plain name-sake. I remembered before I went to a sch which limited students to one society a week, MGS actually allowed us to join as many as we want with a minimum of 3 a week. As long as it doesnt clash with any core societies/sports then its fine. Goodness.. I still cant believe I joined the band, taekwondo (halfway oni for this), choir, Christian Fellowship, cheerleading (oso halfway except for hse colour), prefect, table tennis, chess.. cant remember wat else.. Not stopping there, I cant believe I still had time to read finish 3-5 story books a week! Seriously what was I thinking??? How did I even have time to go to the library?? Oh rite, skipping lunch a few times.. Seriously???
To top that up, I still cant bliev I had church and church activities which required me 2 and a half days. Sometimes even 3 days in a week. Then somemore tuition 4 days at least in a week @@. How did I finish all those homework ar.. Is it because it involves no research and it was already sorta spoonfed till the homework were actually just practices?
Even after leaving the sch and going to the sch which oni allowed like wat.. one society a week.. I still cant believe I went and skip class quite a few times just to do events! Didnt turn out spectacular but was still not in class. Ok maybe that wasnt a gud one. But classes ended mostly at.. 4pm i think. Except fridays. Then I had tuition 3 times a week!! Nearing exams it increases. And I would stay up late till 3am every nw n then just to finish my work. Huh.. What was I thinking?? Was it because I didnt nid to wry bout my transportation and food on my table? Not like now whr I have to prep everything myself? Is that it??
So what is my resolute? As much as I suck at dancing.. I kinda of reeeeeli.. so baaaaadly wanna join a dance class. Not sure why but yea.. And part of me was wondering is it because right now I am thinking I am too free? But I was also thinking of the times I come home in the evening and do home work till late nite.. If I divide my work probably can rite? Would be too busying myself be a bad thing??
Cause I dun just wanna dance, I oso wanna join the outdoor sports, table tennis friendly matches, maybe swimming, then just plain working out and sweating some. Voluntary work wat eva~ I just wanna sweat or do some work that would make me move my lazy ass. Lol!! Got a feeling I probably complain in the middle like i usually do but looking back how much I enjoyed.. I cant deny THAT~
I starting to feel silly cause its been dunno how many years a leaflet talks bout dancing and I will just stand thr and stare at the poster for quite awhile before moving. I mean, what is thr to c?? Time date venue.. Sigh.. Or is it just the thought that people say how if we dun train young, we be like a person dancing with 2 left feet or with a back made of plank? Embarrassment? Why wouldnt thr b? But I still wanna join.. Should I? Or should I just start of with table tennis?
Hm.. So many things I wanna do n try.. Yet oni 1 year and a half left till I graduate.. RACHEL WAT HAVE U BEEN DOING>>>?????????????
Rei
Teachers Day = Lecturers Day??
Not sure why I only just realized?? How come Taylors University celebrate Teachers/Lecturers Day and RMIT don't?? Thats just sad =(. Not sure how I even thought about this but it just randomly pop into my head.
Hm.. Ponder ponder.. Should I do a small gift for all my current lecturers as a appreciation gift? Hm.. I mean, I'm not sure how things are run here but I think I just feel like I wanna be thankful for these people who teach us.
I mean, if it wasnt for them or my teachers in the past, I probably wouldnt have learnt any non-fictional or science-fictional things XD. I would probably just learn english.
Well, will update u lil' bloggie if I do decide to do tht =). Not even sure how I should do it.
ReiRei
Hm.. Ponder ponder.. Should I do a small gift for all my current lecturers as a appreciation gift? Hm.. I mean, I'm not sure how things are run here but I think I just feel like I wanna be thankful for these people who teach us.
I mean, if it wasnt for them or my teachers in the past, I probably wouldnt have learnt any non-fictional or science-fictional things XD. I would probably just learn english.
Well, will update u lil' bloggie if I do decide to do tht =). Not even sure how I should do it.
ReiRei
Monday, July 25, 2011
Already Sem 2??
Huh.. What have I been doing this whole year? Its sem 2!! Not sure why just these past few days I felt unfulfilled. Like empty yet unsure why. This blog has become a tiny journal that fills every now and then with just plain thoughts.
I wonder, is it because of the empty home? Is it the feeling of loneliness where the eyes can oni see physically?
I realize its just soo easy to turn a blind eye and be ignorant bout things. Ignoring the feeling that I do feel lonely by busying myself/just watching movies after movies.
Ignoring the fact that I feel so passive, where I wanna live back the days of doing some crazy sports, table tennis or hiking or travelling.. Or even just walk around the mall for no reason~ I miss those times..
I wanna think I am suffocating or something. But I probably be lying as I am just being a spoilt girl who wants her candy. So many many things comes to mind now that I am not accompanied by anyone 24/7.
I can start thinking a lot of things of the future. I can put myself in different situation and then ask myself, can I bear it? Am I ready for it? Majority of the answer?..
I most of the time just break down and cry then calm myself by talking to God. After that going on busying myself. What am I doing seriously???????
Results.. I really do want to achieve awesomely~ Who doesnt? Sigh.. But part just wanna break free and scream. To just enjoy myself and do what I want. But then I HAVE.. just HAVE TO go and think about whether I will be able to cope with assignments. Then I have to go and think whether I am ready for exams and FINAL exam. FINALS IS 13 WEEKS!!! I seriously overthink!! A lot of ppl nw seem quite distant.. Some bcoz I push them away.. Which I know is my fault..
Not sure how, but it was just a sudden thought when I was walking to uni. I was thinking whether the 15 years old and 17 years old me would have believe where I am now. Sometimes I think the younger me was probably stronger than the current me. Haha!! To think even at times when I'm just lying on the bed is that the time whr I was strongest was when I was oni 10 or younger.. Weird??
Enough lar fr nw.. Gonna slp~ Nite my faithful bloggie =)
Rei
I wonder, is it because of the empty home? Is it the feeling of loneliness where the eyes can oni see physically?
I realize its just soo easy to turn a blind eye and be ignorant bout things. Ignoring the feeling that I do feel lonely by busying myself/just watching movies after movies.
Ignoring the fact that I feel so passive, where I wanna live back the days of doing some crazy sports, table tennis or hiking or travelling.. Or even just walk around the mall for no reason~ I miss those times..
I wanna think I am suffocating or something. But I probably be lying as I am just being a spoilt girl who wants her candy. So many many things comes to mind now that I am not accompanied by anyone 24/7.
I can start thinking a lot of things of the future. I can put myself in different situation and then ask myself, can I bear it? Am I ready for it? Majority of the answer?..
I most of the time just break down and cry then calm myself by talking to God. After that going on busying myself. What am I doing seriously???????
Results.. I really do want to achieve awesomely~ Who doesnt? Sigh.. But part just wanna break free and scream. To just enjoy myself and do what I want. But then I HAVE.. just HAVE TO go and think about whether I will be able to cope with assignments. Then I have to go and think whether I am ready for exams and FINAL exam. FINALS IS 13 WEEKS!!! I seriously overthink!! A lot of ppl nw seem quite distant.. Some bcoz I push them away.. Which I know is my fault..
Not sure how, but it was just a sudden thought when I was walking to uni. I was thinking whether the 15 years old and 17 years old me would have believe where I am now. Sometimes I think the younger me was probably stronger than the current me. Haha!! To think even at times when I'm just lying on the bed is that the time whr I was strongest was when I was oni 10 or younger.. Weird??
Enough lar fr nw.. Gonna slp~ Nite my faithful bloggie =)
Rei
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Freedom yet Reflection
This freedom a lot people told me bout when u leave the nest, where you dun nid to worry bout finance yet able to roam free anywhr and anytime without eyes following you. Some parts of me wonder if it is really such a big thing. In my eyes, it feels exactly like when i'm at home. Just that when I return, I am greeted with a black silent room instead of a brightened and noise filled house.
