The Voice Inside My Head

It comes it goes, it softly whisper into your head. It repeats it action every now and then. Assuring you, building you, encouraging you. Somehow almost indescribable. It strengthens your confidence, explaining everything logically. Making you feel you understand. You are so sure of it. But just as you focus on something else..The voice disappears, your reassurance, confirmation, logic thinking.. It all runs, then you wonder, how could I have thought of something so crazy? So big? Its impossible!! Thinking by your own now, you feel less hopeful.. You wanna remember how or where that confidence came from, but the mind goes blur, its gets harder trying to rationalize it out.

Was it the Holy Spirit? God? Or my own thoughts?

Loves~

I Want To Rest In You, Lord

Honestly.. How sinful can a man be till its...of cruelty? I really don't know how to describe.. Sigh.. So bad till I myself cannot describe.

I dislike watching this happen. To remain strong when everything is falling before my eyes. I dislike watching the strong fall weak, for they always support the weaker ones. When they fall.. What happens to the weak? I especially dislike ppl close to me get hurt so bad..

Jang papa sure was right when he says its a test of faith.. Knowing I cant do anything except to pray and watch. Not knowing how it will turn out.. How much will I cling to Him? How long would I cling to Him..?

If it turns out good, how awesome the testimony would be..If it turn out bad, how will I respond? Will I react instead of respond? How strong is my foundation in God? Will it be able to withstand the worst to come? Will my relatives, whom are new babies in Christ be able to withstand what is about to come? Will they be able to endure till the end? If it really did turn bad, will they turn away from their Father?

Oh Lord, how I cry to You. If only You would, end this suffering and tears of sadness.. Yet I know there is a reason for this.. I pray for strength, patience, peace, love, knowledge, wisdom and endless faith in You. Deliver us from this and take us on a new level of faith and relationship in You.

Loves~

Good Food ^_^

Cousin is back from UK!!! YAY~!!! Somemore slping over my hse. This two weeks have been going out with her, learning to shop, wear basic makeup and COOK!!!!

Food is deeeeeeeeeeee-lisioz!!!!! Was so busy that I forgot to take pics XD. All the vegetable lasagne, honey and sesame porky, beefy rolls and gyoza!! Mmmmm.. Yum-may!!

Eating all these good food... I think I really REALLY need some exercise to burn of all the good food we cook. I mean, who could go on diets when all these mouth watering food are place before you XD. Plus, they are not that expensive, just lots of work XD. LOL!!

For those interested, here are some website my cousin recommend in order =D.

1. AWW
2. Jamie Oliver
3. Good Food
4. BBC

Enjoy!! ^.^

Loves *heart heart*

Future Course

SAM ended, now time for future course. Hm... WHICH TO CHOOSE @.@!!!!


Media Arts? Programming/Computer Science? Media Arts? Programming/Computer Science? Media Arts?
Media Arts? Programming / Computer Science?
Media Arts? Programming/Computer Science? Media Arts? Programming/Computer Science? Media Arts?


Which? Which??

Uwaa... I wanna settle this asap T.T.

愛情瑪奇朵 (Love Macchiato)

愛情瑪奇朵 - 棒棒堂

Love Macchiato - Lollipop

我知道妳心裡有個人
但誰是那個人
妳總是笑著不承認
有時候真的很想問
想從你的眼神
知道我有沒有份

是不是妳心裡的人
當然妳不用明白承認
只要用妳的眼神默認
我就可以再
往前多進個幾分
找個理由來
等妳從朋友變情人

其實我好幾次
想要開口對妳說
愛情的滋味
就好像瑪奇朵
甜蜜的烙印在我心口
雖然他只拉了妳的手
只是摸摸妳的頭
悸動卻一直跟著我

雨剛下過
這一個夏天顯得特別悶熱
當妳微笑看著我
那時候
世界突然間靜止一分多鐘
那一個moment怎麼去形容

是不是妳心裡的人
當然妳不用明白承認
只要用妳的眼神默認
我就可以再
往前多進個幾分
找個理由來
等妳從朋友變情人

其實我好幾次
想要開口對妳說
愛情的滋味
就好像瑪奇朵
甜蜜的烙印在我心口
雖然他只拉了妳的手
只是摸摸妳的頭
悸動卻一直跟著我

雨剛下過
這一個夏天顯得特別悶熱
當妳微笑看著我
那時候
世界突然間靜止一分多鐘
那一個moment怎麼去形容

雨剛下過
這一個夏天顯得特別悶熱
當妳微笑看著我
那時候
世界突然間靜止一分多鐘
那一個moment怎麼去形容

愛情就化成瑪奇朵

Eng Version/Translation : http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Brown_Sugar_Macchiato_OST

苦茶 (Bitter Tea)

苦茶 - 棒棒堂 and 黑澀會美眉
Bitter Tea - Lollipop & Hei Se Hui Mei Mei


微微笑的看你越是認真就越讓人心疼
Smiling slightly as I looked at you; the more serious you looked, the more painful my heart was
街頭那盞路燈彷彿在笑我愚笨
The street-lamp at the start of the road seemed to be laughing at me for being stupid.
沒什麼能做 但我比誰都真誠
There’s nothing much I can do, but I have more sincerity than everyone else.
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深
brew a cup of bitter tea, and accompany you till the wee hours of the morning.

