No Driving = No CF???

I dunno how long my patience can last..SERIOUSLY!!! I get it that the Lord spoke of "patience" during the weeks of fasting, I guess I really do need it.. However this.. THIS is really.. Whoaaa!!!

No driving alone till from your judgments its ok. I've been driving for a month with u beside me every morning and after school and to my sisters tuition and from their tuition.. Shouldn't I be at least ready to drive on my own? No driving on my own completely? Ok fine. At least a few days when we all know that it hard for u n I to find transport for me, YET u WANT to try this and that or force your way to this and that just so that I won't drive. Really!! And yet after, you sometimes complain. I suggested, u didn't take it. Then u complain and tell me why not next time I change my things to fit your time, or just wait till ur free then come to get me. Yay Hooray, why didn't u say that b4 pulling so many strings???

Ok. I've just sabar with that. Now I just went for my FIRST CF of the YEAR. I enjoyed myself, experience God's presence being there, realize how much CF have actually meant, realize WHY I join CF... Now u tell me to wait till YOUR JUDGMENTS SAY OK TO MY DRIVING SKILLS THEN I CAN JOIN CF?????????????????? When? When? When will that be? First u say a week, its a month, now u say till I shift to lake side.. I got a feeling it will be months AFTER I shift to lakeside. Then WHEN OH WHEN will I be able to go CF?

I know after I drive alone, I will be driving "alone" for the rest of my life, to my safety and protection you are seeing me through. You are making sure everything is alright and that u can be rest assured that I won't be caught in an accident or "die" of a certain car crash. Ok fine, I am not joking. But at least pleaase!!! Let me drive when we ALL know that everybody's time is blocked and that the simplest and most convenient way is to let me drive. FOR A DAY A WEEK OR A DAY A MONTH I DON'T MIND u know.. Aihzz.. If u wanna watch me drive after that day go ahead. I won't stop u, no one stopping u. Goodness... I have frust too ya noe...

❤❤*silence*❤❤

Babblings 2~~

Its fun as friends. But not sure when to take u seriously.. U both love to joke, make fools or make fun out of ppl. Sure its funny and humorous. But seriously.. Coupling?? Ok lar if u jkjk for a short while. To lengthen it till asking bit too many personal Qs.. Thats AWK-WARD~~!!

Why sound surprise that I havent been in relationship? Ask the other girls we hangout with.. They too didnt have any relationship before..

Yearn for one? I guess I sometimes do. I mean.. Seeing couples walk past u every now and then.. Especially if they are bout the same age or younger.. Who wouldnt feel like coupling sometimes?

Like/Interested in a guy? Of course will de lar.. Even the girls I'm with, see got cute guy also the just look look ny lar.. If dun like guy, I probably not straight lur.. Haha!!

However why not be in one? Hm.. Scared of hurts? Probably.. Not sure if I can be committed? Maybe? Scared it turns out bad in the end? Could say. Unsure whether its God's plan? DEFINITELY UNSURE!!! Think it fulfills wat mom n dad n churches say? Err... Definitely not..

Its quite true I'm taken.. By God lar that is.. Some ppl seems to not get it..

The Bestest Boyfriend I have is a Provider AND a Supporter AND a Teacher AND a Lover AND a Comforter AND a Protector. Not to mention a jealous one too.. Yet He doesn't hate me or dislike me or do anythin bad to me when I disappoint Him at times. Or even when I short spent my time with Him.. He doesn't leave me or forsake me.. How awesome is that?

Loves~ <3

Babblings~

College & Uni, would they be the same?
I enjoy the classes and people here, yet really disappointed with myself.. Or is it the results? The 'reminders' I get from parents, I know its concern to me. And my own thoughts reminding me bout the condition to remain... It not only pressures me but depresses me at times. How do you think I would feel?

Btw... Joking is another thing. I really don't mind jokes. Its funny, embarrassing but its in a gud way. But sometimes.. It can be hurtful or sensitive too u noe..

How could you play 'love'? Does it mean nothing to you?
How could you say 'love' after a few days of knowing?
How do you feel this 'love' after a few sharing and outings?
How can you say it is 'love' when we barely know or tried bearing with each others' bad habits?
Do you even think of our friendship?

Hey.. I may be cheerful but I am also sensitive. I take things quite seriously most of the time, though I am loud (not angry).

Maybe if there wasn't this "condition", I probably be more relaxed? and not easily depressed. I say this to few but I dun enjoy saying it as much u enjoy listening to it. But when in time of depression or sadness.. Anything can accidentally come out. Lol.. Thinking back.. Reflecting on 2 to 3 yrs... Even if its just one year.. I know something's changed.

Love~~..

College Course

Okok!!! Since few of you been asking me to update. I am really unsure what CAN I update about. LOL!!

Well.. A lot of people are still asking me what am I pursuing. And its been getting REALLY annoying and frustrating when I hear the same response over and over again.

FOR EXAMPLE...
X = random person, R = me

X: Hi Rachel, what are you studying now?

R: Computer Science. U?

X: Eh??? I thought u said u wanted to study mass com/broadcasting?

Well, for those who still ask these Qs or curious to know. Here is my answer.

R: Well, lets just say I decided to try something that will give me a broader range of jobs. Also to assure my parents that I can make a living of my own in the future.