I am grateful partly that some part of me understand that it is a maturity process. Or like some part of the bible says, a walk in the desert, a time of solitude/testing. Few things I learnt in these 4 months, endurance, self-less, bonds and probably some other things which cant come to mind now.
Dont feel like rambling a lot now but in all these things, some things which someone once told me blood is really thicker than water. No matter how much I wanted to believe sometimes that is equal, whrby no matter wat, friends will alwyz be friends n not some touch and go (sry for stealing tht ky =P)... It still pains i guess to see everytime someone change and making it look like its for gud, no more anything that existed between us, whether fren or buddies or wateva. And when i c the journey that i have gone thru just slowly fades with some ppl.. haha~ its just sad!! The oni ones that do remain are a handful of buddies/friends and my whole family!! So then why do we sometimes bother stretching wat is already so thin? Why bother create/strengthen new friendships? Hm..
Last thing i do wonder, do evil and negative grow as he/she grows older? Cause the more i wonder about it, the more i'm quite sure XD. Where do negative feelings come frm? Mostly pain and agony and torture no? However to suffer, I'm pretty/quite sure its totally different.
Its just tots~
Rei =)
I am grateful partly that some part of me understand that it is a maturity process. Or like some part of the bible says, a walk in the desert, a time of solitude/testing. Few things I learnt in these 4 months, endurance, self-less, bonds and probably some other things which cant come to mind now.
Dont feel like rambling a lot now but in all these things, some things which someone once told me blood is really thicker than water. No matter how much I wanted to believe sometimes that is equal, whrby no matter wat, friends will alwyz be friends n not some touch and go (sry for stealing tht ky =P)... It still pains i guess to see everytime someone change and making it look like its for gud, no more anything that existed between us, whether fren or buddies or wateva. And when i c the journey that i have gone thru just slowly fades with some ppl.. haha~ its just sad!! The oni ones that do remain are a handful of buddies/friends and my whole family!! So then why do we sometimes bother stretching wat is already so thin? Why bother create/strengthen new friendships? Hm..
Last thing i do wonder, do evil and negative grow as he/she grows older? Cause the more i wonder about it, the more i'm quite sure XD. Where do negative feelings come frm? Mostly pain and agony and torture no? However to suffer, I'm pretty/quite sure its totally different.
Its just tots~
Rei =)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Revengeful Spirit
I’m not saying I don’t have it. If you were always being treated harshly or hurt before, most of the time you either get depressed or you get revengeful. I guess its normal. Not everyone can be like Cinderella, just patient and obedient and always cheerful. Or having a fairy godmother who would turn all your downs to ups.
Yes, it is freaking hard to just sit there, keep quiet, absorbing all the hurts as it aims at your heart, after awhile you probably burst. I used to just absorb it until I cant remember when, I just explode. Haha! Then slowly slowly I kinda got impatient. Sometimes can be a bit demanding. I mean, correct me if I’m wrong but.. sometimes it feels good just ranting out your anger and frustration doesn’t it? Like a kettle, you gotta let the steam come out or its gonna blow the kettle and all water will come bursting out.
At the same time, harbouring all that bitterness is not good either. Somehow you will feel very heavy shoulders. I just stating this cause I go through it. There are at times when someone annoys me SOO FREAKING much that when the person say a word to me only, I get very riled up(like a cat’s fur standing on one end XD). Its like auto an ice wall comes around my heart. Aihzz.. Its nt gud lar k? It spoils friendships. I just know hw it feels like. The person says hi n ur blank and u just say whatever comes to mind before thinking thru. Thn u dun care coz in the first place ur already angry wif the person so nt giving a second glance would b like the person never talk to you in the beginning.
So yes, if you’re asking me hw to deal with it? I’m just TRYING to answer as essay-bookly as possible now. Saying just forgive the person and get over it is nt that easy cause I know it takes time. One of my worst cases took me like almost 2 years before I could talk normally to the person again. But if you can I do encourage. However while you can’t, I’m still looking for the formula. Thts all for now~ Tata~
Loves
Rei Rei +
Yes, it is freaking hard to just sit there, keep quiet, absorbing all the hurts as it aims at your heart, after awhile you probably burst. I used to just absorb it until I cant remember when, I just explode. Haha! Then slowly slowly I kinda got impatient. Sometimes can be a bit demanding. I mean, correct me if I’m wrong but.. sometimes it feels good just ranting out your anger and frustration doesn’t it? Like a kettle, you gotta let the steam come out or its gonna blow the kettle and all water will come bursting out.
At the same time, harbouring all that bitterness is not good either. Somehow you will feel very heavy shoulders. I just stating this cause I go through it. There are at times when someone annoys me SOO FREAKING much that when the person say a word to me only, I get very riled up(like a cat’s fur standing on one end XD). Its like auto an ice wall comes around my heart. Aihzz.. Its nt gud lar k? It spoils friendships. I just know hw it feels like. The person says hi n ur blank and u just say whatever comes to mind before thinking thru. Thn u dun care coz in the first place ur already angry wif the person so nt giving a second glance would b like the person never talk to you in the beginning.
So yes, if you’re asking me hw to deal with it? I’m just TRYING to answer as essay-bookly as possible now. Saying just forgive the person and get over it is nt that easy cause I know it takes time. One of my worst cases took me like almost 2 years before I could talk normally to the person again. But if you can I do encourage. However while you can’t, I’m still looking for the formula. Thts all for now~ Tata~
Loves
Rei Rei +
Sunday, March 6, 2011
End of 1st week Sem 3 Part 2
Please do not be mistaken that I do not appreciate what my parents has done. It is truly a blessing that I am able to do things and travel when I know many can’t. I’m probably really greedy =P.. I love my parents seriously I do. At the same time, I guess God has been so part of my life that I just want to continue journeying with Him and seeing His works. I don’t want to just be a usual normal girl only studying, then graduating then going on masters and graduating then working her whole life through. That’s what everyone is doing. Reading bout God’s work, being part of His plans.. It seems different.. Though I cannot see God or hear God, I just think that God must be really lonely and sad if His love ones don’t pay attention or realize He is there with us all the time.
When we study, where does our focus go? Our books right? When our assignments come, where is our focus mostly? On our projects right? As you eat, b4 you slp, as you walk to uni n etc.. You think how to solve it, you plan when is your next free break to work on it, our focus is mostly on assignments.
I’m like blindly typing whatever that comes to mind now. Putting myself in God’s position.. Where thinking what must it be like to love someone so badly and not be loved back? Or putting so much care and effort creating something so fearfully and wonderfully only to have it taken away.
Calming down.. I dunno why or how I suddenly got so emotional. Just saying things that I feel.. But seriously.. How does God do it? We can say we love someone so much, but how long do we love that person after he/she brutally hurt us, use us, ignore us, forget us and etc. I bet after awhile most of us prob just give up right? Especially after that person found another partner. You could say cause God does not have a female to love or another god or something, I dunno. Aihz.. Its truly mystifying why God would create man and woman to love each other yet wanting each gender to love Him. Yet He probably only have angels to talk to and.. I dunno. Mind boggling. Cant imagine what heaven is like. Haha!!
Cheerio~
ReiRei
When we study, where does our focus go? Our books right? When our assignments come, where is our focus mostly? On our projects right? As you eat, b4 you slp, as you walk to uni n etc.. You think how to solve it, you plan when is your next free break to work on it, our focus is mostly on assignments.
I’m like blindly typing whatever that comes to mind now. Putting myself in God’s position.. Where thinking what must it be like to love someone so badly and not be loved back? Or putting so much care and effort creating something so fearfully and wonderfully only to have it taken away.