妳知不知道你總有一種很可愛的獨特
Did you know, that you have a very adorable uniqueness,
讓我充滿勇氣抵抗冬天的寒冷
That fills me up with courage to battle the coldness of winter.

怎樣做才會完美 像個男人
What must I do to be perfect, like a real man?
喝一杯苦茶溫暖 你的體溫
Drink a cup of bitter tea, to warm your body temperature.

不用等你開口先說我愛你
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first
在那之前想對你說我願意
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.
你不必問 你也不必等
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
How can I let you understand that I love you?
在那之後 你點頭說我願意
After that you nod and say “I do”.
想照顧你 想守護你
want to take care of you and protect you
這一刻 只想把你抱緊
At this moment, I just want to hold you tightly.

你知不知道你也有一種很可愛的天真
Did you know that you also have a very adorable naïvety
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一百分
You speaking like a male chauvinist perfects your charm to 100 percent.

怎樣做才會完美 像個男人
What must I do to be perfect, like a real man?
喝一杯苦茶溫暖 你的體溫
Drink a cup of bitter tea, to warm your body temperature.

不用等你開口先說我愛你
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first
在那之前想對你說我願意
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.
你不必問 你也不必等
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
How can I let you understand that I love you?
在那之後 你點頭說我願意
After that you nod and say “I do”.
想照顧你 想守護你
want to take care of you and protect you
這一刻 只想把你抱緊
At this moment, I just want to hold you tightly.

雖然永遠 太不可能 少了你的完整
Although ‘forever’ doesn’t seem possible without you,
兩個對的人奇蹟就能發生
A miracle will happen upon two right people.

不用等你開口先說我愛你
There’s no need to wait for you to say “I love you” first
在那之前想對你說我願意
Before that I’d like to tell you “I do”.
你不必問 你也不必等
You don’t have to ask, neither do you need to wait
這一刻 就值得愛到永恆
Just this moment, is worth loving till eternity.

我該如何讓你明白我愛你
How can I let you understand that I love you?
在那之後 你點頭說我願意
After that you nod and say “I do”.
想照顧你 想守護你
I want to take care of you and protect you
這一刻 只想把你抱緊
At this moment, I just want to hold you tightly.

這一刻 只想把你抱緊
At this moment, I just want to hold you tightly.

Memories

Its been awhile since I thought of the importance of memories. Memories cannot be bought with money. Memories is made through the experience of a person. I know my memories will be cherished by me XD. Its what makes me smile, laugh, remember thr is ppl that loves me, and all the joyful things. In summary: What God Has Place In My Life.

Spending that amount on time on ppl, I believe its whr you not only create a bond but a memory together. Something which in my case, would happily reflect what had been done.

An example, me and my family would ALWAYS spend our Saturdays nights together. Though we eat our dinner together every single day but sometimes I feel Saturday dinners are special. Why do I say this? Saturday dinners would either be eat out, mom's cooking (deeeeeeee-lisiuz!!) or with relatives/friends. But during these dinners, its jokes and laughter all around the table. No work talk, no education talk, no problem talk, no STRESS talk. Just plain happy time. At night, we would either Bible read together, watch movie, play scrabble or any other games.

It probably doesnt seem very special or big but in my case, the memory for tht shows that I have a family which loves me, willing to spend time playing together, joking and laughin.

Another memory would probably be CampusRevo. The testimonies where souls are saved, a change (big or small) sweeping through the campus, students' lives being touched and blessed.. All these are memories of what God accompanied me through, that shows that He IS REAL, He IS MOVING, He IS WILLING to use you if you let Him.

I cant think of a verse to accompany all this. But sometimes, memories are like testimonies. No one can steal them from you or alter them. For you live your life, not anyone living ur life or vice versa. Memories can strengthen you, build your faith and encourage others too.

A question was stated. If you were to die now/later, what would you want/expect ppl to say about you at your funeral?

I just pray that IF the time came for me now, I know thr are ppl I have/had hurt direct/indirectly. But I pray that God's touch have at least touched a few ppl's lives. At least they know that I am trying to live a life of Christ though I am imperfect.

If it were later on..I wanna try to live out the life that really has that unconditional love for ppl. Especially kids. I pray tht I will be able to shine out that though sometimes we feel we are alone, thrs always tht very someone whom is always looking at us, waiting for us at the doorstep, willing to embrace you even though you do not put Him first. That I have given my best to bring Christ's presence whrever I go.

