Somehow I feel that this semester is gonna be different. And whether next sem will be like this I do not know. Friends are many, and its not like we r required to choose only one. I do not see how you can see it that way. Neither can I understand that its ok with you guys that you can have other groups but when I do it, you show as if I ditched you.

What the hell is with all the competing and comparing? Seriously! I'm just so pissed off at times that you do not change. Does it please you that someone is having it worse?

Goodness.. Sometimes it really makes you wonder.. Hang out with some people that can make you score awesome grades but suffer emotionally every now and then. Or get average grades but with people that care (I hope they honestly care =P) bout each other?

Ugh.. The pain in my throat is worsening. Pain like crazy.. Life was so fun the past few weeks and months. Don't want it to change just because of some painful things..

.Can I really trust and believe?.

ReiRei

Fuuuuuullllll.... Cooking for oneself can sometimes be hard.. Its like if theres a lil' bit left but you're full and you dun wanna waste it, so you force yourself to eat it. Then you get all uncomfortable.

Actually I dunno if its full or just tired. Haha! Well~ Today is the FIRST day of uni!! Wasnt a very good start I guess but not a bad ending either. Had a small quarrel then lecturer.. FIRST LECTURER of the day/week/month/uni kept saying "erm" more times than I can count. I think that its such a bad habit that I think he says it twice in one sentence! Not to mention being totally monotonous. Ah well..

After that had our first OCF meeting with Arabelle and Pattie~ Haha!! The day sure is gloomy and sad today. Keeps raining like theres no tomorrow! I guess Werribee's Zoo animals will be very happy to have their wells filled to the brim~ So will the rhinos and their muddy wet bath. Haha!!

Looks like things are going I guess the way it should be. Got myself involve a bit too much that I can quite feel the effect now. Feels bit sad but hey! Not the end of the world. Time to get my head focus on what should be done. And enjoy what this year is gonna bring.

BRING IT~

ReiRei

"Hm.. Not sure what I did but neck feels REALLY sore @@"

.A Hint of Doubt or Uncertainty in Your Eyes Makes Me Grow Cold.

Is it ok to date? Should I even try being involve or sharing my space with someone and get the risk of being hurt?

To trust someone other than yourself and family with your life matters. I dunno how people can see it as a small thing but to me its like a huge issue! Sometime it feels like being with someone is like inviting pain in the future. Its awesome if it works out, but disastrous if it doesn't. Friendships broken and sometimes the group that you hang out with becomes different.

I wanna focus on my studies and just enjoy happy singlehood for now. But then again.. Someone told me that its also good to at least try some dating in Uni instead of just hanging out alone at home or just girls.

Full of uncertainty fills my heart. And as I look at the faces, theres always expectancy. Would I change a lot if should get myself involve? Would it be for the better or worst? Would I build stronger ice walls or crumple down? Really don't like this uncertainty *scared* feeling...

ReiRei

Stop Lying To Yourself

Was it expectancy that I indulge myself in it? Was it knowing that following that way it would turn out that way that I chose it? Could it be any less obvious?

Question is.. Is it wat I wanted? Or was it just to prove to myself? All I know now is that perhaps I'm destroying something which is by right nice? Am I that bad to pretend its ok? Aih.. Guilt is creeping to me. And burying deeper makes me feel worst. Few more days then.. What should I do? Continue? Or bury myself in work so that hopefully time can continue its way on how it should be?

Some part of me somehow feels I should choose the last one than the first. Lies does make things sour especially when you started it yourself. Blech =) ...

Rach

So Annoying

My previous place at Micasa sure starting to seem like it wasnt worth it. Isnt it weird how in the present it seems alright and okay but once it has pass and in the future you realized "Ugh.. So worth it to make that choice to move". Well I'm having that dilemma now!

Its so irritating and frustrating. Before moving in, pictures and so on sounded really great. Sadly, upon reaching the room was not only REALLY dirty but cutleries, dustbin and etc was... sry to say, grossed out! You know dirt that are in water for really long becomes black right? And if let in a closed area with bits of air and moist area it gets REALLY smelly? Well, imagine that happened in the dustbin and some cupboard area.

Not enough, dishes and cutleries were stained, some were yellow and man.. Its like the previous tenant didn't even clean!! Carpets were full of fur and I have no idea wat. But learnt in the year there was a cat in the room too. Blech.. Explains wat I tot was sand I found.

My parents and I had to vacuum the whole place, and wash and clean as much as we can. As for cutleries... You could say I cleaned wat was needed for a maximum of 3 people and left the rest in a cupboard. As for cooking things.. My parents decided to buy our own.

Did you know my dad even took the initiative to clean the windows as much as he could?? Ugh.. Anyway, as long it was just to survive I don't feel like filing a complaint. But what annoyed me was them charging me $50++ cause I did not clean everything before I left. My question to myself was, if they r charging me, surely they charged the previous tenant. So WHY WASNT IT CLEAN WHEN I MOVED IN???????????? ROAR!! Dislike dislike dislike!! Worst part is I have no proof that I didnt use the stuff but if some were in my shoes, would you even use things for a YEAR if they grossed you out? And that no matter how much cleaning you did, it was never enough?

Hey guys, I'm not trying to down grade Micasa or anything. And it probably doesnt happen to everyone. And maybe I'm just unfortunate that the room I wanted happened to be like that so yea. Lesson, check the place out first, every crook and corner. And if takes a plane to get there, ask friends to snap REAL photos or all the best I wish you luck. Last thing, ask them if they charge you for cleaning later on. Its really unfair if they were suppose to clean and they charge you for it when it wasnt clean to begin with.

ReiRei

So Fast

3 days passed d without me noticing. And its gonna b the 16th in couple more hours!! Even amazing is that I gotta wake at 6am just to do my timetable!! Garh.. You would nvr see me do such a thing... But after hearing my fren say that she has been doing it always... Guess I shouldnt be surprise. Wan nice seats and nice timetable you gotta put in some effort.

More annoying thing that happened today was that.. I dun even noe how I burn my thumb! How did that happened?????? Ugh.. Still quizzing over it. But it was only while I was washing dishes that I accidently press my thumb and gave me a jolt. Hm... Also I shud hurry and sleep. Will wake up later in 7 hours just to do this.

Thinking pathetic stuff now. Shud slp. G'Nite!

ReiRei