Calming down.. I dunno why or how I suddenly got so emotional. Just saying things that I feel.. But seriously.. How does God do it? We can say we love someone so much, but how long do we love that person after he/she brutally hurt us, use us, ignore us, forget us and etc. I bet after awhile most of us prob just give up right? Especially after that person found another partner. You could say cause God does not have a female to love or another god or something, I dunno. Aihz.. Its truly mystifying why God would create man and woman to love each other yet wanting each gender to love Him. Yet He probably only have angels to talk to and.. I dunno. Mind boggling. Cant imagine what heaven is like. Haha!!
Cheerio~
ReiRei
End of 1st week Sem 3 Part 1
Its been 3 weeks(?) since I have been in Melbourne cbd. Days come and go. With each passing day I do the usual things; attend classes, cook, clean, eat, shower, sleep, find church, find cell, find cf.. Yet, somehow as I came out of another church I just attended.. Some part of me is asking, what am I doing in Melbourne. True, I wanted to attend a different major, I wanted an experience outside of Malaysia but.. I feel so.. bland? I’m not sure what I feel is correct, I’m still asking God, was studies all I came here for?
True studies is important, I’m not saying its not. But.. maybe its because its only been a weeks or 2 since my parents left(aka homesick).. but I just feel like a.. ghost wandering through this ghost city. Haha!! I really dunno how to put this. Exciting life.. it somehow doesn’t feel very exciting.
Am I expecting too much? Am I dried up or low on fire just cause I’ve been attending different churches? Lord, is my focus being fuzzed up?
How do we balance being so on fire for God, wanting to do His works, yet balancing and maintaining our assignments, studies and grades? How do we divide our time to growing deep in His Word while at the same time working hard on subjects we’re really bad at?
Discipline? Time management? Are those enough? Effort and faith.. I somehow most of the time hang onto these before I entered university. Through it I have really experienced moving with God but my grades, well.. They weren’t perfect. Just average. Being in uni feels like I cannot just have average.. It must be more. But at the same time, I really really wanna serve God, study and read more on what God speaks, what God has done.
Others can do it. Does it really truly mean that everyone can? Do everyone really have the capability of achieving what their seniors have achieved?
What do you do if a child comes to you hungry? Do you feed him/her flour instead of bread? Or crumbs instead of a biscuit?
What am I seeking for? What should I be seeking for? What is truly the reason that I came to Melbourne? Is it really just to study? To experience the different cultures and environment not “available” in Malaysia?
Cheers
ReiRei
True studies is important, I’m not saying its not. But.. maybe its because its only been a weeks or 2 since my parents left(aka homesick).. but I just feel like a.. ghost wandering through this ghost city. Haha!! I really dunno how to put this. Exciting life.. it somehow doesn’t feel very exciting.
Am I expecting too much? Am I dried up or low on fire just cause I’ve been attending different churches? Lord, is my focus being fuzzed up?
How do we balance being so on fire for God, wanting to do His works, yet balancing and maintaining our assignments, studies and grades? How do we divide our time to growing deep in His Word while at the same time working hard on subjects we’re really bad at?
Discipline? Time management? Are those enough? Effort and faith.. I somehow most of the time hang onto these before I entered university. Through it I have really experienced moving with God but my grades, well.. They weren’t perfect. Just average. Being in uni feels like I cannot just have average.. It must be more. But at the same time, I really really wanna serve God, study and read more on what God speaks, what God has done.
Others can do it. Does it really truly mean that everyone can? Do everyone really have the capability of achieving what their seniors have achieved?
What do you do if a child comes to you hungry? Do you feed him/her flour instead of bread? Or crumbs instead of a biscuit?
What am I seeking for? What should I be seeking for? What is truly the reason that I came to Melbourne? Is it really just to study? To experience the different cultures and environment not “available” in Malaysia?
Cheers
ReiRei
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Looking From the Dark Side of ME
I do keep “posts” of when I’m angry sometimes. Just sometimes, I realize earlier, that when ur angry, you can say unintentional things. And really, I just had an urge to read my posts of when I’m angry. N it kinda scares me. Haha!! Yes, my self scares me XD. But its true!
How do I put it.. I felt so much anger!! So much hatred, so.. very blind.. Its like, literally like darkness just consuming me and letting it flow through me doing what I feel was right just to feel good in releasing it.
Not only that.. I kinda felt pain coming from it? Its like reminding me how hurt I felt when I typed that post. Dwelling on something bad just makes the person more revengeful and “savage”. Its really not a nice feeling. When ur happy, compared to when ur upset.. Which do you feel lighter?
Thanks to the memories I spent with kiwi (sister nickname a person this XD), everytime I think of kiwi.. I feel sad yet calm. I’m sure God has His reasons. But the feeling of calmness.. Has helped me n my parents a LOT these 3 days XD. Seriously.. I’m like trying to keep everything light and happy whenever dad gets impatient cause he’s worried and when mom is trying to help as much as possible =P. I realize I’m so like my mom during this time of “bonding” with my family.
Oolala~ parents bought me an hr of internet. Hehe!! Well.. Another thing I lastly wanna add. When ur happy and seeing the positive side of things even when things are bad.. Good things /rewards comes next =). Not immediately but.. It will come. If its not true.. Then I guess, God really blesses =P. Hehe!! K lar. Ish ish~ Dad askin if I typing thesis. So mean hor =P. Till city hours ;).
Love loves~
Hello From Australia =D
HI BLOGGIE!!! Finally in Melbourne!! Y so late?? Coz went sightseeing outside City XD. Went somewhr like mornington and peninsula. Interesting??? Btw, THIS DOES NOT FEEL LiKe SuMMER!! Its llike autumn ppl!!! Its freaking cold out here!! Well.. Super windy actually. While typing this, I’m actually not in Melbourne, waiting to go there then post this up.
Aihz.. Somehow I keep finding hard to sleep. Keep waking and slping.. So annoying.. One thing ler.. I realize y ppl like staying in Australia.. Or well outside of Melbourne. Here is like easy going, relax, country yet city like, thr are also a lot of senior citizens too XD. But seriously.. going scenic viewing, berry picking (I finally got my Strawberry!! XD), seeing ranches, black cows, white with brown patches cows, horses, meadows, high hills n etc.. Its really lovely n sweet if any guy wanna bring their gf here for holidays (=P hints for my future bf or husband XD). But honestly.. It really REALLY is very costly just trying to live here.
Another thing I realize here, there r no road bumps XD. Either tht so rare cause I didn’t feel them I think @@.
LENNA!!! I just remembered. I didn’t dare sleeveless and shorts out wei!! Super cold out here. Hopefully the city is MUCH warmer @@.
K enough talk.. Oh wait!! One last thing. Guess what was my first experience/encounter when I reached an apartment we were staying in? Our hair dryer “poofed”. Haha!! Dad got so scared to charge his laptop n phone after tht. Poofed meaning it got burnt, it “exploded”, it keep giving off this toxic smell.. Yea.. Not only tht. Unfortunately for dad, he spent $10 (not rm ppl), just on 2 hrs internet. After 1 hr 30min, he gave up figuring hw to use it =P. So yea, use tht last 30min the next day to reply SOME PPL’S emails =P. plus plus search for churches tomoro.
I cant believ I woke at… melb timing… 430am today. N I couldn’t slp!!! So kinda sms kawsi to bring calc. Forgotten mine @@... She must b wonderin y she receive sms at 2am plus =P. Hehe!!
Well, tomoro will b seeing ke ying I hope… hopefully wont b like charlotte.. thr yet cannot b seen @@..
K lar.. dad asking me y I offline yet so many things to type XD. Time to off. Hehe!! Good evening from aussie peeps ;). Ppl here r friendly..
P.s
After chatting with parents, asian guys r still more preferably my type =P. Hidden reasons behind ;)
Lub~
Aihz.. Somehow I keep finding hard to sleep. Keep waking and slping.. So annoying.. One thing ler.. I realize y ppl like staying in Australia.. Or well outside of Melbourne. Here is like easy going, relax, country yet city like, thr are also a lot of senior citizens too XD. But seriously.. going scenic viewing, berry picking (I finally got my Strawberry!! XD), seeing ranches, black cows, white with brown patches cows, horses, meadows, high hills n etc.. Its really lovely n sweet if any guy wanna bring their gf here for holidays (=P hints for my future bf or husband XD). But honestly.. It really REALLY is very costly just trying to live here.
