Friends

Assignments are piling up / increasing. Finals are approaching. Nerves are breakingout.. Hm.. Having lesser and lesser time to blog. Either tht, come to blog and nthg to type bout.

Aihzz... Is it me.. or...? Having friends from different group that shares different interests.. Is that bad?? In my life, of course you have friends from primary school, secondary school and kindergarten. Everybody has that right? Ok so how bout clubs and society friends. In high school you are already scheduled some part of your time to meet friends with similar interests. How I miss those times.. Its not easy to find that in university. Its like, when everyone free, then oni hav meet ups. Either tht, wait till an event comes lar. Or worst still, their meetings is during ur class hour or its too late, so you cant go.

Doi Adoi!! Not that I'm saying its boring to just have friends from your course but.. Interests?? If they dun get your interests, are you not gonna continue with it?

Hm.. adding on to the group of friends I have, theres table tennis friends. EVERYBODY has different break hours. So how often do I get to meet them? An hr for those that REALLY have opposite timetables as I do. They make time to come and fellowship/bond/play. Sometimes I dun even c them through the week(s). Aihzz.. Dun count the business ppl lar =P, they all super free, of course I will c them slightly more often.

Tambah lagi... Christian Fellowship friends!! My sisters and brothers in Christ XD. I c FEW of them every 30min b4 class starts. Then everyone in CF for 2 hrs A WEEK!!! Bonding?? Hardly!!

Lets keep adding.. Friends which I met from just being in ECA/Student Life Centre. Lol!! I HARDLY SEE THEM.

Now how bout my course friends. I SEE YOU PPL 23hrs a week!! MAX 27hrs a week!! One of you, you know who you are =P.. 33hrs a week!! LOL!! U tell me ler!! Compare tht with my other friends.. You still say I dun spend enough time with you guys? U making it sound as if neglect u all... Sometimes making it sound as if I am "ditching" you all. Say what?? Aihzz... Last time when it was fun n no-problem, thinking of games or ways to keep us all awake is easy. Now... Using them and.. I dunno.. I really just wanna give up. Ignore lar.. I will just keep silent.

I dunno if it really hurts others sometimes, and I dunno it. Or either tht, coolz, they dun show it. Awesome masks they put on everytime. Between us..? I dun feel friendship anymore.. More like, you wan come, then join lar. Dun wan, no diff to us.

Aihz.. either tht... I'm just plain weird =P. A jealous girl, who bothers to get jealous when ppl steals her friends. A emotional girl, who likes to cheer ppl up, yet easily feels dejected. An imperfect girl, who sometimes / most of the time just see that God is probably who she ONLY needs. Not friends, not relationship, not bonds.

If any of you feel insulted or irritated reading this, I apologize but feel free to NOT read coz the blog title says it all... "Thoughts of the Heart". Everything here is sincerely from the heart.

Also to those who still stand by me as friends, best friends or non-blood siblings. Love you and thank you for everything (patience, joy, sharing, guidance, etc)!! ^^ You know who you are!!!


Loves~

So True..

I just realize I have lots of Chinese commentators and interesting guests. LOL!!! But no matter.. Thank you for visiting my blog and giving encouragements, etc ^^.

Tht being said, here's my next post =). This is thanks to "The Believer", whoever he or she may be.. To be honest, university is really tiring enough with assignments, homeworks, exams and revisions. Top it up with socializing (if some of you do, coz I do ^^), playing sports, and what else?? Doing God's work and going for prayer meetings every morning.

I have friends that always wonder what in the world I'm going prayer meetings for. Some even THINKS christian fellowship (CF) will just be more tiring. Well let me tell you from experience.

I feel just the same way you do bout university. But you know what? Somehow every time I "drag" myself to prayer (not a morning person here), I feel better and better with every prayer said. Its like, my body feel thrs something eager to look forward to in university instead of just S-T-U-D-I-E-S. Lol!!

