Its coming back - - - -

The joy and thrill of the pressure of wanting to win. Not knowing if you will win or lose, but yet gaining new friends. Friends that you know makes you laugh and forget outside problems.

YES PPL!!! I have decided to come back to Taylors and play table tennis during my free time =P.

I play for fun, I can't really play for competition. Lol~ However, met lots of new friends d. Nigel, Raymond, Sivon (I hope i spell his name correct =P), Leon, Jia Wei (or was it jia wen... not vry gud with chinese names @.@) n JK (so cool rite his name XD. Not sure if its just an initial)... Hmm.. Hope I didn't leave out anyone. Saw few of the ol' Subang table tennis players too =P. All were like surprise to see each other XD.

But anyhow somehow XD, doubt the others know it but everytime I play, it always.. so far nvr fails to make me smile at the end of the day. Even though its watching only.

Oh, never fail.. As a girl, when u win a guy the crowd response "How could u lose to a girl?".
If you lose to the guy "Why u bully girl??". Haha!! But, we r all joking.

However, in degree d. Cannot fool around too much. So of course I must learn to control lor!! Lol!!

Jun n Shafiq found my secret, that I play >.<... Not to mention watchin me play @.@... Pray it doesnt get spread too far >.<.


Tally-Ho~!!! Loves!!!

Still

It happened during Prayer 105, was a bit reluctant I admit but guess what I've learnt?

Many times we ask God, "Lord Lord, please grant me *this*", "Lord will you show me the way" and so on. Yet, we do not seem to get any physical or obvious sign from God. Why is that? Sometimes we even question God "Why won't you answer me?".

Number 1, you do not accept His answer. You want it your way, even though He knows its not what you need.

Number 2, its not the right timing. Therefore it comes later but you are impatient. And even after you get it, do you give thanks??

Number 3, you say but do not fully believe. Though you ask, in your heart you have a part which says "I'm just gonna do this just in case I do not get an answer". So r u not expecting an answer?

Number 4, you do not read the Word, you do not make time for Him. You probably don't understand why your life is turning like that. You feel alone and unloved. Why is that?? Though you know God loves you, why do you waver? Could it be you're not grounded in the Word? In the truth?

Number 5... This what strikes me most. Be STILL... If you didn't realize, in one week, which is 7 days, we rush through our days with work and school, sometimes too concentrated with the world and work around us that we just pass Him by. Though He speaks, we are too caught up in our work to focus on Him. To make that few 10 - 20 min listening to Him. We work and work till we're tired then read the Word tiredly, then fall asleep. Everyday this becomes like a routine. Your Spirit and mind is not calm to listen, it is not stilled frm all the activities.

Why is it that during Youth camps everyone is just so fired up for God?? Yet after few months down the road.. Everybody becomes... dull.. The fire dims.. But when camp comes again, everyone is fired up!! And the process repeats. Why is it?? what is the difference between camp and daily life?

The difference is that, when ur at camp, your entire being is focused solely on God. Your mind does not think bout work or assignments or anything else. Each and everyday at camp you look forward for what God has next in store, you look forward for the next journey or challenge that teaches you more bout God. Everything in camp is focused on God. That is why everyone is so fired up!! Compare to your daily life, most of the time your focus is more towards work and studies.

Today, God says.. Be still. Focus entirely on Him. Do not think bout your work just for 20min. Just you and Him. Find that time, come back, stop lettin that fire dim. Keep it burning.

I know its not easy, even I myself admit. But God will never look down upon us if we fail. He will keep encouragin us and watching over us. If you're looking for an answer. Be still.. Listen.. Focus upon Him. Have FAITH!!

Loves~

Dun Ask Me To Drive When...

Dun ask me to drive when I am rushing,
For I get quite reckless.
Dun ask me to drive when I am depressed,
For I am nt as alert as I am.
Dun ask me to drive when timing is too tight,
For I would make lots of wrong turning.

However at ANY other times..
Feel free to ask me to drive =).

Oh!! And make sure I know the way =P.
If not, dun ask me to drive ^^.

Loves~~

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND ooo

One night I had a dream. I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to me and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in my life.

This really troubled me and I questioned the Lord about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your time of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Deuteronomy 31:8 [NIV]
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

John 3:17
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.


This is may not be my dream, but I changed the "he" to "I" so that you may apply it to your own life. It encourages me and assures the strength that the Lord will provide.

❤Loves❤❤❤

Feeling Hurt

Would it be better if I be angry?
Or depress?
Should I choose to be rude?
Or instead endure the pain?
Could it be better to satisfy people with a fake heart?
Or plain say no?
Shall I ignore?
Or respond knowing full well of the result?

Though its great to have friends,
Would it be better if I've been alone?

How to respond?
What to respond?
I feel like a cold chill,
To others I'm soon to be forgotten.
Is this how life is to be?

Jeremiah 29:11 [NIV]
^"11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Psalms 34:18 [NIV]
¹⁸ The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit

Romans 8:5 [NIV]
⁵ Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.

Philippians 2: 3-4 [NIV]
³Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. ⁴Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.