Another thing I realize here, there r no road bumps XD. Either tht so rare cause I didn’t feel them I think @@.
LENNA!!! I just remembered. I didn’t dare sleeveless and shorts out wei!! Super cold out here. Hopefully the city is MUCH warmer @@.
K enough talk.. Oh wait!! One last thing. Guess what was my first experience/encounter when I reached an apartment we were staying in? Our hair dryer “poofed”. Haha!! Dad got so scared to charge his laptop n phone after tht. Poofed meaning it got burnt, it “exploded”, it keep giving off this toxic smell.. Yea.. Not only tht. Unfortunately for dad, he spent $10 (not rm ppl), just on 2 hrs internet. After 1 hr 30min, he gave up figuring hw to use it =P. So yea, use tht last 30min the next day to reply SOME PPL’S emails =P. plus plus search for churches tomoro.
I cant believ I woke at… melb timing… 430am today. N I couldn’t slp!!! So kinda sms kawsi to bring calc. Forgotten mine @@... She must b wonderin y she receive sms at 2am plus =P. Hehe!!
Well, tomoro will b seeing ke ying I hope… hopefully wont b like charlotte.. thr yet cannot b seen @@..
K lar.. dad asking me y I offline yet so many things to type XD. Time to off. Hehe!! Good evening from aussie peeps ;). Ppl here r friendly..
P.s
After chatting with parents, asian guys r still more preferably my type =P. Hidden reasons behind ;)
Lub~
Thursday, February 10, 2011
A New Chapter n A New Dog
The day has finally come. The time to say "bye bye Malaysia~"!! Will miss all my pillows, blankets, toys, books n the awesome foods.. Sob~ Oh of coz my friends n family! Hehe =P!! I cant believe it.. The day tht I've indirectly been expecting. The day where I have to live half-independently.. Bcoz I'm still living off my parent's money but.. Hey.. Time management, cleaning, self independency.. its all up to me now. Not sure whether I look forward to it but.. Its exciting ^^!!
This holiday.. Can say I rush to do many many things. Prob met up with few contacts, new n old, rarely chat with or havent seen in veli veli the long time. But still..
Anyway, I have nothing much to say. I'll be back every now and then =). The first few times probably short period i'm away, slowly it'll grow longer.. aihz.. i dunno wat to say ler!! Basically part of me wanna go yet dun wanna go. Ish ish~
Really grateful I can bring a toy along with me =P. I know i reachin 20 d but.. I'm alone in my room T.T!!! Lemme have someone or something tht can keep me company lar!! Here we go~ A new dog to my pack of dog collection ;)
Erm.. Its kinda badly edited, the background, but it was all done in rush. I'm just basically passing time now. Will edit it properly next time ;p.
Hm.. looks kinda proud hm? but the sweater soooo suits the 4 season ^^. Hehe! I have a chihuahua to be with me in aussie ^^. A proud, adorable,sweet,.. somehow it looks smart too.. fine. smart looking chihuahua XD!! Hehe!!
Love~ Lub~
This holiday.. Can say I rush to do many many things. Prob met up with few contacts, new n old, rarely chat with or havent seen in veli veli the long time. But still..
Anyway, I have nothing much to say. I'll be back every now and then =). The first few times probably short period i'm away, slowly it'll grow longer.. aihz.. i dunno wat to say ler!! Basically part of me wanna go yet dun wanna go. Ish ish~
Really grateful I can bring a toy along with me =P. I know i reachin 20 d but.. I'm alone in my room T.T!!! Lemme have someone or something tht can keep me company lar!! Here we go~ A new dog to my pack of dog collection ;)
"nice to meet you!"
"I'm THE powerful chihuahua!! Bow to me!!"
"Aren't I adorably sweet and cute? Love me~"
Hm.. looks kinda proud hm? but the sweater soooo suits the 4 season ^^. Hehe! I have a chihuahua to be with me in aussie ^^. A proud, adorable,sweet,.. somehow it looks smart too.. fine. smart looking chihuahua XD!! Hehe!!
Love~ Lub~
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Journeying from Corinthians to Ecclesiastes
I have been reading Corinthians quite often over and over again. Even though I have not read finish the other books but somehow, just feels like I can learn a lot from Corinthians. Each time getting different views.
But as I was about to finish my last two chapters.. I just felt an urge to go to Ecclesiastes 3, A Time For Everything.. N I just couldn't stop reading. I journeyed on to chapter 4 then to 5. Its like.. It somehow links.. Then a question came to me, could the poor be happy? Media always shows that without money, we would never survive, we would suffer like crazy, we would always be unhappy.. Then again.. Being totally rich.. Does it give as much happiness?? Why is happiness being put with a person's finance?
Another strange thought which ponder on my mind.. Why would I suddenly read the old testament? To be honest, I read many of the new Testament books a couple of times.. Rarely touching the old testament except psalm =P. Just a feeling?
Everybody starts off with nothing. Some are just more fortunate to be able to have a bonus start, which is their parents' money. Even then, their parents had to either start from nothing or had a starting bonus. It goes on and on..
It kinda scares me whenever I think to myself, once I graduate, I have to learn to earn a living myself.. No more can I always turn to my parents.. Would I succeed? Would I fail? Am I ready? Would I be able to be as successful as them or more? All these questions..
Yet.. God asks us to trust Him.. Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all will be added unto you.. This what confuses me.. Trusting to someone I cannot see or touch.. Its so confusing!! Yet at times I must make a decision!!
Own personal thoughts:
You feel tht way is so right!! Yet the path seems like a huge mountain you have to climb to get to the other side!! On the other hand, you see another way.. A tunnel which goes through the mountain, which seems much much MUCH easier but it feels.. not so safe.. Which would you rather risk?
I'm not saying its impossible. Maybe its because I done it so many times? I know the peaceful feeling when u agree to do your best and submit to Him your future. But I have to agree that there are times too, when I still feel uneasiness..
God wouldn't put you thru something you cannot take. Thats all I have to say =)..
Nitez~ Loves~
But as I was about to finish my last two chapters.. I just felt an urge to go to Ecclesiastes 3, A Time For Everything.. N I just couldn't stop reading. I journeyed on to chapter 4 then to 5. Its like.. It somehow links.. Then a question came to me, could the poor be happy? Media always shows that without money, we would never survive, we would suffer like crazy, we would always be unhappy.. Then again.. Being totally rich.. Does it give as much happiness?? Why is happiness being put with a person's finance?
Another strange thought which ponder on my mind.. Why would I suddenly read the old testament? To be honest, I read many of the new Testament books a couple of times.. Rarely touching the old testament except psalm =P. Just a feeling?
Everybody starts off with nothing. Some are just more fortunate to be able to have a bonus start, which is their parents' money. Even then, their parents had to either start from nothing or had a starting bonus. It goes on and on..
It kinda scares me whenever I think to myself, once I graduate, I have to learn to earn a living myself.. No more can I always turn to my parents.. Would I succeed? Would I fail? Am I ready? Would I be able to be as successful as them or more? All these questions..
Yet.. God asks us to trust Him.. Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all will be added unto you.. This what confuses me.. Trusting to someone I cannot see or touch.. Its so confusing!! Yet at times I must make a decision!!
Own personal thoughts:
You feel tht way is so right!! Yet the path seems like a huge mountain you have to climb to get to the other side!! On the other hand, you see another way.. A tunnel which goes through the mountain, which seems much much MUCH easier but it feels.. not so safe.. Which would you rather risk?
I'm not saying its impossible. Maybe its because I done it so many times? I know the peaceful feeling when u agree to do your best and submit to Him your future. But I have to agree that there are times too, when I still feel uneasiness..