As for CF? Its EVERY TUESDAY, 5PM - 7PM. I know everyone is tired. So am I. But you know what? Besides waiting for the jam to ease before going home... I enjoy myself at prayer. Meaning to say while some ppl are complaining in the car saying "Faster move... Movee...", I am up in CF laughing, joking, meeting new friends, playing and so on. And for those that are looking to wise-n up, CF shares bout what is real. What everybody faces and ways you can overcome. Its real and its the truth.

Anyway, read the lyrics for this song. Listen to it on youtube even better. Its true, the truth and seriously... Listening to this makes me even more energetic ^^.

Link: Nothing is impossible - Planetshakers

Nothings Is Impossible - Planetshakers
Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible

Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible

I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything

I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

Signing off now =)

Loves~~

Where Is My Path Headed?

Where am I headed to? Past a river? Past a lake? Past a forest or a desert? What kind of trials is it this time? My mind is foggy, I feel like I'm stumbling. Every year I feel like history repeats. Just with different environment and people. What does it mean? Have I not learn my lesson? Am I to change something? Or am I to improve myself than what I am now?

Many times we ask ourselves WWJD (What would Jesus do)? Would God be pleased with our actions? Can I just lack a bit then move again later?

Its really really so hard to always just make that stand and do what Jesus would do. Sometimes it slipped our mind, or we're lazy, or we just feel so much pain, hatred and bitterness that you just wanna let it go and turn wild. Hateful.. Angry.. and Depressed. Lol..

But we know we have to endure it. We know somehow or the other, you just gotta forgive. Somehow or the other, you just have to wash the hurt, cover that scar and move on. Easier said than done.. But if not now? Are we willing to let that evil presence grow in us?

Psalm 69 : 1-20
¹ Save me, O God,
for the waters have come up to my neck.

² I sink in the miry depths,
where there is no foothold.
I have come into the deep waters;
the floods engulf me.

³ I am worn out calling for help;
my throat is parched.
My eyes fail,
looking for my God.

⁴ Those who hate me without reason
outnumber the hairs of my head;
many are my enemies without cause,
those who seek to destroy me.
I am forced to restore
what I did not steal.

⁵ You know my folly, O God;
my guilt is not hidden from you.

⁶ May those who hope in you
not be disgraced because of me,
O Lord, the LORD Almighty;
may those who seek you
not be put to shame because of me,
O God of Israel.

⁷ For I endure scorn for your sake,
and shame covers my face.

⁸ I am a stranger to my brothers,
an alien to my own mother's sons;

⁹ for zeal for your house consumes me,
and the insults of those who insult you fall on me.

¹⁰ When I weep and fast,
I must endure scorn;

¹¹ when I put on sackcloth,
people make sport of me.

¹² Those who sit at the gate mock me,
and I am the song of the drunkards.

¹³ But I pray to you, O LORD,
in the time of your favor;
in your great love, O God,
answer me with your sure salvation.

¹⁴ Rescue me from the mire,
do not let me sink;
deliver me from those who hate me,
from the deep waters.

¹⁵ Do not let the floodwaters engulf me
or the depths swallow me up
or the pit close its mouth over me.

¹⁶ Answer me, O LORD, out of the goodness of your love;
in your great mercy turn to me.

¹⁷ Do not hide your face from your servant;
answer me quickly, for I am in trouble.

¹⁸ Come near and rescue me;
redeem me because of my foes.

¹⁹ You know how I am scorned, disgraced and shamed;
all my enemies are before you.

²⁰ Scorn has broken my heart
and has left me helpless;
I looked for sympathy, but there was none,
for comforters, but I found none.

Loves~

Its coming back - - - -

The joy and thrill of the pressure of wanting to win. Not knowing if you will win or lose, but yet gaining new friends. Friends that you know makes you laugh and forget outside problems.

YES PPL!!! I have decided to come back to Taylors and play table tennis during my free time =P.