Proverbs 3: 5-6 [NIV]
⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

Romans 8:16-17 [NIV]
¹⁶The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. ¹⁷Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.

1 Corinthians 10: 13 [NLT]
¹³ The temptations in your life are no different from what others experience. And God is faithful. He will not allow the temptation to be more than you can stand. When you are tempted, he will show you a way out so that you can endure.


Loves~~

Stunned

Okay.. I know not long ago I posted bout driving.. And I also know that I am saying this practically to my friends that I am talking right now (842pm). But really.. Mom just gave the green light to drive alone. I've got a tiny feeling its definitely different frm when they r in the car n u are in the car alone. But whoaaa... Seriously?? Letting me drive? Ok lar.. It just to university. But.. Seriously?? I'm honestly stunned. I know it sounds like "ur expecting it not to happen??".. No but.. really?? Like now? Today??

Frm my heart I have a bit of worry that I disappoint them or get into a car crash or who knows what. Haha!! Well, will update tomoro if something does happen >.<. If everyhting goes smoothly, then thr won't be much to blog. Probably just a shoutout. So yea!! Pray for me ;P.

Loves~~~ *hearts*

Hormones

Hey hey to my blog and those that are reading this. Not long ago I heard this awesome testimony from my dad who heard it from a pastor whom heard it from who knows who. Who knows, this testimony could be true or false but I believe the message through it is still more important.

Lots of time we hear people saying "Just for one night, what could happen?", "we'll be really careful, and no one would be troubled later", "why so uptight? Won't u just chill?", "Its normal.." and who knows what else other people say. From love, the world has turn it to lust.

A girl and her family who are all devoted Christians, love God after their own heart and has always grown strongly and did everything according to His word. The girl merely a young teen is fully trusted and loved by both her parents. Normally in this kind of situation, everyone would probably think, the girl should be able to know what is right and what is wrong and would do everything right. Well lets see what happened. A boy around her age one day came over to tutor her in her studies. Both ALONE in her room. Her parents trusted both of them to just study. However after a few days, both curiosity eventually rises. One day they actually gave in and did it. The girl was so scared she tested the next day and got a negative. The boy feeling so ashamed and guilty, plead for forgiveness and repented before God. He even went up to the pastor and asked for advise. The pastor told the boy to tutor the girl in an open area where both would not be alone. So the next time the guy went over to the girl's house, he told her father to allow them to do it in the living hall. The father replied him, "I trust you and my daughter to be in the room studying, its ok". So they continued being in the room. After a few times, they eventually did it again. Unfortunately this time, the tester gave a positive sign, which meant the girl was pregnant. The family and the boy was horrified. Everyone was weeping before the pastor what to do. The mother eventually called for abortion. The pastor tried talking to her but she insisted. Abortion is like murder, which is a huge sin. Try and try, the pastor failed. The next day all of them including the pastor went to the hospital to check. The pastor only said "may the grace and mercy of God be with u", as they entered the hospital. Here starts the weird part. As the doctors were scanning for signs of the baby, they couldnt see a thing. She was then sent for testing. Results showed a blue lines, indicating there is a baby. She went for scanning again, and again no baby traced. One more time she went for testing. Results showed a thin line of blue, indicating very minimal signs of the baby. So she went for a scanner one more time. Again they couldnt find the baby. She was asked to do the tester one last time. Guess what happened? Results showed a negative, indicating no baby found. Everyone was relieved and crying thanks to God.

What can be shown here? Probably some foolish people would say, "See!! God makes sure u won't get a baby". I think not. I think here was truly shown the grace of God over the family. Everyone was really sorry for what had happened. And I guessed, God Himself didn't want to see His people cry. So He gave another chance. God is a God of second chances, if u are truly and honestly repenting. He loves you.. So of course He doesn't like to see you depressed.

For the guy and girl. Even though they didn't want to do it, however because as teenagers, we have raging hormones. Don't u say because ur a girl u can control better. Nonsense!! As long as ur a teenager, ur curious, ur tempted, i mean.. hello!! If its this really cute guy/girl or even the person u like suddenly tempts u to do it or pushes u to do it, what are the chances u WONT do it? ALL the more IF u are alone with the opposite gender in a room with no one to watch, how strong r u to say NO. Therefore.. Like I said.. For me this does not just apply to having sex or anything.. But even relationships.. Are u sure its not just your hormones thats directing u to a relationship? A lovey dovey couple relationship? How sure are you that the relationship ur in will sustain and not hurt or break u in the future? Being in one is like a drug, after a break up, u just keep looking for another to replace that feeling.

Hey, I admit myself, I know that I have hormones. Like duh.. Even I like guys, that just shows. If no hormones.. U won't be lusting or loving, then ur like.. I dunno what. Haha!! But yea.. Enough chit chat. Slping time. Mom is assuming i'm playing games now. Sigh.. Parents.. Why cant they just SEE the MONITOR before concluding. Aihz.. Not like they come in n i turn off the monitor -.-. Oh well.. Nitey nitez ppl!!

Loves~~