I'm Going Home

Yes I am going home but not permanently. Soon I can c everyone again! Somehow miss them more than I ever did. Will things be different? Will things work out? I have no idea. But what I wanna c is my sis getting back to her old self again. Its not right having a downcast sis. Sadly.. Yes sadly I miss her sudden anger, her "I can do it but u cant", her attitude and spunky-ness. Am learning some new dishes and treats. When I get back will make it for you guys!! C u c u c u soooon!! <3 Rei

Regrets? I hope not...

Shud have expect that the longer you are in a relationship, the tougher it gets of having someone else in your life. And somehw, blogging still makes me feel less tense of typing everything here. Arguments over small and big things also got. More frustrating is when each argument you have, one side feels this way is normal but to the other side it doesn't make sense. And no I am not talking about religion and morality. Although that prob could be applied but sometimes its frustrating when the simple reason he gives is "Thats the way I was brought up". Okay.. But I don't think that shud be the reason I have to accommodate to your needs is it? And you don't hear me say "Thats the way I was brought up". I mean come on, not everything should be done your way correct or not? Ugh.. N I KNEW that just coz I decided not to hang out with you while waiting for 2 hours just doing my work. U go get moody. Seriously?? Beginning it felt like if we do our own stuff it will b no problem. Recently its like if can do together, try to do everything together. And no I don't complain that we spend time together. But I complain that if either of us can't make it, DON'T SULK OR BE MOODY!! Goodness!! Its times like that or some random "don't-wanna-talk-anymore" mood that make me feel you would have prefer C. And when I think of that... UGH! The regrets which I don't wanna feel comes crawling in. And its those times I feel like screaming or shouting, what kind of promise are you keeping?? If you can think that thr is a problem with our relationship, if you think that sometimes you are the cause. Then for goodness try and change those parts which make me upset! Stop repeating them. Or at least do it in a way where both of us can accept. Don't use "Thats the way I been brought up" as an excuse coz the relationship will nid 2 ppl to mold and not one. If God wanna intervene then so be it. I guess sometimes there are things where we need someone who knows us more than we know each other to work things out. Rei

Stupid.. Plain idiotic-ly stupid.. Argh!! No idea why I'm so upset. Mad? Maybe mixture of sad and frustration? I seriously dunno. Screw it.. Got too many assignments to think about it anyway.

One thing I hate most is wishing me good things bitterly. Maybe I read it wrongly or what but.. If u wanna ask whats wrong, you dun go demanding wats wrong. Like.. Who the hell are you to tell me how to do?

Geez.. Attitude? Goodness.. Maybe been comfortable for too long. You don't understand, and you go demanding. My attitude? Check your own tone. Argh!!

我痛你都看不到。还敢讲我发脾气。。我本来不生气！！讲到这样我现在就火大！！开心了没？！！如果我现在觉得我们没希望的话，我现在就不管如果分手咯！ish... 真是气死我！！

ReiRei

Soo many things been happening!! Well, more like been just enjoying myself and hanging out with different groups of people.

Who knew things would turn out this way? Anyhow, had a wonderful bbq session as welcome to new members of ocf as well as to the old members returning from holidays. Studies have started and uni.. Is like.. Easy yet once start no idea. Not sure if its really dunno or just that I'm lacking behind.

Hm.. Maths is like.. mostly self learn I guess. The lecturer is not really teaching and online tests after online tests keeps coming in. What should I do???

Other than that, received many assignments d. So means no more playing time for the next 11 weeks. Saddddd....

As for sister, hope you are doing well and fine~!! I know jie isn't able to be back with u to kacau and take care of you but I'm sure God will watch over you better!! Trust and believe in your recovery so I shall do my best to do well here!!

Part of me feels bit different. Like wanting to take on a new change and new ways. How far can I go? Will I be able to succeed? How I wish and don't wish I could know the future and prep for it~

HAha!! Lets not go there. Well, gotta get back b4 bi gets back. Oh! Pot plant is gonna be 1 week old soon!! 3 weeks to budding~ Stay tuned~!!

ReiRei

Somehow I feel that this semester is gonna be different. And whether next sem will be like this I do not know. Friends are many, and its not like we r required to choose only one. I do not see how you can see it that way. Neither can I understand that its ok with you guys that you can have other groups but when I do it, you show as if I ditched you.

What the hell is with all the competing and comparing? Seriously! I'm just so pissed off at times that you do not change. Does it please you that someone is having it worse?

Goodness.. Sometimes it really makes you wonder.. Hang out with some people that can make you score awesome grades but suffer emotionally every now and then. Or get average grades but with people that care (I hope they honestly care =P) bout each other?

Ugh.. The pain in my throat is worsening. Pain like crazy.. Life was so fun the past few weeks and months. Don't want it to change just because of some painful things..

.Can I really trust and believe?.

ReiRei

Fuuuuuullllll.... Cooking for oneself can sometimes be hard.. Its like if theres a lil' bit left but you're full and you dun wanna waste it, so you force yourself to eat it. Then you get all uncomfortable.

Actually I dunno if its full or just tired. Haha! Well~ Today is the FIRST day of uni!! Wasnt a very good start I guess but not a bad ending either. Had a small quarrel then lecturer.. FIRST LECTURER of the day/week/month/uni kept saying "erm" more times than I can count. I think that its such a bad habit that I think he says it twice in one sentence! Not to mention being totally monotonous. Ah well..

After that had our first OCF meeting with Arabelle and Pattie~ Haha!! The day sure is gloomy and sad today. Keeps raining like theres no tomorrow! I guess Werribee's Zoo animals will be very happy to have their wells filled to the brim~ So will the rhinos and their muddy wet bath. Haha!!

Looks like things are going I guess the way it should be. Got myself involve a bit too much that I can quite feel the effect now. Feels bit sad but hey! Not the end of the world. Time to get my head focus on what should be done. And enjoy what this year is gonna bring.

BRING IT~

ReiRei

"Hm.. Not sure what I did but neck feels REALLY sore @@"

.A Hint of Doubt or Uncertainty in Your Eyes Makes Me Grow Cold.