I play for fun, I can't really play for competition. Lol~ However, met lots of new friends d. Nigel, Raymond, Sivon (I hope i spell his name correct =P), Leon, Jia Wei (or was it jia wen... not vry gud with chinese names @.@) n JK (so cool rite his name XD. Not sure if its just an initial)... Hmm.. Hope I didn't leave out anyone. Saw few of the ol' Subang table tennis players too =P. All were like surprise to see each other XD.

But anyhow somehow XD, doubt the others know it but everytime I play, it always.. so far nvr fails to make me smile at the end of the day. Even though its watching only.

Oh, never fail.. As a girl, when u win a guy the crowd response "How could u lose to a girl?".
If you lose to the guy "Why u bully girl??". Haha!! But, we r all joking.

However, in degree d. Cannot fool around too much. So of course I must learn to control lor!! Lol!!

Jun n Shafiq found my secret, that I play >.<... Not to mention watchin me play @.@... Pray it doesnt get spread too far >.<.


Tally-Ho~!!! Loves!!!

Still

It happened during Prayer 105, was a bit reluctant I admit but guess what I've learnt?

Many times we ask God, "Lord Lord, please grant me *this*", "Lord will you show me the way" and so on. Yet, we do not seem to get any physical or obvious sign from God. Why is that? Sometimes we even question God "Why won't you answer me?".

Number 1, you do not accept His answer. You want it your way, even though He knows its not what you need.

Number 2, its not the right timing. Therefore it comes later but you are impatient. And even after you get it, do you give thanks??

Number 3, you say but do not fully believe. Though you ask, in your heart you have a part which says "I'm just gonna do this just in case I do not get an answer". So r u not expecting an answer?

Number 4, you do not read the Word, you do not make time for Him. You probably don't understand why your life is turning like that. You feel alone and unloved. Why is that?? Though you know God loves you, why do you waver? Could it be you're not grounded in the Word? In the truth?

Number 5... This what strikes me most. Be STILL... If you didn't realize, in one week, which is 7 days, we rush through our days with work and school, sometimes too concentrated with the world and work around us that we just pass Him by. Though He speaks, we are too caught up in our work to focus on Him. To make that few 10 - 20 min listening to Him. We work and work till we're tired then read the Word tiredly, then fall asleep. Everyday this becomes like a routine. Your Spirit and mind is not calm to listen, it is not stilled frm all the activities.

Why is it that during Youth camps everyone is just so fired up for God?? Yet after few months down the road.. Everybody becomes... dull.. The fire dims.. But when camp comes again, everyone is fired up!! And the process repeats. Why is it?? what is the difference between camp and daily life?

The difference is that, when ur at camp, your entire being is focused solely on God. Your mind does not think bout work or assignments or anything else. Each and everyday at camp you look forward for what God has next in store, you look forward for the next journey or challenge that teaches you more bout God. Everything in camp is focused on God. That is why everyone is so fired up!! Compare to your daily life, most of the time your focus is more towards work and studies.

Today, God says.. Be still. Focus entirely on Him. Do not think bout your work just for 20min. Just you and Him. Find that time, come back, stop lettin that fire dim. Keep it burning.

I know its not easy, even I myself admit. But God will never look down upon us if we fail. He will keep encouragin us and watching over us. If you're looking for an answer. Be still.. Listen.. Focus upon Him. Have FAITH!!

Loves~

Dun Ask Me To Drive When...

Dun ask me to drive when I am rushing,
For I get quite reckless.
Dun ask me to drive when I am depressed,
For I am nt as alert as I am.
Dun ask me to drive when timing is too tight,
For I would make lots of wrong turning.

However at ANY other times..
Feel free to ask me to drive =).

Oh!! And make sure I know the way =P.
If not, dun ask me to drive ^^.

Loves~~

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND ooo

One night I had a dream. I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Across the sky I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonged to me and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life there was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in my life.

This really troubled me and I questioned the Lord about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your time of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Deuteronomy 31:8 [NIV]
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.

John 3:17
For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.


This is may not be my dream, but I changed the "he" to "I" so that you may apply it to your own life. It encourages me and assures the strength that the Lord will provide.

❤Loves❤❤❤