I still love and enjoy media arts and broadcasting, all the switching of the lights, adjusting the audio system, editing clips after clips to form an impacting/hilarious movie as well as watching people laugh and making funny expressions as they act and perform. Its a true joy. Its almost like a fantasy coming to life. I dunno bout some ppl, but thats what it is for me. True, I'm not EXCELLENT or GREAT or SPECTACULAR on it like some ppl. But its an enjoyment.

However, the reason I decided to go with Computer Science is that I can always come back to Media Arts in the future, especially if I dun like Programming. Lol!! But since there is a chance to take Computer Science, why not just try it out? If its ok and good for me, why not?

I am not angry. But I just hope that ppl would somehow understand that I did not give up on media arts. So stop asking me why did I not join media arts. Sometimes I still do feel hurt or envy when I hear ppl talk bout the enjoyment of being in that course. But I'm also the kind of person which does not like to regret. I think of not only myself but of other ppl and the future too. If it is good and it reassures, I don't mind trying it.

Someone once told me that "God will use whatever talent you have for a cause".
Also, another told me "No matter which road you take, even you ter-step into a wrong path, God will somehow direct you back to the right if you follow His ways".

Oh well, if this was really the wrong path. It only means I have taken the longer route to God. Better than being fully lost I guess. How reassuring XD.

OH!!! To some of my college friends frm Taylors (or elsewhr), yes I do believe I might be turning more feminine XD. Probably a phase =P.

Cheerio~
Loves!!!

Sports Outing

Yay!! Had a super fun time today at Alex's Condo with my ex-cells and friends. Lol!! We had GlowUnited (Alex, Elisha and Patric - not sure if he is from the cell), 18yr old girls cell (Diane, Rachel Rose and Yi Ying), CoUZ (Yew Hui and Philip), NSt (DanLo and Victor) and Colin, a friend XD. Too lazy to take pictures but I think Diane took a few.

We did badminton, swimming, taboo and table tennis. Lol!! Krrr-azy 4hrs (apprx.). Oh, only the girls except Yew Hui went swimming. Hehe~ It was super gila-gila. Diane kept saying how we all gonna drown together as friends cause none of us knew how to swim properly. Diane dunno at all. Lol!! Then we kept jumping over each other, screaming splashin.. The usual girl stuff I guess XD. But the water was soo nice... Aaaahhhh... It wasn't cold but just a bit warm.

Then I learned in taboo.. Abba is an oldies group which used to sing the songs from MaMa Mia. O.O

I also learned that Alex and few of his friend, including Colin. Played for 3 days straight badminton. Aiyoyo.... Aching muscles >.<

Oh well.. I'm tired. Gonna shower, be fresh. If still awake... Maybe I'll watch a movie before sleep. Gonna enjoy my last days of holiday before studies T.T...

Anyways, thanks Alex for the fun and laughter. All of us enjoyed ourselves even though you nearly mess up some stuff. Maybe I'll drop by on the 26th Feb if you're scheduling another sports outing. Hehe~ 3 Musketeers XD!!

Loves~

Wishes to Audrey.Y and HEL-LO Degree

Holiday is coming to an end, didn't think I would start this soon but.. O-kay! Though whatever uncertainty and hesitation I may feel. I'm just gonna look on at what is to come. As well as what I've been hearing my youth ministry say.. "BRING IT ON!!!"

I've decided to go with computer science after much debates, arguments, confusion, persuasions and etc etc... Programming will probably be a new challenge, tougher than media arts and work in the future will probably be even tougher. But.. Oh well.. If I don't start somewhere, I'm never gonna know what comes next. So.. Tuesday, 9am, Taylors PJ Campus, First Day Orientation here I come =P.

Also to my dear friend Audrey Yap.

It was a challenging journey for both of us during our times in SG. We had enjoyable and difficult days in my first year when we strive to accomplish projects which was always against the current. Yet, I thank God for your (and the few others) faithful heart. You supported even when things were looking down, you always encouraged and fought even though your parents sometimes disagree. However, through this, we were both able to see the goodness and faithfulness of our Lord Jesus Christ. You were one of my very first friend at that school and the first best friend I had there.

On my second year, it was painful and quite bitter for both of us. Knowing both our duties lies differently, our friendship was still put to the test. It hurt me when you thought I had betrayed you. But I assume it must have hurt you too when I was close to the one you were dear too at that time. Though we tried to mend that problem so many times, now and then it hurt me that you did not trust me like I thought you did. I know when things have finally been settled, we should be going back to our usual days. Still.. it was hard for me to hangout with you. I know that since we graduated, you still kept sending me wishes and greetings now and then. I'm really thankful to that. I believe I was quite foolish to sometimes judge by one's action. I was kinda afraid that you would repeat the same action. But as you are leaving to NZ, I don't like keeping this from you and being a fake to you. If not now, I may not even be able to tell you this next time. So thanks for always being wonderful friend before and after. I see you have change for the better, your faith in the Lord increases I pray. May all be bless in which you go through. Loves and joy follow you. Have fun and take care in New Zealand Audrey!!! Though we may not be best friends like last time, may be still be friends forever =D!!! Keep in touch!!
Here is a verse for you. Look it up =). [Proverbs 2] Never rush and never listen to rumours ;).

Loves~

Ka Ching Ka Ching!!

CHINESE NEW YEAR IS ON ITS WAY!!!!

WELCOMING THE ROAR-ING YEAR!!!


The usual sayings that many of us would hear soon...
"Gong Xi Fa Cai,
Hong Pao Na Lai" =P

Hehe~

Lavs!!