God wouldn't put you thru something you cannot take. Thats all I have to say =)..
Nitez~ Loves~
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Time Flies
Somehow yesterday got me reflecting as I was watching NSt do their usual service. Somehow I just can't believe that it has been already.. close to 8 years? Wow~ Its gone that fast.. I remember the first time I joined NSt, got lost in Kidzone then so crazy passionate in serving here and there.. 8 years.. A whole different generation is rising up before my eyes. Its like.. I didnt realize it till I took a step back and just view without being involve. I mean, yes.. I have led the 13.. now 14 year old girls with girls one year younger than me but.. Maybe its the connection with them. Being able to communicate with these girls..
I remember the time where I didn't need to worry or be responsible for other ppl's lives in church. Where events and activities were always planned for me. Now its like, I'm planning for them.
Hey! Its not just me!! When I talked sometimes with Elena and Lenna bout this the other day.. Except we were talkin bout how much we could eat last time.. But hearing that we are going to hit 20?.. Its like.. Wow.. Its really that fast!...
I wonder have any adults in their late twenties or thirties, tried doing stuff they did when they were in high school.. hm.. Maybe they do but rarely =P. Well, now to stop here.
Soon me leaving home will be an arm away. Better start checkin everything =). Will really miss the memories I've had here. Secretly or not so secretly XD. But all were definitely worth while because it made me who I am ^^.
Loves~
I remember the time where I didn't need to worry or be responsible for other ppl's lives in church. Where events and activities were always planned for me. Now its like, I'm planning for them.
Hey! Its not just me!! When I talked sometimes with Elena and Lenna bout this the other day.. Except we were talkin bout how much we could eat last time.. But hearing that we are going to hit 20?.. Its like.. Wow.. Its really that fast!...
I wonder have any adults in their late twenties or thirties, tried doing stuff they did when they were in high school.. hm.. Maybe they do but rarely =P. Well, now to stop here.
Soon me leaving home will be an arm away. Better start checkin everything =). Will really miss the memories I've had here. Secretly or not so secretly XD. But all were definitely worth while because it made me who I am ^^.
Loves~
Friday, January 28, 2011
Pack Pack Pack
Packing packing.. Taking a short break from packing my clothes.. As I was packing I suddenly thought of something.. How big is my cupboard for clothes ar? Haha!! Pack pack pack.. Later cannot fit all @@.. Somemore got different seasons.. Hieee!!! How how how!! Or should I pack for 2-3 weeks, then live on those since I WILL be washing the clothes anyway..
Hm.. Bet many of you will be thinking, will this girl be ok doing chores on her own?? Answer is YES!! I will somehow manage XD. Or Ke Ying will hear all my blabbers =P. Hehe!!
Oh oh~!! I just remember!! Shoes!! Aiya!! Didnt make space for those @@.... Rawr.. Leaving home is so not an easy task.. Prep oso susah @@.. Well!! Gotta head back. Later COUZ ada COUZ Nite! Me need prep cny clothes somemore.. Or maybe I shall just wear a red-T.. Keep hearing everyone saying lets wear red-T.. Lala~ Till next time~
Loves~!!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Movies and Shopping~
Lalala~ Past few days me got driver to drive me around~ So nice XD!!! Haha!! Go buy clothes, see shoes, buy toiletries and watch movie.. etc etc etc.. oh and help me carry bags XD!! First time I dun need carry bags =P.
Oh oh~ Went to watch few movies every now and then~ Erm erm..
Meet the parents was not bad. Quite funny. I havent watch the first one though but it was not bad ;). I bet many guys would really have sweat just having this kind of daddy-in law =P. Hm.. I wonder if my dad is just as strict ^^.
Faster was okay I guess~ Cant really remember much of the show but can feel a lot of revenge, pain and etc. What is blech is the part where he must shoot everyone in the skull/forehead -.-"..
This movie was sweet =). It does talk a bit bout cny, how families should be united as one on this day. I mean, quite true.. How many times do you get to see ALL your relatives at once? Kinda saw 1Malaysia in it too XD. This indian guy speaking chinese.. Coolz ^^!! Its of course quite hilarious =).
Watched this movie today.. Or yesterday. Kinda sad story though.. All bout war and greed.. But its quite true I guess.. Sometimes we humans can never be satisfied with what we have. We'll complain or want more. And when we have a lot, we suspect everyone around us, even those that love us. Tears me up the most is at the end.. One man's greed is the cost of thousands / millions of people's blood. Not to mention the broken hearts and weeping and mourning of families. Tsk tsk.. War.. Yet everyone still love their family. Strange isn't it?
Oh oh~ Went to watch few movies every now and then~ Erm erm..
Meet the parents was not bad. Quite funny. I havent watch the first one though but it was not bad ;). I bet many guys would really have sweat just having this kind of daddy-in law =P. Hm.. I wonder if my dad is just as strict ^^.
Faster was okay I guess~ Cant really remember much of the show but can feel a lot of revenge, pain and etc. What is blech is the part where he must shoot everyone in the skull/forehead -.-"..
This movie was sweet =). It does talk a bit bout cny, how families should be united as one on this day. I mean, quite true.. How many times do you get to see ALL your relatives at once? Kinda saw 1Malaysia in it too XD. This indian guy speaking chinese.. Coolz ^^!! Its of course quite hilarious =).
Well.. Like this oso can make long post ^^. Till here~ Counting down~ Few weeks to new environment =). Will miss~
Loves~
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Sisters Friends Day?
Today whole day laugh laugh laugh, laugh laugh laugh.. Aiyoyo~ Haha!! Well, my kind friend volunteered to drive my siblings and I for my brother's swimming classes and etc. Came home, we all had dinner then laugh laugh laugh again till parents came home. Not enough, after parents came home and went upstairs, they all (k lar include myself) continue laugh laugh laugh till like wat.. 1130pm plus?? Goodness... Tsk tsk tsk~ I think I got tummy ache or sides ache from laughin so much.
I'm really happy with today. Full of fun and laughter, jokes and teasings.. Just sad that someone still somehow had to show me she was still upset with me? I mean.. Come on ler.. Saying stuff over one small thing, and making a big fuss out of it as if I done a huge mistake.. Then giving me tht tone.. U sure u not treating me like a project ar? U sure u not being biased? U already showed some parts who you wished was born first anyway.
I'll stop here.. No point in getting upset. U wanna think like tht go ahead lar. 2 more weeks. I'm tired of always trying to make things better and getting sad or put down. I'll leave you and go with the flow k? U wanna talk, I'm here to talk. U wanna say anything, i'll just listen.
Guai lar~ Time to turn out. I definitely need a shower =P.
Nite!! / Morning!!!
Love ^^
I'm really happy with today. Full of fun and laughter, jokes and teasings.. Just sad that someone still somehow had to show me she was still upset with me? I mean.. Come on ler.. Saying stuff over one small thing, and making a big fuss out of it as if I done a huge mistake.. Then giving me tht tone.. U sure u not treating me like a project ar? U sure u not being biased? U already showed some parts who you wished was born first anyway.
I'll stop here.. No point in getting upset. U wanna think like tht go ahead lar. 2 more weeks. I'm tired of always trying to make things better and getting sad or put down. I'll leave you and go with the flow k? U wanna talk, I'm here to talk. U wanna say anything, i'll just listen.
Guai lar~ Time to turn out. I definitely need a shower =P.
Nite!! / Morning!!!
Love ^^
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Play Play
I realized I have a mini member by the name of Leanne who has been dropping my blog secretly =P. Hehe!! After going thru the stats, didnt realize it exists.. Yay!!! After being bored with my blog. I giv it new make over again. Yesh, I'm quite bored and frustrated. Was going thru my childhood, high sch, primary sch, college n uni pictures.. Ish ish!! So many memories here in my homeland. Ahh well, I'm watching the hour and day that I will leave draw near. From what seems to be only 2 months have now turned to 2 weeks. Time sure flies.. Will miss many ppl here.
