Misunderstandings

I still wonder whether u truly understand me. I get it if I am still not mature as u think i am. I am sry if i do not meet ur expectations as some ppl do. I get it u alwyz say its for my own gud. U dun hav to remind me all the time. The things I tel u or the reasons why i come to u when i could hav cry by myself or figure it out myself is all bcoz I wanted a bond between u n me. It is all bcoz I trust u. Its not bcoz I cant choose for myself or I am unsure wat to do. Its coz I WANT u to know wat r my decisions n wat i am going through. Nothing else. I want u to c tht I am growing n not some small girl strugglin to walk. True, I may be afriad of certain obstacles or pressured by them. But if I tel u n manage to pass the obstacle, u dun hav to rub it in as in reminding tht if i do this i take the wrong path or if i do tht i will succeed. Its not for reminders, u may think its helpful n such.. However u r just pressurin me making me think thrice or more whether my life is gonna end in a crisis. We all say God has a plan for each of us, n tht if we take the wrong paths we can destroy our lives n such.. But.. Wat is life with just flowers n rainbow? My biggest obstacle is not gettin over a stupid relationship if it didnt work out. It is not losing a friend after an argument. It is not finding a job in life to keep goin on. It is NOT failing in education and living in poverty. True many of these we can say nw tht it may not affect. However, as a growing girl, if i cant even pass the largest obstacle tht is in my way nw n prob haunt me for yrs, wat r the chances i will face those with ease? N to many ppl it prob is one of the simplest obstacle, which is meeting up to UR expectation. Knowing it tears me up n breaks me down harshly, sometimes all those minor prob which i stated above seem like dust just blowing past me. Relationships i get it u wan me to wait till i get a job, as protection not to b hurt n failin later. But, ur reminders honestly hurt 100X more. I dun hav to b in a relationship to find out. So wat if breakups, i know the person for few yrs?? But i know u since i was born. I lost count of how many times i cried coz of u, but i know deep down.. It is not as many times as friends n sibling arguments. I should be used to it by nw.. But y do i still keep cryin.. I myself cant even answr tht.. I feel useless many times by ur words, like a black sheep or accident. How much will power i hav b4 i really think i am tht, i dunno.. This post is not for any of my friends to talk to me bout. It is plainly a reminder for me in future. Dun wry bout it, especially lenna. Like i said, I dun nid to b talked to neither do i nid to talk it out. Its plainly a mark in life.

Valentines Day is coming!!!

Valentine's Day is coming!!! Love is in the air~~ I think so r the hugs n kisses n heart shape eyes.. But its ok!!! All the single ladies don't mop around!!! Be proud ur single coz not many can live with it! Go party XD!! All the bachelors keep ur heads up coz u still get to do crazy things with ur mates even on that day!!

Guys in a relationship, get ur flowers, chocolates, plannings, etc planned out. Girls in a relationship, start gettin ur outfits, hair n makeup time booked XD. I just pray the love bug song wont keep playin throughout the night =P. Ok enough of that!!!! All in all, just have fun..

If u simply DONT KNOW how to spend ur valentines day, SIBKL youth group, Narrowstreet warm-heartedly welcomes u to their church for a one day only valentine's day event.

No worries needed for being single or coupled. It a time whr we have fun!! Thrs games n food provided. Check out the sibkl website for maps n location!! The event is frm 2pm - 5/6pm. Come n enjoy!!

Hm.. I have not much to say this time.. Oh oh!!! Somethin extra for me this yr =P. Looks like i just might have an evening out with a friend on tht day.. *wink* *wink* Lol.. Approved by parents to go out at night. So.. wats the story?? MAYBE... I will tel the next time..

Bombs by Lenny

Instructions: Remove one question from below, add in one of your own(personal), to make a total of 20. Tag 5 people in your list in the end of this post. Notify them.

1. At what age do you wish to be married?
- around 27?? (got reason behind it XP)

2. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- Anywhere fun, enjoyable.. As long with the company i love

3. Do you believe in yourself?
- Depends on situation

4. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- No..t...really...