I always dream big n prob think big too. Hard but nvr impossible with God. This is just something that came to mind suddenly.

Thats all!! Nite ppl!!

Loves!!

Planning For The Future

A lot been happening lately even though its like wat.. the beginning of the year?? After all that has happen which have been state in the post below, recently I have also been planning on what I should study. Seriously and honestly.. I think I have thought too much.. and probably too far.

During this entire week. Not only am I stressed out by the happenings in the family but also what I should study and work as in the future. Before this I kept thinking bout which is the path God wants me to take? Between these courses will I be able to get a job after graduation? Will I be able to get a good income? Will the income be enough to support the family I have now? Maybe I am thinking too much..This course is it really my thinking or God's will? Probably some of you might think the same, or like if u have a younger sibling which has the age gap of more than 10, wont you be wondering if u can support him/her for their education later on? Parents are like 50+.. I'm sure we children tht should be able to work, want their parents to live a happily relax lifestyle rite? Not still working for your younger sibling??

I dunno lar, but as for me.. I hope to let my parents relax n live happily. However now I realize its really nt tht easy. Thinking of all these has really put a large invisible weight on my shoulders. Its nt suppose to be thr but I put it on myself because I thought too far. After talking to some ppl and hearing the Glowers (20++) speak about how they nw should really start being serious, n I'm below 20, I guess.. I really nid to take a step at a time. I really nid to relax, trust the Lord and be content with what He will do. I was really worrying too much.

Also, someone's blog really encourage me =). Lol. Dunno y just felt lead to read his blog n so i did. These are the verses, more can be read from his blog.

Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn,
for they will be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they will inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they will be filled.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart,
for they will see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they will be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
{Matthew 5: 3-10}
[taken from Andrew.T Blog]

It teaches me that no matter what happens, be thankful for what the Lord provides. Its hard for I may not earn as much as my dad but if the Lord bless me with that much, I'll be thankful with the much I have. Forgive me Lord for not submitting into Your hands, forgive me for worrying on the meaningless.

Thts all for tonite/morning =).

Loves & Cheers

2010

First post for year 2010. I know thrs so many things which i kinda miss out. Lol!! But anyway. Here is some pics n updates of what has been happening.

I think the earliest one would be the
IMPETUS CAMP - Because You said so.. [Luke 5:5]

It was our first camp planned together..military style.

The committee/camp COMMANDERS. Hehe!!

By God's grace and through Him.. We had ALMOST 200 campers.
It was apprx 190 campers in all.

Right after the 4days 3nights of camp!! Which was practically from 7am-12am. Lol!! Few of us were crazy enough to go for a POTBLESS PARTY at Steph's place.. Played mahjong (during christmas @.@) and bluff. Lol!! Truly enjoyable although tired.

Jee Wang's famous take-it-and-go pose (^~^)

Okok!! Whats next.. Christmas!! The pics I wont put them up coz lazy take pic. Hohoho!! But receive lots of lovely presents from my loving family & spiritual parents, relatives as well as thoughtful friends.

Next next.. Hm.. Oh!! Cell outing with my cute lil' cell members, whom are actually a year younger ny. LOL!! Pictures are with one of them so.. Next time oni put them up =P.

Lastly, i think, is NEW YEAR!! 2010!! Can say quite a strange one for me. First was a visit to THE LEGEND WATER CHALLETS in PD. Really relaxing and thoroughly enjoyable. Bonded with family, played Big2 everytime after dinner till bout 11pm then play scrabble till 3am, since we woke up till evening would be pool hr!! XD

??walking on air??

the bathroom.. vry messy. Hehe~

front entrance

Had no line to sms or call in the challets so couldnt wish my friends. Hope u guys dun angry yea.. When we came back, a day or 2 later.. Found out my great grandmother whom i have nvr met, had passed away. Sadly she is nt a believer but I still pray tht somehow she rests in peace. Somehow..

Yep..!! Thts bout it i guess.. Here are more pics which me n my sis took. Pose pose!! Its once in awhile =P. Also few pics i played with using webcam. La di dum!!

*take1*

*take 2??*

*??take3??*

smile!! 1

smile!! 2

smile!! 3

No makeup except eyeliner

1?

2?

3? Lol!!

Thts all!! Yes!! Pimples r so annoying @.@!! LOL!!

*Hearts* *Hearts* =P


P.s
I've finally finish "Brown Sugar Macchiato - 黑糖瑪奇朵". Funny ^.^!! Also addicted to the songs
苦茶 (Bitter Tea) by 棒棒堂 and 黑澀會美眉
and
愛情瑪奇朵 (Love Macchiato) by 棒棒堂