I'm wondering.. I wanna privatize my blog. Yet ibu bapa ku later cannot access.. Or inconvenient them to access.. Its oni normal parents wanna see their children's blog rite? Ish ish~ Though putting pictures and etc on the web is gud coz u can access them anytime and not worry bout it being deleted. Yet bad part is SOME ppl dunno how to respect ppl's privacy and goes off being childish and destroyin ppl's lives. How ler?
Its no longer safe, everything is not safe. Everyone is not safe. Where u go, each day is 50-50 tht u will be alive the next day. What to do what to do~
End here ba ^^
Luv luv ^^
I'm wondering.. I wanna privatize my blog. Yet ibu bapa ku later cannot access.. Or inconvenient them to access.. Its oni normal parents wanna see their children's blog rite? Ish ish~ Though putting pictures and etc on the web is gud coz u can access them anytime and not worry bout it being deleted. Yet bad part is SOME ppl dunno how to respect ppl's privacy and goes off being childish and destroyin ppl's lives. How ler?
Its no longer safe, everything is not safe. Everyone is not safe. Where u go, each day is 50-50 tht u will be alive the next day. What to do what to do~
End here ba ^^
Luv luv ^^
Disney Princess
No I am not talkin bout which Disney Princess I like. Haha!! But sometimes reality is a bit like those stories. Or at least my dramatic life can get.. Wonder how some pp say they envy it..
Nvm! Lets see, I had a period/few days which was like.. a fantasy? Where life was as normal n routined. Then tiba-tiba, you get what u want for a period of time. Then knowing its too gud to be real, u r told to wake up. And though u remember the dream of it, u are required to act normal as if it didnt happen and continue ur life b4 it all started.
Somehow what kept coming to mind is Cinderella at 12o'clock.
Now seeing the topic and rereading what i've written.. Lol..Sounds a bit childish. Haha!! N let me clarify, I'm not thinking myself as a princess thank u. Haha!! I'm just tryin to say how many of our lives could probably be like it. Just that, it not vry sparkly or dazzling or pointy crowny like. Haha!!
Or better yet, another disney cartoon came to mind. Alice in Wonderland. Its all just a dream ^^.
Over and out~
Love
Nvm! Lets see, I had a period/few days which was like.. a fantasy? Where life was as normal n routined. Then tiba-tiba, you get what u want for a period of time. Then knowing its too gud to be real, u r told to wake up. And though u remember the dream of it, u are required to act normal as if it didnt happen and continue ur life b4 it all started.
Somehow what kept coming to mind is Cinderella at 12o'clock.
Now seeing the topic and rereading what i've written.. Lol..Sounds a bit childish. Haha!! N let me clarify, I'm not thinking myself as a princess thank u. Haha!! I'm just tryin to say how many of our lives could probably be like it. Just that, it not vry sparkly or dazzling or pointy crowny like. Haha!!
Or better yet, another disney cartoon came to mind. Alice in Wonderland. Its all just a dream ^^.
Over and out~
Love
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Going Casual - My Style
What to do if you have too many hand-me-down clothes? Or if ur out shopping for clothes and am not sure what to buy? Or if you just graduated from high school and am entering college/university and are not sure what to wear?
I'm not saying that I'm like a specialist or professional. Ask any of my friends, they will tell u the same. But I somehow, instead of reading magz, I prefer observing ppl what they dress.
*NOTE: THIS IS MOSTLY/ONLY FOR GIRLS*
So lets start! Another thing I must add, this is all just MY point of view. U are not forced or required to follow.
1. The Basics - Tshirt & Jeans/Shorts
One of my favourites. True, its not stylish or feminine or whatever u may say. But it is convenient to do most of the things u like if situation calls for it.
For example of myself, I enjoy playing sports which require u sometimes to run a bit. My uni can also be quite windy so wearing jeans eases my mind, that I do not need worrying bout showing unnecessaries.
2. Long Tshirts, Jeans & Belt/Jacket
I started off wearing jackets first b4 using belts. Waist belts can sometimes be hard for myself, to find (I can be quite picky), to match and etc. Above waist belts are slightly easier just be careful of the material as some materials do not match the clothes. A hooded black/jeans jacket or any other colour which is up to ur waist or shorter is good for most long tshirts.
3. Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters + Jackets/Shirts
I am not saying u cant wear just Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters. U can but its just that ppl who are sensitive to cold like me.. Wearing a Shirt over can at least ensure ur warm and not too hot wherever u go. Plus, u still look nice though some ppl of this generation might say ur over wearing. Ignore, u still look nice ^^.
4. Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters + LONG Shirts
Adding on to the above, something which I learnt for my cousin. Which can be casual and yet semi-formal. For this attire, it is optional to use an above waist belt. But I like to use it coz my shirt wont be flying/flapping everywhr then. I mostly like to get them black, brown or white. Other colours are fine but lets just say ur in a rush. Having any of these 3 colours can really really help, without worrying how badly u look. Haha!!
If ur up for shopping, there are those long "thin coats"/long cardigans which can also pull off a simple casual look. U dun even nid belts for those too. Hm.. In my opinion, gives a girl a soft/demure look. I've seen a friend of mine wearing it.
5. Turtle-neck Sleeveless Tshirts
I realize they can be very very flexible. I'm not joking!! Its those collars that are up to your neck that can go with almost any belt(waist or higher), jackets, shirts, cardigan (long or short) or without any of those at all.
I think some of u can get the idea rite?
Here is a summary. To me, dressing simple really makes life simple. If ur thinking of dressing up everyday.. Good luck with that. Reason is, once u keep the trend of always dressing up, u will be thinking how shall I dress up next time. Also, u probably get tired of ur clothes faster than the times u actually go out to shop.
Another reason? Ppl will kinda start noticing how u wear, and naturally, u would just wanna make urself look better and better right? Who enjoys degrading the way they dress? a good example, look at today's fashion, come on.. Cant think of any so lets go with a meat dress? Dress to impress, a very huge pressure isnt it?
I FEEL PLAIN!!
Keep it simple, though u say it looks plain, just accessorize a lil'. Wear earrings or rings or bracelets or necklace or eyeliner or scarf or belt. They can make plain outfits or urself look different. Hey! Idea is to look good, feel good and not worry bout how shall u dress tomoro.
WHAT I SAY FOR BOTTOMS
Jeans is very helpful. I'm trying to learn to wear shorts to malls or outings =P. Homes and visitings are ok. But to malls.. I feel kinda bare. Haha!!
Dresses are nice, so are skirts. Just make sure u wont be running or doing anything extreme. Showing inner clothing is not really sexy, is more like *uh-hum*.. N btw, thr are ppl who are smiling not coz they just think ur "cute", but some r kinda joking.. bout.. it. Hey! Just speaking the truth of what I've seen and heard.
So yes, just remember. Guys have pride and dignity. So do girls!!
Oh!! I still do wear dresses and skirts and once in a blue moon dress up extra. Wearing tubes and etc without a jacket or cover, i'm not sayin is NO-NO. Just be sure of who you hang out with and what is the reason u wanna wear such outfits. N please be careful to not show too much cleavage..
As a girl, who does NOT want to look good. Please -.-.... I know ppl who say they dislike dressing up and do not care bout looking gud, so they dress as guys. T-shirts and jeans.. But hey! U still kinda care whether the colour suits right? U still care if the size/cut is right and if the picture on the front and back looks gud. Its OKAYY/NORMALLL!!!
My point? If ur a girl, its normal to want to dress up and look nice. But dressing simple is ALSO nice.