5. What are you afraid to lose the most?
- *secret* =P

6. If you win $ 1 Million, what would you do?
- save, donate, etc..

7. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- not really.. unless desperate for it..

8. List out 3 good points of the person who love/care about you.
- Quite stubborn, playful... Talkative?

9. What requirement you wish from your other half?
- My other half? Err.. Sociable??

10. What kind of person you hate the most?
- Backstabbers

11. If you are given the chance to go back to the past and make a difference, will you?
- No i wont.. I try to live without regrets..

12. Are you happy with your life now?
- So far am enjoyin it..

13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- Family, God, friends, bible, ...

14. If there's ever a war(or things that are similar) happening in your place, are you going to move to a safer place, or fight?
- Depends.. but most prob move to another place..

15. If you have the chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
- The part which keeps me invincible or stepped on..

16. Who is the person that you can share all your problems with?
- Someone i know for quite a long time d i guess.. =P

17. What's your weakest point?
- Relationships (aka coupling..>.<)

18. What is the best thing that happened this year? - Friends crashin my hse durin cny XD

19. What u hope to be in the future? - Event manager??

20. What is it you are annoyed most at now? - people who befriends u when they r free n leaves u when they r with someone else.


Directions: Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog or a note on Facebook with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment (”you’re it”) and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog/note, so I can see your weirdness.

1. I've never been in a real relationship

2. I take things most of the time quite seriously

3. Learning to stop being anti-social

4. Annoyed at some ppl

5. Just wanna work

6.Wondering wat i am doin with my life..

7. Quite emo whenever i come on this blog

8. Bad with words but alwyz thr for friends

9. Favourite edible stuff are desserts and fruits =P

10. Super rarely hug guys..

11. Even though I like hugs XD

12. Love to read MANGA!!!

13. Can be quite..maybe really picky when it comes to buyin gifts

14. Sms.. sms.. sms..

15. wanna HIGHLIGHT.. not dye.. my hair pale blue

16. wanna get a new phone

17. Want a laptop too..

18. Suspense gives me jitters n jumpies..

19. Nervous make sweat

20. Dun really like screwing things up

21. Sometimes easily irritated

DONE!! I tag...!!

1. Alicia Chua Pei Wen
2. Suki, the poodle
3. Darren, neko - He too free
4. Tiffy
5. Anybody..Tired..

Taggy by Baka Neko

Directions :
Once you have been tagged,
you have to write a post with sixteen random things,
habits or goals about you.

At the end,
choose five people to be tagged,
listing their names and why you chose them.

Don't forget to leave a comment
(who u tagged tagged!?, and to read your blog, you can't tag a person who tagged you.)

Fact 1: Darren, the baka neko force me to do this
Fact 2: Lenna oso kept remindin me to do it
Fact 3: Tired from college
Fact 4: Frustrated with the elections for students council
Fact 5: Everythin is like being rushed then going into slow motion
Fact 6: I wan my driving license NOW
Fact 7: I feel annoyed out of blue
Fact 8: Wanna go out with friends..
Fact 9: Feel like wearin contacts tomorrow
Fact 10: Wanna try out working n earning money
Fact 11: Curious how this yr valentines will be like
Fact 12: I cut my hair!!!
Fact 13: Keep tellin myself i nid to go shoppin for sandals, but nvr goes
Fact 14: I feel confuse n unsure of what i want
Fact 15: Quite bored now
Fact 16: I dunno wat i wanna do but i wanna do somethin anything..

I Tag:
Tiffany - coz wat i hav she must have XD
Audrey - coz must drag her in
Pei Wen - coz she like vry free
Alvin - Coz i just realize no guys
Howard - coz i realize no animals =P

Its like a drug..

It makes the heart ache,
Craving for more each and every day.
The hunger flowing through the veins,
Blinding the eyes for just that moment.
So sweet, so addictive,
Too pleasurable to not sin.
A temptation hard to run from,
Hard to resist.
A tiny wrong move,
And into the fiery nightmare...