Tip: Be confident of yourself. It shows and not only that, u most of the time u pull off what ur wearing. Look at models, ever see any of them hide? They show confidence. Look at ur role models whom u look up to.. Why like them? Cause their confidence shows right? Be confident =)!! Its part of YOUR accessory =P!! N btw, EVERYONE has it and its FREE!! FOC!!! U just gotta learn to like urself for who u r and how u look like.
❤❤❤
I'm not saying that I'm like a specialist or professional. Ask any of my friends, they will tell u the same. But I somehow, instead of reading magz, I prefer observing ppl what they dress.
*NOTE: THIS IS MOSTLY/ONLY FOR GIRLS*
So lets start! Another thing I must add, this is all just MY point of view. U are not forced or required to follow.
1. The Basics - Tshirt & Jeans/Shorts
One of my favourites. True, its not stylish or feminine or whatever u may say. But it is convenient to do most of the things u like if situation calls for it.
For example of myself, I enjoy playing sports which require u sometimes to run a bit. My uni can also be quite windy so wearing jeans eases my mind, that I do not need worrying bout showing unnecessaries.
2. Long Tshirts, Jeans & Belt/Jacket
I started off wearing jackets first b4 using belts. Waist belts can sometimes be hard for myself, to find (I can be quite picky), to match and etc. Above waist belts are slightly easier just be careful of the material as some materials do not match the clothes. A hooded black/jeans jacket or any other colour which is up to ur waist or shorter is good for most long tshirts.
3. Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters + Jackets/Shirts
I am not saying u cant wear just Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters. U can but its just that ppl who are sensitive to cold like me.. Wearing a Shirt over can at least ensure ur warm and not too hot wherever u go. Plus, u still look nice though some ppl of this generation might say ur over wearing. Ignore, u still look nice ^^.
4. Tube/Spaghetti Straps/Halters + LONG Shirts
Adding on to the above, something which I learnt for my cousin. Which can be casual and yet semi-formal. For this attire, it is optional to use an above waist belt. But I like to use it coz my shirt wont be flying/flapping everywhr then. I mostly like to get them black, brown or white. Other colours are fine but lets just say ur in a rush. Having any of these 3 colours can really really help, without worrying how badly u look. Haha!!
If ur up for shopping, there are those long "thin coats"/long cardigans which can also pull off a simple casual look. U dun even nid belts for those too. Hm.. In my opinion, gives a girl a soft/demure look. I've seen a friend of mine wearing it.
5. Turtle-neck Sleeveless Tshirts
I realize they can be very very flexible. I'm not joking!! Its those collars that are up to your neck that can go with almost any belt(waist or higher), jackets, shirts, cardigan (long or short) or without any of those at all.
I think some of u can get the idea rite?
Here is a summary. To me, dressing simple really makes life simple. If ur thinking of dressing up everyday.. Good luck with that. Reason is, once u keep the trend of always dressing up, u will be thinking how shall I dress up next time. Also, u probably get tired of ur clothes faster than the times u actually go out to shop.
Another reason? Ppl will kinda start noticing how u wear, and naturally, u would just wanna make urself look better and better right? Who enjoys degrading the way they dress? a good example, look at today's fashion, come on.. Cant think of any so lets go with a meat dress? Dress to impress, a very huge pressure isnt it?
I FEEL PLAIN!!
Keep it simple, though u say it looks plain, just accessorize a lil'. Wear earrings or rings or bracelets or necklace or eyeliner or scarf or belt. They can make plain outfits or urself look different. Hey! Idea is to look good, feel good and not worry bout how shall u dress tomoro.
WHAT I SAY FOR BOTTOMS
Jeans is very helpful. I'm trying to learn to wear shorts to malls or outings =P. Homes and visitings are ok. But to malls.. I feel kinda bare. Haha!!
Dresses are nice, so are skirts. Just make sure u wont be running or doing anything extreme. Showing inner clothing is not really sexy, is more like *uh-hum*.. N btw, thr are ppl who are smiling not coz they just think ur "cute", but some r kinda joking.. bout.. it. Hey! Just speaking the truth of what I've seen and heard.
So yes, just remember. Guys have pride and dignity. So do girls!!
Oh!! I still do wear dresses and skirts and once in a blue moon dress up extra. Wearing tubes and etc without a jacket or cover, i'm not sayin is NO-NO. Just be sure of who you hang out with and what is the reason u wanna wear such outfits. N please be careful to not show too much cleavage..
As a girl, who does NOT want to look good. Please -.-.... I know ppl who say they dislike dressing up and do not care bout looking gud, so they dress as guys. T-shirts and jeans.. But hey! U still kinda care whether the colour suits right? U still care if the size/cut is right and if the picture on the front and back looks gud. Its OKAYY/NORMALLL!!!
My point? If ur a girl, its normal to want to dress up and look nice. But dressing simple is ALSO nice.
Tip: Be confident of yourself. It shows and not only that, u most of the time u pull off what ur wearing. Look at models, ever see any of them hide? They show confidence. Look at ur role models whom u look up to.. Why like them? Cause their confidence shows right? Be confident =)!! Its part of YOUR accessory =P!! N btw, EVERYONE has it and its FREE!! FOC!!! U just gotta learn to like urself for who u r and how u look like.
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Missing 2010
Was going thru some of the pictures in friends and own albums. Really smiled and laughed at all the funny and nice pictures we all had taken b4.. Some without noticing.. Haha!! But yea.. Time flies, some friends oso fly, some friendships oso fly somewhr, most relationships oso say hi and goodbye.. I guess every year some of these things are bound to happen in someone's life.
I even went thru some of the pictures which r like not uni.. Surprising how much changes its been for just not keeping in touch for few months or years.. True, assignments and group works can sometimes makes ppl drift apart. But for me, anytime u wanna yam cha or anything.. Lets go out ^^!! Probably thr will be SOME time difference or inconvenience whr the first few plans dun work out. Hang in thr =)!!
Doesn't mean forever is not possible. Everytime i see others giv up, or everyone on the other side of my line.. Knowing i cant force, of coz I'll just hav to let u go. But if ur willing to work it, after 2 weeks of continuously postponing dates, i'm sure things will somehow work out =).
Well, thts all for now. If i can freshen up after a shower (just came home). I'll post something else ;). Cya~
Here are some pictures tht they half took without me catching. Except the first one (realize after they took and laughed). At least all got diff expression =P.
I even went thru some of the pictures which r like not uni.. Surprising how much changes its been for just not keeping in touch for few months or years.. True, assignments and group works can sometimes makes ppl drift apart. But for me, anytime u wanna yam cha or anything.. Lets go out ^^!! Probably thr will be SOME time difference or inconvenience whr the first few plans dun work out. Hang in thr =)!!
Doesn't mean forever is not possible. Everytime i see others giv up, or everyone on the other side of my line.. Knowing i cant force, of coz I'll just hav to let u go. But if ur willing to work it, after 2 weeks of continuously postponing dates, i'm sure things will somehow work out =).
Well, thts all for now. If i can freshen up after a shower (just came home). I'll post something else ;). Cya~
Here are some pictures tht they half took without me catching. Except the first one (realize after they took and laughed). At least all got diff expression =P.
cant believ they said i look like rabbit
chillax-ing while discussion
at Old Town I think, doing SEF = serious-ness
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Friday, January 14, 2011
60/100
该这么解决如果一位超过60%呢? 脑好乱啊!!虽然不是超好看的人(对不起啊 =P)，或
者很有钱的人，或者满足第一的要求。。那么我的爸爸在天堂，您可不可以不要玩
我啊? 您给我认识好多满足得到30-50%还OK呢。。请别给我一位差不多80%的但不满
足第一的要求吧。。我很真的很很很很爱您。但是我也不要放我们的关系做测验!!虽
然圣经没有阻拦，我还是一半怕关于我们的关系呢。。我觉得(差不多)痛苦呢。。
爸爸在天堂。。不懂是不是您或那条蛇。。但我真不懂为什么要放我在将的情况呢。。
我该要去澳洲了，能放过我这心伤吗?
你们可能在想，这女人，她爸爸在天堂给她想要的，她干吗在喊叫啊?!啊!!!!!你问
我，我也答不回你啦!!总之是。。。是。。。我也不懂啊！！其实呢。。我也不明
白为什么我那么的紧张呢。。哈哈。。虽然不肯定自己的心，另外的心也不懂呢。。
还是别想太多吧。。乱这自己多困难。。
Lol~ Chinese essay... So long since i done this. Still quite fun though =P. Nite now!!
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者很有钱的人，或者满足第一的要求。。那么我的爸爸在天堂，您可不可以不要玩
我啊? 您给我认识好多满足得到30-50%还OK呢。。请别给我一位差不多80%的但不满
足第一的要求吧。。我很真的很很很很爱您。但是我也不要放我们的关系做测验!!虽
然圣经没有阻拦，我还是一半怕关于我们的关系呢。。我觉得(差不多)痛苦呢。。
爸爸在天堂。。不懂是不是您或那条蛇。。但我真不懂为什么要放我在将的情况呢。。
我该要去澳洲了，能放过我这心伤吗?
你们可能在想，这女人，她爸爸在天堂给她想要的，她干吗在喊叫啊?!啊!!!!!你问
我，我也答不回你啦!!总之是。。。是。。。我也不懂啊！！其实呢。。我也不明
白为什么我那么的紧张呢。。哈哈。。虽然不肯定自己的心，另外的心也不懂呢。。
还是别想太多吧。。乱这自己多困难。。
Lol~ Chinese essay... So long since i done this. Still quite fun though =P. Nite now!!
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What To Do When Too Many Things In Mind?
What to do ler? Blog lor! Especially while showering or just layin in bed ar.. Dunno why can think so many things. When sit down in front of computer, nothing comes to mind @@... Not gud not gud. But I do remember one min i can think from relationships to clothes to future partner to food... Lol? U ask me how i think i dunno how to explain. Like tht lor~ So yea~ Expect few nonsense or just plain thoughts from me ^^. I decided to not do the 3 post thing... Coz might be too sensitive too some ppl i think. Forgive me if sometimes i type then type things which can b a bit insulting. Terlalu emotional at times. Just a heads up warning =D!!
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Thursday, January 13, 2011
Smiley =)
I find this really annoying somehow lor.. Its not exactly a bad annoying but its kinda sad lar. Imagine u already have this bunch of ppl to say farewell too coz u wont see them every week or every day anymore. Then along came a new friend or two tht u just met for bout.. few weeks? Then u go chatting and become friends. When u remember u have to say bye n just chat on fb or msn frm then on its like.. Sad?? Sad become more sad?? Haha!! I'm just confuse.
Someone ask me once whats the reason I keep smiling. If not smile then wat? U wan me cry ar? Haha!!
1. I smile coz things are way better than it was before.
2. Smile cause u still have a chance now than maybe not experiencing it anymore in the future.
3. Smile cause I like to c ppl smile back oso lar!! Haha!!
4. Smile cause I'm having fun with who I am with lor~
5. Smile cause I like to see everybody's unique reaction =D.
6. Smile cause it uses less muscles than frowning.
7. Smile cause it may be the last expression u may see of me? (choi choi!)
8. Smile cause I dislike ppl feeling more worried than they r at present times
9. Smile cause I THINK it lessens the sadness and blueness in ppl's lives =P
10. Smile cause...u/I can think clearer without just seeing the negativeness of the situation around us
Smile cause.. I'm happy. Though I can be sad of certain stuff, but I know I'm more blessed and pampered than I deserve =P.
❤❤ReiRei❤❤
Someone ask me once whats the reason I keep smiling. If not smile then wat? U wan me cry ar? Haha!!
1. I smile coz things are way better than it was before.
2. Smile cause u still have a chance now than maybe not experiencing it anymore in the future.
3. Smile cause I like to c ppl smile back oso lar!! Haha!!
4. Smile cause I'm having fun with who I am with lor~
5. Smile cause I like to see everybody's unique reaction =D.
6. Smile cause it uses less muscles than frowning.
7. Smile cause it may be the last expression u may see of me? (choi choi!)
8. Smile cause I dislike ppl feeling more worried than they r at present times
9. Smile cause I THINK it lessens the sadness and blueness in ppl's lives =P
10. Smile cause...u/I can think clearer without just seeing the negativeness of the situation around us
Smile cause.. I'm happy. Though I can be sad of certain stuff, but I know I'm more blessed and pampered than I deserve =P.
❤❤ReiRei❤❤
Dilly Dally
After spending hours and killing time few days back, I think I should try using what I learnt in Web class to design my blog. Haha!! Been only using the already fixed codes to do my blog.. N I seem nvr satisfied.. How How?? Here are two random ones I did.
The words at the sides were suppose to be white.. But the blog codes seem to "constant" it already.. if tht changes to white.. The inner posts oso changes to white... Darn...
This was so so~ Coz I couldnt find a right animal.. The animals made the blog look too... Home adverty~
Cheerio~
Loves
The words at the sides were suppose to be white.. But the blog codes seem to "constant" it already.. if tht changes to white.. The inner posts oso changes to white... Darn...
This was so so~ Coz I couldnt find a right animal.. The animals made the blog look too... Home adverty~
Cheerio~
Loves
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Dream & Words of Light
This may probably sound crazy but how many of you tried waking up laughin? Weird right? Lagi weird was that my mom and aunt was telling me how grown up of a young adult I have become all because I have.... shed eyelashes?? You know how sometimes ur eye lash gets into ur eye or just plain falls coz u scratch ur eye and such? Well in the dream, it shows u have grown up. Strange?
Well this whole week I've mainly been cooking lunch and dinner at home. Quite fun~ Was thinking of maybe putting up recipes in here too =P. What to do~ Everyone's schedule u start realizing is different or either tht they just out of the blue fall sick. Dun blame them, happen to myself b4.
Oh yes, yesterday went to GlowUnited after.. 1year?? Looks like I am meant to stay there after all. Haha!! 2009 I was there for half a year. And in 2010 I went to NEXT Zone. Now 2011, back to Glow but I c many "new" faces. Mostly from my NEXT cell and also my ex-Since1991 cell. One of the most memorable cell I had gone through in my teens =P.
But heres the catch which made me thought of blogging it next time. I'm still considerin whether to split into parts or just put it in one post. One talks about "Carrying a Burden" and another talks about how "Love is the Opposite of Fear". How so? Well stay tuned I guess =D.
Thts all for now.
Cheerio~
Loves
P.s
I know I have recently change my blog layout. But me thinking of changin it into a darker layout. Inspiration always appears at strange timing. Me also thinking of taking out the Haru Haru lyrics as its getting hard to keep track of things.
Well this whole week I've mainly been cooking lunch and dinner at home. Quite fun~ Was thinking of maybe putting up recipes in here too =P. What to do~ Everyone's schedule u start realizing is different or either tht they just out of the blue fall sick. Dun blame them, happen to myself b4.
Oh yes, yesterday went to GlowUnited after.. 1year?? Looks like I am meant to stay there after all. Haha!! 2009 I was there for half a year. And in 2010 I went to NEXT Zone. Now 2011, back to Glow but I c many "new" faces. Mostly from my NEXT cell and also my ex-Since1991 cell. One of the most memorable cell I had gone through in my teens =P.
But heres the catch which made me thought of blogging it next time. I'm still considerin whether to split into parts or just put it in one post. One talks about "Carrying a Burden" and another talks about how "Love is the Opposite of Fear". How so? Well stay tuned I guess =D.
Thts all for now.
Cheerio~
Loves
P.s
I know I have recently change my blog layout. But me thinking of changin it into a darker layout. Inspiration always appears at strange timing. Me also thinking of taking out the Haru Haru lyrics as its getting hard to keep track of things.
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